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oh_so_blessed
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Another pink! Man, the females are dominating November pretty good!! Welcome.
Oh god girls think I just had an official melt down at oh!
He came home to say he might be working nights in a few weeks for 6 weeks, now ye ok I know it's money etc etc BUT he works 6 am until 8 pm every night as it is, then later if he is needed. If he goes back nights I'm home all day alone and then all night. We've been trying to get our farm venture established so it's been a whole since DS oh and I have done summat that doesn't include work, and also this has been an ongoing thing for the last few years! All money we have goes right back into the land and I really am at breaking point of not seeing him! I never really say anything cause he usually gets defensive if I do so I had shut up but tonight I cracked!
Got really upset, and tween my sobs I explained exactly how I feel. (dunno bout ye but my oh won't fight with me pregnant) so for once he actually didn't get defensive and really listened to what I was saying. He told me I need to ask if I need more money and not let it be building up in my own head (Ive up until the middle of next months spare money that id have assigned each week on things I need) that he knows I'm just trying to free up as much of his wages for him that it's causing me to worry, which is tru!
He told me tho he feels he needs to take on this other job he can see we need to sit down and work through the farm money that he was only thinking at the weekend how we haven't done family time in a while!
Feel but less stressed cause he knows how I'm feeling but why can't I now stop crying lol he didn't offically say ok no I won't take on the job so I'm still worried, but least he knows how pressurised I'm feeling and is gonna try!
Ugh it just feels very anti climax like we've just had a major major talk, but not really resolved!
Need to go read jokes or summat to try calm the crying! He knows how I feel now and really listened I just gotta hope he takes it on board!
Oh that sucks Oh_so! Can you take a long lunch break and have a nap?