Definitely not the ultrasound results we have been hoping for yesterday. Maddy is not getting any better....the fluid is getting worse

Her little heart is still beating, but slowing down since the last visit. No one should ever, EVER have to make arrangements for when their baby passes, I can't think of anything worse than making those arrangements for your child. Thank God for my sister...who is doing that for me....I just can't do it

I am so thankful for Jill (my sister), because this is very hard for her as well. I think I will be at peace when Maddy finally lets go....then the long road of healing can begin. Until then though....as long as that little heart beats, I am going to cherish every single day I have with her