"O" around July 17, looking for buddies!

[Mommyloves]

wow, I had no idea people were judging so much about being on disability and having babies.. that seem so strange because, like you said, we paid into this for this purpose.. so I don't think they should judge. I would not wish this on anyone, but I am glad that we have disability insurance to help us when it does happen. I do know what you mean about the mean people on the forums, when I was pregnant with DD, I joined a forum and did a vent post and people just tore me a new one.. so I left that one and was hesitant about joining another one again, but did it, and glad I did, cuz this one seems to be much more supportive.. but it sounds like not all are that way

hmm.. since he said he was having sex with you, maybe you can ask him if that is a possibility? you never know if that will help you since sex stimulates all sorts of hormones and stuff.. worth a shot!

with me, I felt ovulation pains for a good week and then I got my positive OPK. I hope the soy triggers a positive OPK for you. What kind are you using this time? I used the cheap wondofo ones and they work pretty good and the line just keeps getting darker when you get close to O.. and they are way cheaper too.

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

The funny thing about the judgmental people is that it was a Disney World related message board. I'm a huge Disney freak. I really didn't think I'd find nasty people like that on there, but I guess those people are everywhere. So many Americans seem to have this high and mighty attitude about where their tax dollars go to. I've spoken to people from other countries and they don't seem to be as incensed by it as Americans. Don't get me wrong, I love my country but I don't have to love everyone in it lol. A few months ago I had calculated how much I paid in disability tax over the years I had worked, and I've only been on disability for two years now and so far I'm still being paid back the money I put in.

I don't know if you find this question too personal, if you do.. Don't worry about answering. I know that when you have a child, you get a check for the child that's about 50% of the amount of your own check. Does the amount stay the same for your second child or is it reduced? And does being married effect the amounts? I've tried googling this but I can't seem to find a straight answer.

As for the sex thing, I'd feel funny asking! Plus it would be weird if we had to schedule having sex for the first time. This is a little personal but I'm trying to be more open about it since so many women are ashamed by it, but I was raped and I've only had sex once since then. It was with a very close friend of many years so I felt safe with him but its been several years since I'd last had sex and the idea of it not happening naturally freaks me out. I'd rather not have sex with him then have sex where I'm super uncomfortable during the whole thing. But if I had to pick someone to be with, it would be him. He's a hottie and I'm usually pretty comfortable around him because I don't think he's trying to get in my pants.

I started using Answer brand OPKs, I wasn't aware of the bad reviews until after Will bought them. I'm going back to dollar tree tests once I run out. My boobs are super sore, hoping its an early sign of ovulation!

 

[Mommyloves]

it always blows my mind how I can talk to people on here that have very similar situations as me.. and you and I are no exception which is cool in a way, but sucks that you have had to endure some of the same crappy things as me. but at least I understand!!

that is so awesome that you are a disney freak, we plan on taking our kids to disney land this november when DH has earned enough OT money to be able to go.. we think we will need at least 2600.00 to be able to get a hotel and two day passes for the kids (one is under three, so no need for her to get a ticket). Let me know if you think that price is too under because then we will save more. I have not been to disney since I was 11, so I am WAAAAY over due.. not by choice, I would love to have gone back many times.. just no $$

about the disability thing.. I totally agree with you on the way americans think.. there is a sense of entitlement and selfishness that you won't find in other cultures.. and that bugs the shit out of me! I love my country too, but you are right when you said not everyone in it, because I have very strong views in a lot of things and not all agree and I really don't care if they do because their opinion does not matter! HA! but it does still suck when they feel like they need to give their opinions on personal stuff.. if you have nothing nice to say, don't say shit because nobody needs negativity in their life.. ever.

So for both of my kids, I believe I was paid 65% or something, but it may have been 50% and I just didn't notice because no taxes were taken out so it seemed bigger to me? but both kids were the same amount. (don't worry, I don't mind answering.. I think we have passed the "too personal" mark once we joined this forum lol)

as for the sex thing.. unfortunately, I totally understand where you are coming from and I am so, so, SO sorry that you were raped I would never ever wish that on anyone.. not even my worst enemy.. Rape does things to you that people do not realize.. you do not want to be sexual in certain ways and things trigger flashbacks of what happened. It took a long time for me to get over mine, and it also happened with someone I knew and trusted. I also experienced a lot of infections from the rape and could not go to school or walk for months after because I was so infected. It took a lot of time and therapy before I really could be "normal" and even now, my DH knows about it and is sensitive to not doing anything that might remind me of it. so I TOTALLY understand. I wish there was a quick fix to make things better, but it really took me a good 6 years before I was ok again.. and like I said, even then, certain situations freaked me out.

just do what makes you comfortable maybe not now is the time, but you might feel differently later, so just go with what your body and mind is telling you.

I have not used any of the OPKs you used.. if you want cheap ones, the wondfo ones from amazon are good.. I used those and got good results.. but I also tested twice a day.. and I had the clear blue easy ones as backup to confirm results if I was not sure what the cheap ones were saying.

sore bbs are a good sign!!! that means your hormones are surging!! YAY!!! just make sure to keep testing so that you dont miss your surge because with some, soy iso makes you O earlier, for me, it did not change my O date but did make it stronger

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

I have not been to Disneyland, only Disney World. I'm from NY but moved to Florida a year ago. I got a job working for a Disney call center but was only their briefly because of my health problems. I know right now Disney Works is running a free dining promotion for some of Oct, Nov and December. If you book a hotel and ticket package together they'll pay for all the meals. You get a certain amount of credits. You should check mousesavers.com to see if they have the same package in DL, you'll be able to stay longer because of the savings.

I live 40 minutes away from Disney World. I've only been there once since I moved but I plan on getting annual passes when my future baby is about 2 or so. Definitely want to pass the Disney gene on lol!

As for the rape, mine was by an ex-boyfriend and it happened 3 times. It was sodomy instead of vaginal rape and for several years I didn't tell a soul because I thought it was my fault and I was super ashamed. I'm trying to be more open about it now so it won't have power over me anymore. Several years after it happened I actually had to have surgery to repair damage he had done. It never healed right and I ended up with a fistula. Definitely not fun. I have issues with personal space now. I had to share a mic with Will last Sunday during choir performance at mass and he couldn't get over that the closer he got to me, the further I moved in the opposite direction. It's just second nature now, I don't even realize I'm doing it. The funny thing is deep down I'm craving physical contact, especially affection. I just don't know how to show it. I just want to cuddle so bad lol.

We started trying last night. I took mucinex, and inseminated about an hour after that. I just put a little preseed on the syringe. I didn't want to really insert any, and risk losing more sperm in leakage. He's supposed to bring another 'deposit' tonight but he has his godson so I don't know how he's going to be able to manage that. We'll see if he actually does it.

I'm starting to get a faint line on the OPKs, I hope that means its coming soon!

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

Omg this is my OPK from this afternoon. I held my pee for like 7 hours from 9-4 today and I got the darkest line I've seen since I started testing in June. I know it's not positive yet, but it's close!

https://i40.tinypic.com/2rnv9u8.jpg

 

[Mommyloves]

aaah yes! that is getting more positive! Awesome!! I hope you got a positive in the last couple of days. Sorry I have not logged on in awhile, my nausea has been horrible and I feel like I can barely take care of DD and DS because I feel so puky.

I am so sorry about your rape.. I feel like sodomy would be so much worse and for it to happen multiple times, I can't even fathom.. and I thought mine was bad

thank you for the info on DL! I am going to go on that side you mentioned and see what I can find. I know DS would LOVE to have breakfast with the characters, but I am not sure how expensive it is.. so I guess I will have to find out!

So did you get a more positive? I am so excited that you are so close!!

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

I'm sorry about the nausea! My mom had it pretty bad during her pregnancy with me. She said potato chips instead of saltines helped. And I've heard a b vitamin, I think B6 can help? That was on my future OB's website. I hope it eases up soon. How many weeks are you now?

The line never got any darker but we've still been trying. Today is supposed to be my ovulation day so it's the last time we're trying this month. He had a really hard time getting in the mood yesterday so I don't want to push him much more. Just one more time will hopefully be enough. It'll be the 6th time in the last 8 days so I'm hoping it's enough. If not there's next cycle. I know I haven't been trying long, I don't know how women do this all the time for years. I'm a little discouraged already. I wish I could chart temps so I'd know for sure that I'm ovulating. I think if I have to I'll start that next month even if it means having to set an alarm for every morning so I can get accurate temps.

 

[Mommyloves]

yea I have been eating salt and vinegar chips to try to curb my nausea. it is hard though.. it seems like it is all day long and even looking in the fridge makes me want to puke. I am currently 8 weeks now.. so only 4 more weeks of this sick stuff lol. augh!

I know about the pressure thing.. DH was having issues while we were TTC too and so that is when I said ok, we will do IUI this next cycle, but low and behold, I was pregnant, so we didn't need to go there, but I was ready because the last two cycles were horrible trying to get him to DTD.

I really hope that this is your month, but temping really is a great tool. That is the only way that I really knew that I was ovulating and when. The opk said positive, but I did not get my temp shift until a few days after that, so had I not been temping, I would have totally missed it.

our AC broke last night so I had the worst sleep.. with DD and DS in the bed with us, the room got soooo hot.. so now I have to go get me a fan until we can get someone out to fix our unit! aaaah!!!

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

I finally got my + OPK last night! Well it was like a tiny tiny shade away from positive but I didn't hold my pee long enough so I'm considering it positive. I use the FF app and now it says my period should be on cd38 instead of 35, which is confusing me. I have a feeling I'll still get it on time if I don't get pregnant this cycle.

This morning I nearly had a heart attack. I was trying to send Will a message on Facebook with a pic of my OPK and explaining that it was positive and instead it posted on my wall!! I nearly died. I deleted it like seconds after it went up but I couldn't stop panicking, how would I explain that to my family? They think Will and I are dating, and we plan on just saying it was an accident instead of planning to be co-parents. It's not something a lot of people can understand. I'm still pretty young, why would I decide to conceive this way? It's a personal decision, I'm happy with it and so is he and that's all that really matters to me. But thinking I'd have to explain to family.. Omg. I was shaking. I can't believe that happened. Good news is it seems that nobody saw it since I deleted it so quickly. I'm still holding my breath though.

 

[Mommyloves]

yay on the positive OPK, but that suuuucks about the posting thing.. that is so easy to do on FB too. but hopefully you took it down before anyone really saw it. FF will change your period dates to a bigger range if you are irregular.. mine had such a big range, but I knew from previous months that it was not accurate so I just ignored it. What day are you on now?

Sorry if it takes me awhile to respond, I have been puking after every meal and I am so sick of it

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

Isn't there anything your OB can give you? Do you think maybe you have the extreme case of morning sickness like Kate Middleton? I know the name but I can't spell it. It can't be good for you to not be able to keep everything down.

Not sure what's going on, I'm on CD27 out of usually 35/36 day cycle and 3 dpo and I've been spotting since yesterday. It's very light, but I did have a tiny blood clot yesterday. I'm scared that I'm already out this month. I first thought it might be implantation bleeding but it's too soon.

 

[Mommyloves]

the spotting could be your actual ovulation. If you are counting your ovulation date from your positive OPK, that could be off by 1-3 days... for me, I ovulated 2 days after my positive OPK, so don't give up, but I would keep inseminating just to be sure. Have you had any ovulation pains? too bad you can't do IUI from home.. that would rule out any blocks in your cervix or issues with the sperm getting up there.

They could give me meds that kate middleton had (I think zofran was one of them) but I have been refusing them because I am scared of taking anything in the 1st trimester... even pain meds simply because there are no definite tests that say that they have not or will not cause any issues.

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

The last time we inseminated was Sunday and I've been spotting very lightly since Monday. Maybe I missed it. But I had ewcm on Saturday and Sunday. I'm going to the gyno for an annual tomorrow and hoping they'll do an ultrasound to check if I still have cystic ovaries from the PCOS. I'm crossing my fingers that the weight loss has helped and maybe everything is fine in there. I had to stop taking the Metformin because of such bad stomach issues so I'm wondering if my sugar is going too high and that's causing the spotting. I called my pcp to see if she'll prescribe the extended release version. I don't have a good feeling about this cycle, but next month is my birthday and I'd be inseminating the week before. That means the baby could implant on or around my birthday! That'd be a nice gift!

Zofran should definitely be safe. It's non-drowsy, I get it all the time when I'm in the ER with migraine. You can't stay sick all the time, it's no good for you!

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

I hope you're feeling ok! You haven't been on in a while. I'm a little worried.

I'm 9 dpo today, and I spotted again two days ago which I'm hoping was implantation bleeding. No symptoms so far, other than feeling bloated. Last month I had a whole bunch like sore boobs, stuffy nose, etc and I didn't end up pregnant. I'm hoping no symptoms means I'll get my BFP in a few days! I do have one weird thing that's going on. I have very watery CM. I woke up this morning and felt like I was getting AF when I stood up and it was just watery discharge. I googled it and some women who had it got their BFP so fingers crossed! I'm supposed to get AF around Wednesday or Thursday (FF says later though) so I'm hoping to test around Thursday.

 

[Mommyloves]

Hey this have been crazy for me.. from puking every day to having a very small amount (barely noticeable) amount of dark brown blood on my panty liner.. so I have been laying low. I went in for an appt, and they would not give me a u/s to make sure all was ok, they assured me that a small amount of bleeding is normal during pregnancy and as long as it is not with cramping, I am fine...still frustrating for me tho. I am still so so SO naseus all the time.. I throw up basically just stomach acid, but it is nasty. I would take the zofran but the studies I have found say they do not know if it has any affect on a fetus within the first trimester, so I rather not risk it if I can.

Well, watery CM is a good sign.. I believe mine was watery/creamy.. so Fx'd that this is your month! that would be so awesome!

When is AF due for you?

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

AF was due Wednesday or Thursday. I started spotting Thursday and Friday and now it's Saturday and still no AF. I haven't taken a test because I figured with the spotting that it wasn't possible but I remember my mom telling me she got her period (or I'm guessing heavy spotting) the first month she was pregnant so she didn't know she was pregnant until 8 weeks and the morning sickness started.

FF shows I should be getting AF tomorrow because of when I ovulated. If I still don't get it I guess I'll take a test.

 

[wish4baby]

Hey girls! I missed y'all lol
mommyloves, I'm sorry its been so hard for you! I've also had about 3 episodes of dark spotting, but the ultrasound tech said everything looks fine, and not to worry about it. I thinks it's bright red that should be worrisome, but I'm not 100%.
Maybebaby, that's so exciting that AF hasn't showed, hurry and test! my fingers are crossed for you..

 

[Mommyloves]

maybebaby.. well that is good news right?! tell AF to stay away and I hope you get your BFP this time! that would be sooo awesome.

Wish4baby.. ooh your words are so encouraging. I just tried using my doppler and I did not hear anything, but it is still way to early for my home doppler to really work. I am 10 weeks and so I think I need to be at least 12.

 

[MaybeBaby1013]

I'm holding off on testing. I just have a feeling I'm not pregnant and to see another negative test would be such a downer. If AF just shows up already I won't feel as bad, it's just all that hoping, wishing and praying during those few minutes waiting to a test to develop only to get a BFN drives me crazy. I can't explain it. So far just more light spotting and that's it.

 

[Mommyloves]

I totally understand not wanting to get a neg.. so I will just pray that af stays away. how much spotting? like a lot or a little? have you ever had that before?