So...yeah it could be worse. But for me, right now, I need some support. I think you guys get it a lot more than most people. I've posted on the TTC board, but I felt this might be better here. Tomorrow I go back to my RE, it was my first round of Clomid. I went in day 12, no follicle growth. He said if tomorrow there's nothing, he's going to assume it isn't working (it'll be CD 17. ) Guess we'll see.I'm still not good at [paying all that money and being told it didn't work. My best friend just told me that she's pregnant after 1 month of trying. I of course was super happy for her in the email back and very supportive and all that, but I was crying while I typed. I'm just numb today. We've been trying a year..I know I know..could be longer. I'm just sad and hurting today and not figuring I'm ovulating today, I don't have any symptoms and I'm just having a problem functioning too well day. I'm worried tomorrow's going to get even uglier. I can't keep crying this much (I'm gonna blame a lot on the clomid.) I work full time as a teacher so I can't lose it at work but I sure feel like it sometimes... BTW, I have PCOS, in case you needed that fun background.. Anyway, I'm sure I'm being whiny, but I just want somewhere where I CAN be whiny and have someone get it. I'm functioning in life, living, could be worse I know..but today I just need someone that gets it.