Uh oh.... I'm starting to get bitter about this.
I'm sitting here in bed, thinking about how bad my back aches, and how HORRIBLY my uterus hurts, no matter what position I try to lay in..
How disgustingly sick I was for the first 15 weeks, and how I still have a very minimal appetite..
How I've been doing this for 19 weeks already, and I'll be doing it for roughly 21 more weeks..
How I spend ALL my time browsing girl's name, nursery ideas, asking for advice from you girls and other friends, making lists of what my girl will need when she arrives, posting updates on Facebook, while he's literally done NONE of that. Not even a Facebook post..
How I have to go through child birth, which for someone who doesn't handle pain very well, it will probably be the most painful thing I've ever experienced..
How I will have to spend all day and most of the night by myself with my baby because of my bf's work schedule..
And mostly, how I'm not married to my bf, he has no plans of marrying me, but I'm still expected to sign his last name on the birth certificate..
I'm not saying he has it easy and I'm completely screwed, I know being a bf to a pregnant gf is not easy for him. This baby is just as much his as it is mine, and I obviously wouldn't be having her without him. I do think the best thing is for us to compromise together and agree to a name we both like, but... I feel like if I'm set on a name, even if he doesn't favor it, I deserve to have it, after what I've gone/ going/ will go through. That probably makes me a selfish turd.
I wish I didn't feel like this.