Hello, I'm very new to all of this - both the pregnancy thing and the talkboards thing. I have posted a similar message on mumsnet, so forgive me for asking the same questions twice if some of you are on both discussion boards.
I am not really sure why I am writing this post. It is, I think, sort of a way for me to deal with what is happening to me right now. This is like another person to talk to. (My partner is amazing, but he is just one person.)
Maybe too I am hoping that somebody else has gone through what I am going through and might give me some little ray of hope ... although I think I need to accept that that ray of hope is not very bright.
Anyway, my story ... I am/was five to six weeks pregnant. I started bleeding very lightly on Weds morning. My GP said not to worry too much and to wait and see ... Weds night I woke up with really bad cramps, like period pains, and there was loads more bleeding. It was fresh red blood.
I went to A&E, and they transferred me to the gynae unit in another hospital. The on-call doctor did an internal exam and said the cervix was still tightly closed so could be a threatened miscarriage.
I was admitted to the ward. Continued to be in pain (although this reduced with IV paracetamol) and lots more bleeding, but not really clots, just fluid.
They then did an abdominal ultrasound with a very full bladder (was desperate to pee!), and the sonographer said straight to the point "The uterus is entirely normal. If you were pregnant, then you've miscarried completely."
They then took blood and did an hCG test, but that was really high still. Now I am back home and have to go back tomorrow for another hCG test. The doctor explained that this is to see whether the hCG is still rising.
So now I am completely confused. If the scan showed an empty uterus, and I am bleeding and in pain, and also my breasts which were previously very tender have now stopped hurting, why are they bothering to see if the hCG is still going up? And if it is still going up, what on earth does that mean?
Is there any possibility at all that I am still pregnant? If I am, could all of what's happened to me mean my baby is damaged in some way? Is it more likely to be an ectopic?
I cannot believe how emotional I have been about this. Until we conceived (which admittedly took just eight weeks), my partner and I were very much 'Let's just see what happens', but now I think that I have miscarried, I cannot begin to explain how strongly I feel about everything. I just didn't think I would be that emotionally attached to a group of cells no more than half a centimetre wide.
I know so many of you on here have been through the horrible experience of miscarrying. I just wondered whether anybody else had had a similar experience to me ... and whether anybody had a positive outcome from it.
Thanks for reading all of this. Sorry it's so long
I am not really sure why I am writing this post. It is, I think, sort of a way for me to deal with what is happening to me right now. This is like another person to talk to. (My partner is amazing, but he is just one person.)
Maybe too I am hoping that somebody else has gone through what I am going through and might give me some little ray of hope ... although I think I need to accept that that ray of hope is not very bright.
Anyway, my story ... I am/was five to six weeks pregnant. I started bleeding very lightly on Weds morning. My GP said not to worry too much and to wait and see ... Weds night I woke up with really bad cramps, like period pains, and there was loads more bleeding. It was fresh red blood.
I went to A&E, and they transferred me to the gynae unit in another hospital. The on-call doctor did an internal exam and said the cervix was still tightly closed so could be a threatened miscarriage.
I was admitted to the ward. Continued to be in pain (although this reduced with IV paracetamol) and lots more bleeding, but not really clots, just fluid.
They then did an abdominal ultrasound with a very full bladder (was desperate to pee!), and the sonographer said straight to the point "The uterus is entirely normal. If you were pregnant, then you've miscarried completely."
They then took blood and did an hCG test, but that was really high still. Now I am back home and have to go back tomorrow for another hCG test. The doctor explained that this is to see whether the hCG is still rising.
So now I am completely confused. If the scan showed an empty uterus, and I am bleeding and in pain, and also my breasts which were previously very tender have now stopped hurting, why are they bothering to see if the hCG is still going up? And if it is still going up, what on earth does that mean?
Is there any possibility at all that I am still pregnant? If I am, could all of what's happened to me mean my baby is damaged in some way? Is it more likely to be an ectopic?
I cannot believe how emotional I have been about this. Until we conceived (which admittedly took just eight weeks), my partner and I were very much 'Let's just see what happens', but now I think that I have miscarried, I cannot begin to explain how strongly I feel about everything. I just didn't think I would be that emotionally attached to a group of cells no more than half a centimetre wide.
I know so many of you on here have been through the horrible experience of miscarrying. I just wondered whether anybody else had had a similar experience to me ... and whether anybody had a positive outcome from it.
Thanks for reading all of this. Sorry it's so long