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[SweetV]

wookie that sounds horrible. Good for you for getting out of that situation!

Radiance - I'm so sorry you are going through this. Take comfort in your scan with a strong heartbeat. There are many ladies that bleed throughout that deliver healthy babies. Huge hugs.

 

[Ummi2boyz]

Dairy: sorry you had such a day. We all have a close one in that situation, that's very tough.

radiance: I hope it's just a nasty scare. You're in my thoughts hun.

mrsR: as worrying as being given park is, try and focus on the positives. You're baby is fine, that's all that matters. One day, one little step at a time will help get you through the wobbles. Don't think about what may or may not happen, because first of all, no one knows what will happen, and secondly, the chances are that you'll get to hold you rainbow in your arms in end. Try and enjoy every little moment.

hi everyone, I hope you're all doing good.

 

[Tasha]

Mrs R. I think I said to you before in here, that sometimes it's caused by incompetent cervix but by in large they don't know. Sometimes there is an infection but they don't know if the waters break because there is an infection or if there is an infection because the waters broke (think chicken and egg). I'm involved in research this time too to help try and figure out what causes it (and preterm labour), every cervical scan I have they do various swabs, take a urine sample and do this coloured test of thing, it goes to the research department, they carry on collecting it looks to see if they can see anything linking prom or preterm labour ladies.

 

[blueblue]

wookie - that's such a hard thing to go through.

Dairy - hope you get your test results through soon, sorry to hear about your brother.

Radiance - I hope everything goes ok

Mrs R - sorry you are feeling so anxious

Sweet V / florida- I also feel like if I get to 10 weeks then I'll feel better, the furthest I've got is 8w1d. Scans also make me very anxious as mine were all missed too. I have an 8 week scan next week then one at 12w, dreading it as I'm worried my symptoms are a bit less.

 

[floridamomma]

Wookie glad you for out of the situation.xx
Dairy hope the numbers are good
Mrs r don't let the what ifs rob you of your pregnancy. I have had anxiety most of my adult life it can be hard but it'll make you crazy with worry
Radiance praying everything's ok

Afm 2nd second showing a baby triple in size from last week. Heart beating away. We are officially released to our ob. I'm terrified but the specialist was very pleased

 

[dairymomma]

Thanks all. My brother is an alcoholic and it's been rough for our family to see him struggling with it because we lost an aunt just a few years ago to liver failure brought on by alcoholism. We've tried so many things to help him and nothing has worked as yet. Hopefully time behind bars will get him thinking seriously about what he's been doing and wake him up for good this time. It's my biggest fear that he'll get out, get hammered, and cause a fatal accident because he's driving under the influence. He's got a few DUIs so he's been incredibly lucky that he hasn't hurt or killed someone yet. And there's nothing you can do to take their pain away. THEY have to come to terms with whatever is driving them to drink or do drugs. And my brother hasn't yet. It's sad and it's really hard for my mom to see her boy self-destructing and not be able to do anything. FX jail does what interventions, talking, begging, rehab, and everything else we've tried hasn't.

Radiance, sorry to hear you are having a rough first tri. I'm one of the ladies who bled almost daily in the first tri with my last baby and it was so scary. I was having panic attacks before appts. But time after time, LO was hanging in there. FX the bleeding stops here and you can relax a bit.

MrsR/Sweet/blue/florida-Anxiety is normal for PARL moms. We all know that those lines don't guarantee a baby is coming home with us. It's hard but all you can do is try to relax and keep telling yourself-Today I am pregnant. Today my baby is okay. I take my pg one day at a time because if I tried to look further than that, I'd be a basket case by 5 weeks. I also think some of us just need something to worry about too. I know I am one of those ladies and I try to keep myself occupied mentally by worrying about mundane things-like if our sewer line is freezing again as bad as it just did. (Nothing like finding out it took DH 2 full days to unthaw the 50 FEET of solid ice at the end of the line to take your mind off of being pg for a few minutes, eh? )

AFM-Still seeing lines and since they haven't really darkened since yesterday, I feel like my hCG is slowing a tad as usual for me. My labs FINALLY came back. At 12dpo, my hCG was a huge 20mIu...*sound of balloon deflating* Pretty normal for me at that point but I'm prob going for a few more betas to make sure they are rising normally.

Edit: I called the dr because I figured it would work perfect for me to go for my labs when DH gets home for breakfast. He wanted me to wait a week but was okay with me going today and again on Tuesday. I'm doing the latter. Yeah...Like I can wait a week to find out if my levels are going up.

 

[floridamomma]

Dairy lol I love when they recommend waiting extended periods as if we'll go ok! I'm always like no how about tomorrow? Lol I'm not having anxiety this time thank God but I'm definitely nervous. Thankfully I'm in a much better place in my life as far as dealing with the previous miscarriages. I also had a second little something in my uterus. Dr and tech said It's either a bleed(please don't be a bleed) or a uterine polyp. I got nervous at the mention of polyp thinking cancer but they said no. It's caused by all the meds I've had to take. Then there's that 2 inch cyst on my right ovary that feel likes labor pain if I don't pee/have a bm right away. But I feel good. My specialist actually sat in on my us. He was like a proud uncle lol.

 

[hopeful23456]

awesome news florida!!!!

 

[dancareoi]

This pregnancy has been a roller coaster. A big, hard, emotional roller coaster. I am a few steps away from 2nd trimester. Baby has been great. Saturday I started gushing. It got really scary at one point. They got my blood transfusion bracelets and all. At that point my heart and mind were fighting one another. There was no way my baby could still be alive. I talked to the technician and asked if he would let me watch, he did! I actually didn't see baby's heart beating for the first few minutes but then I asked and he showed me. Baby looked like a boy!!! I've felt that this whole pregnancy. However, I have bled daily almost. Yesterday was my first day, went most the day today and then bam I have an appointment Friday but called before the bleeding started again and asked if they would call me if any one cancelled for tomorrow (Thursday). My heart hurts. I'm not feeling positive at this point.

I had mmc at 8 weeks in July 09. I got pg again aug 09 and when I was about 7 weeks I started bleeding. A scan showed a heartbeat but I had a blood clot in my womb, they advised me I would probably bleed again.

A few days later I started bleeding very heavily, so much so I stood in the shower and it was literally pouring out, I was devastated, how could my baby possibly be alive.

That baby will be 5 in May!

 

[floridamomma]

Thanks hopefulxx

 

[dairymomma]

Glad you had a good scan florida. And yes, I'm impatient too. Like "Can we get an ultrasound today?" impatient even though I KNOW at 4 weeks exact there's nothin' to see in there. I think I'd be impatient even if they implanted a camera in there so I could check on baby at any old time I wished...

Just got an update on my brother's situation. Jail time will be served at a work camp and is 12 months but he could be released to in-house rehab in 6 months. The rehab, my dad figures, will be an intensive in-patient 6 month course so either way, he's going to be somewhere for the next year. I'm so sad he at this point but really, I think/hope/pray/wish this is the best thing for him.

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Hello ladies,

dancareoi, thank you for sharing your reassuring story!!

Thank you ladies for calming my nerves. The not having control part is hard for me as I normally like to have everything under control. I definently know too much about the ups and downs of pregnancy and what can and cannot happen. I wish I was obilvious to it honestly.

wookie, I'm so glad you're not in that situation anymore. No one should be treated that way.

Radiance, I'm praying all is well with your little one.

blue, praying your scan will go just fine.

Florida, I'm so happy things are looking great for you!!

dairy, it's so hard to try to help someone with an addiction if they don't want to help themselves. I think this is the best option for your brother and I hope he comes out the otherside a changed person. Also, I'm praying your HCG rises nicely for you. Let us know.

 

[SweetV]

blue - I remember stressing when symptoms seemed to come and go. With my first mmc I knew in my heart it was bad. At that point I did not have a single symptom at all. With my stillbirth I remember freaking out around 9 weeks when my symptoms started to slow but reassured myself as they were still kind of there (I know this sounds weird but I will press on my boobs, if they hurt a little I'm good). I also bought a doppler. I got the hb at 10 weeks with my angel and used it as frequently as I needed to.

Florida - hurray for a good scan and a happy specialist!

Dairy - glad they are letting you go for more betas at your desire. Hope to see those numbers doubling for you! My dad was also an alcoholic as are many members of my family. My dad went to rehab after he was caught getting on a major highway going the wrong direction by police and was intoxicated. He is lucky he didn't kill anybody or himself. I hope some time away works for your brother. It is so hard on the rest of the family.

Mrs R. I know exactly what you mean about being in control. I think the other posters were correct, we need to learn to take it day by day and control the things we can. Eat properly, exercise to our current ability and just take as good care of ourselves as possible. That is the absolute best we can do.

 

[mowat]

Good news Florida!

Hope your brother gets the help he needs Dairy. Let us know your numbers---nice they seem to be looking after you.

 

[loeylo]

Sorry I haven't been very active on here this week, I have been reading everyone's updates an now have loads to reply to so will do that later. Nausea kicking my butt as is exhaustion and my workload at work is ridiculous and nothing can be done about it as no one knows I'm pregnant.

 

[DSemcho]

Ugh. We are moving back to the states in 40-ish days, and DH is saying we don't need cell phones when we get back because we haven't needed one the whole four years we've been in Turkey. The difference is that we don't go off base without each other, and the base is so small that I'd be able to find him. However in the states it'll be different because once we get there we are driving from Baltimore, MD to Holloman AFB, NM. But also with me being pregnant if something goes wrong I need to be able to call him anytime. And my family will want to talk to me a lot and I don't want to be on the phone a lot, so texting is helpful. Please tell me I'm not crazy? We can get unlimited texting and talking for $130 a month (both phones). And what if I go down to El Paso without him one day (1.5 hours away) and I go into labor??

 

[floridamomma]

D for your peace of mine I'd get it. That's a lot of traveling on your own.
Mrs r you are talking to the queen of control here. That's one reason in doing better I've learned to let some of the control go bit it's hard. My dh took us all out to dinner last night. He works nights so it was nice to all be together. Well it almost didn't happen because I don't understand why we need to do that when the kids have homework and chores to be done. I like order. I like control. Rmc had taught we truly have neither. So I control what I can. My food, how much stress I allow in my life. Little things that actually matter. My life all around has been better for it.

 

[Squig34]

Just to say ladies that I'm still reading along to follow all your progress & praying all your pregnancies go well, as well as thinking of you all in the other challenges that life throws up, but I probably won't be posting until I'm able to rejoin. I'm always pleased to read your good news on scans etc though

 

[Tasha]

Huge hugs squig. I think of you a lot x

 

[Ummi2boyz]

Huge hugs squig. We do understand.
I sincerely hope that we'll see your good news very soon. xx