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[blueblue]

Dairy - congratulations on the weight loss . Hope the slipped disc heals soon and you get some answers re: the clotting disorder. Hope your uncle is recovering well.

Welcome Char and Inge, congratulations .

Sportysgirl - congratulations on your 12 week scan, I hope this is your rainbow .

D - wow, Cole is big already. Hope your labour is uneventful too .

 

[DSemcho]

Just got done with an appointment (I'm 37+3) and I'm 4cm dilated and 70-80% effaced... Apparently I've been contracting and don't feel them lol.

 

[CRWx]

How exciting! xxx

 

[petitpas]

After all you've been through you deserve not to feel those contractions, D good luck tonight (if you haven't had him already). I reckon a big head is an advantage as he'll have gravity on his side literally just falling out of you with a plop.

Hope, I'm glad you are well taken care of. Can you just ask the midwives to listen in now and again?

 

[CRWx]

Nvm

 

[Hope39]

Pip - some of the midwives like to listen in for there peace of mind too so some days I get a bedtime hb check and then some days I don't .

One of the 'nicer' midwives was telling me that it's still wrote up on the board that I have them so she hasn't mentioned anything and left it there

Xx

 

[Drsamyjohn]

Hi ladies....I'm back. It's been a looong time. DairyMomma, are you still here? I kindof dropped off the map after my fourth loss, I was really really done after that. I was certain i was scarred or having early menopause because we used no BC for a year and a half (I was getting pregnant back to back with my losses) but today I am 8 weeks.
We saw a heartbeat at 6 weeks 113 bpm, and this time I'm sick as a dog, which has never happened before. I'm trying to take these as good signs.

My issue right now is I am profoundly depressed. I don't know if it's because I'm so sick or because I'm so scared. I cry all day, between throwing up. And I work full time. I have to wait another week to see if the baby still has a heartbeat.
I feel like my DH is already sick of me, I always have some physical ailment to complain about. Really all I want to do is lay in bed.
Never again. I will never do this again. It's all too painful. Too scary. I have anxiety issues to begin with and I am not handling this well.
Just wish it was different, wish I could be happy.
I don't know what to do. I try to remember that God will see me through, and to trust Him, but I feel like I'm lacking faith. Thank you for reading my ramble. Hope to be back with good news. All my best to you PAL mommys.

 

[newlywedtzh]

Aw I know the feeling all too well DrsArmy- I think someone said it in here but I repeated it to myself in the early weeks as somewhat of a mantra. Take it one day at a time and tell yourself "today I am pregnant" and it's not over until it's over. Do things to relax and de-stress. Read books- 10% happier (how to tame the voice in your head) was a good one when I was in the thick of PARL. Take hot baths at night. And stay on this thread! Lots of support here- couldn't have made it through without everyone here.

to everyone else!! I continue to stalk!!

D- all that and you're going to have a full term baby!! That is great news- Can't wait for an update.

Hope- so happy for you!! How is the PARL?

 

[SweetV]

Drsamyjohn - what a rollercoaster PARL is . I hope DH is more understanding than you think. I know mine seemed tired of listening to me as well but I think part of it is that they can't fix it. I had ultrasounds every 2 weeks through the first tri and remember how hard it was to wait. I hope as things progress over the next few weeks you feel better emotionally. I'm looking forward to hearing your good news! All the best!!

 

[DSemcho]

After all you've been through you deserve not to feel those contractions, D good luck tonight (if you haven't had him already). I reckon a big head is an advantage as he'll have gravity on his side literally just falling out of you with a plop.

Hope, I'm glad you are well taken care of. Can you just ask the midwives to listen in now and again?

Oh they haven't admitted me to L&D. I'm waiting at home for labor to start. I know right now my back is killing me.

 

[dairymomma]

Dramy! Hey good to see you back! Yep, I'm still here. Still having issues and still no answers either. But we've got a few more things to look into coming up here so I'm hopeful. And a MASSIVE congratulations on that lovely baby news! I'm fx you see bubs with a lovely strong hb at your next scan. As for the depression, yep that sounds normal. After so many losses, I pretty much spend the whole first 15 weeks trying to deny I'm pregnant (not so easy when your anxiety it thru the roof and you constantly dig out old hpts for peace of mind...). Hang in there though and the nausea certainly sounds encouraging as does that scan. Oh I really hope and think this is your rainbow baby!

 

[blueblue]

D - hope everything goes well and you continue not to feel the contractions, I'm so pleased you made it to full term. .

DrAmy - congratulations on 8 weeks. PARL is very tough, hopefully the nausea and feeling different is a really good sign, this pregnancy felt very different for me than my previous ones , I basically lived on the sofa when not at work for the first few months when previously I was able to exercise etc. I was a nervous wreck too, meditation and relaxation techniques really helped me through it (Tara Brach has free downloads and they are lovely and relaxing)

 

[Raptasaur]

Late to the news but wow huge congratulations Tasha! I am so delighted for you and your family. Wishing you every happiness.

Hope so glad to hear all is well with you and you have some lovely midwives looking after you both. Thinking of you.

Wishing all of you lovely PAL ladies healthy happy pregnancies.

 

[Radiance]

EEK! We are nearly 5 days away from my first ultrasound!

 

[blueblue]

Radiance - good luck for your ultrasound, how many weeks will you be?

 

[Tasha]

dramy. I would look at getting some support as in my experience I got more and more stressed (maybe due to my late losses though). Midwife, perinatal mental health team, anything in place now xx

Thank you so much Rap. I still can't believe he's here. I still don't believe he will stay but hopefully time will change that. He's beautiful and perfect. Such a mummy's boy already. He helps my heart heal every day and in every single way. Feel like the luckiest person alive

 

[Radiance]

Radiance - good luck for your ultrasound, how many weeks will you be?

Based on lmp, 6 weeks and based on ovulation 5+3
I know there is no way I'll be 6 weeks so just crossing my fingers to see a sac! Although at 5+3 we may see nothing. I'm oddly not too worried.
I don't have the "deathly" feeling that I get when something bad has happened.

 

[nessaw]

Congrats dramy.
Good luck for your scan radiance.
afm on school hols from today. Hoping for a restful 5 wks!

 

[DSemcho]

Cole is still holding on and I want this baby out lol.

I'm guesstimating he weighs about 8lbs 14oz right now (if I go by the weight gain that happened between 29 and 32 weeks)...

38 tomorrow.

Any advice to get contractions going? It's possible I'm dilated more than 4cm but no way to know until my membrane sweep on Monday.

 

[hopeful23456]

wow D, that's awesome he's so big!