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[nessaw]

Twins confirmed today. Saw both heartbeats. Looking like mcma twins which have a higher risk of twin to twin transfusion than our previous set of mcda. I was convinced from the weekend onwards that the pg was over due to similarities with my 3rd mc. So was very surprised to see one never mind 2. We'll have to go with the flow!

 

[Tui]

Awwww twins, how lovely! I will keep everything crossed for you.

 

[Squig34]

I hope this twin pregnancy has a much happier outcome for you nessaw. What is mcma & mcda?

 

[nessaw]

Forgive spellings. Mono chrionic mono amniotic (I think) one placenta one sac. Mono chrionic di amniotic-one placenta 2 sacs. Depends what day the egg splits. Twin to twin transfusion happens when one identical twin gets more of the placenta so more fluid etc and the other gets less. At present they couldn't see a septum meaning just 1 sac. Higher risk but not sure why-presume because also sharing a sac.

 

[dairymomma]

Not sure how I feel about tippytoeing back into this thread.

I got a very shocking bfp (on a CB digi with evening pee and only a 1-2 hour hold no less ) last night and it was confirmed with another digi, an FRER (the old school kind), and a blue dye cheapie this morning. Just waiting on my beta numbers but it's pretty official I would say when you get digi to turn bfp like that.

Intermittent and very mild symptoms so far but I'm only about 14-15dpo and I normally have low rising hCG levels so my symptoms never get very strong anyway. But I'm cramping and that scares me. I know it can be normal but it's not really MY normal and that's what's scaring me. It's not painful cramps and it more pressure than pain right now but I'm nervous and anxious and terrified of the coming days. (I'm so nervous about this pg, I can't even think of making it to 5 weeks much less 9 months...)

 

[Tui]

Cautious congratulations dairy

 

[floridamomma]

Congrats again dairy. With our little rainbow girl I had a completely different pregnancy than I ever experienced before.

 

[dairymomma]

Thanks ladies. Feeling a bit more confident today even though my symptoms are gone almost totally because 1. no cramping as yet and 2. my tests have obvious progression even though it's only been one day. Whew. I know it's not a foolproof thing to use hpts to track hcg rises, but for me, it's a visual reminder that even though I'm not FEELING pregnant, my body really is doing something towards growing another rainbow. Also, my beta came back at 54 so not as high as I was hoping for (I wanted something over 100) but it's higher than I usually see at that point. I also got my progesterone level back and it's 13.4 which is almost astronomically high for me. I did start my progesterone last night but now I'm wondering if I really need it since I'm starting out with 'normal' levels. On one hand, I like knowing I'm on it 'just in case' but on the other hand, if it's not necessary should I be taking it? Question I'll have to ask the doctor I guess.

 

[floridamomma]

Dairy I took it and my progesterone was really good. The dr said it wouldn't hurr

 

[dairymomma]

I know it won't hurt but I hate the side effects. It makes me SO drowsy after I take it and my symptoms tend to go away once I start it. With LO, I found it made me super anxious too. But I am probably going to continue with it though I may just stick with one a day for a few days and see if easing my way up to the full dosage by Sunday will allow my body to adjust to it. Maybe?

 

[nessaw]

Congrats dairy.x

 

[SweetV]

I hope the higher risk is not an issue for you neesaw. Congrats on the twins!!

How lovely Dairy! I hope this is your rainbow. I took progesterone as my fertility specialist wanted to see it over 25.

afm - Saw the mfm on Tuesday and everything looked fantastic. They said to come back in 2 weeks even though they initially said I would be scanned weekly at this point. Unfortunately I took a horrible fall on the ice on the way home while holding my 15 month old. I'm badly bruised but I went to the nearest L&D and had baby monitored and all looked well except they said my amniotic fluid levels looked a little low. When I lost my little boy in 2014 it was also after a fall on the ice and it was almost on the same day that he was born which left me shattered and in tears for the evening. She is moving lots and hopefully stays put for another few weeks. I have a call into the MFM but nobody has got back to me as of yet.

 

[Tui]

How scary! Glad they monitored you for reassurance. Take it easy and big

 

[dairymomma]

SweetV-FX that baby girl stays put for a few more weeks and this was just a literal bump in the road.

AFM-the anxiety is hitting big time. I'm feeling alot of discomfort but so far nothing is really 'crampy' I guess. It's more pressure and feeling uncomfortable and I know this can be totally normal. (In fact, I remember feeling something like this when pg with DS and he was my only complication free pregnancy.) But I can't convince myself that it's going okay. My lines are darkening nicely, I've got an appt with my naturopath tomorrow AM and a repeat lab right after so I should know my doubling time by Saturday AM at the latest but I can't convince myself that it's going to end well. The dr wants to schedule an ultrasound for 7 weeksish but I keep thinking 'What is the point when I'm going to be miscarrying by then?' This PARL journey is SO hard for me and my anxiety is nearly impossible to deal with.

And the progesterone is awful. I'm so drowsy and dizzy after I take it, I have to sit down for an hour. And no strong symptoms. I've never wished so hard to be puking my guts out though I know do notice I can't eat as much as I usually do during a meal.

I hate this waiting and not knowing...

 

[SweetV]

Oh Dairy, I wish there was a way to make the anxiety go away but I know I don't have to tell you PARL is such a difficult road. Breathe, every day is a step closer, for that logic every minute is a step. I'm sorry you are struggling already, the next few weeks are the hard part of not knowing and I hope they pass quickly and uneventfully for you .

 

[floridamomma]

eDairy

Sweet- that must have been so nerve wrecking. I'm so sorry but glad you're both ok

 

[dairymomma]

Feeling better now. I told a few people so I have support if/when I need it (and people to be excited for me too), my beta came back at 145 so I almost TRIPLED in less than 48 hours , and a visit with my naturopath helped ease my fears about some of the supplements he'd had me on previously. (He also said he's getting good vibes about this pg so I can't complain about that either. )

 

[SweetV]

never turn down good vibes!!!
Glad your beta's look fantastic Dairy!

 

[Squig34]

How scary & upsetting for you SweetV. Will they monitor you more regularly now if they think your amnio levels need watching? I hope your little girl stays put for at least a few more weeks but you are well along if she does have to arrive soon. Have you been feeling better since your fall?

 

[SweetV]

How scary & upsetting for you SweetV. Will they monitor you more regularly now if they think your amnio levels need watching? I hope your little girl stays put for at least a few more weeks but you are well along if she does have to arrive soon. Have you been feeling better since your fall?

I was back today and the MFM said the levels look fine to him and apologized that the other hospital had given me a scare. I have another scan next week and I think it's weekly after that as I have previously delivered a late IUGR baby so they are worried that this little girl will stop growing soon.
Everything hurt before the fall so it's hard to say what is from that and what isn't. I've never had back pain like this before and now everything clicks when I walk. I know this is my last pregnancy though and I'm trying really hard to enjoy every last minute.