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[floridamomma]

Ummi I'm glad they gave you a protocol. It really makes all the difference sometimes. Good luck to both of you ladies. Time is getting close.
Dairy I commented in your journal but congrats again. Praying it's your rainbow. This pregnancy I got my bfp at 9dpo. Never happened before. I rally think that's a good sign.
Hope- praying everything goes well for you hon. I hope they begin to make you feel more secure. As secure as you can feel xx
Dschemo I've never experienced that but hoping it's no big deal

 

[Hope39]

Dairy I completely forgot to congratulate you, fingers crossed this little beam sticks hun

Xx

 

[Hope39]

Thanks Florida , ummi and wookie for your kind words and anyone else I missed

Xx

 

[ginny83]

Hope, I read an article in the dailymail (I know not the most credible!) about all the mistakes a maternity ward made and it seemed that they only investigated the hospital because the dad of one of the babies that died (he would have had a 90% survival rate if given correct treatment) demanded answers. I straight away thought of you and how brave you are to fight on Issac's behalf. You're an amazing mummy because I'm sure this is all very painful for you to go through and who knows how many other babies you might help because you're not accepting their lies. Always thinking of you x

 

[dairymomma]

Thanks ladies but I'm in limbo now. Brown discharge/cm, cramping, and a pretty much bfn on the $store cheapie this morning. Midstream though has a decent though faint line so anything is possible?

 

[dairymomma]

Since the one cheapie was SO faint, I retested with another one of them to see if it's the dye concentration. Just checked the second test I did and it's got a visible line. I checked yesterday's tests at about 3-4 min and they were both neg still so I put them down and didn't look again until about 15 min later. Then they both had lines. So I suppose today's line would be more accurate?

The joys of PARL. I haven't even skipped a period yet and I'm in limbo trying to convince myself that everything is okay...

 

[dairymomma]

One last quick update and I'll stop spamming the thread.

2nd $ cheapie dried about as dark as yesterday so I *think* the first one was a dud. Called the dr and he's in surgery this morning, off tuesday afternoons, and probably won't get back to me until tomorrow. So I left a message that I've gotten positives on 3 different brands of test, I'm SUPER DUPER early but brown discharge and cramping, and would like a beta done to see what my levels are doing. I'd be okay if this is a chemical oddly enough. I'm more worried that it's ectopic or this is just a cyst throwing hCG into my system. Waffling on the progesterone though. Think I should be on it as I've started it from bfp with all my pg aside from DS (I was 6 weeks when I started with him) but I also don't want to if this is a chemical. Decisions, decisions...

 

[Squig34]

Dairy sorry you find yourself in limbo again

I don't know D but I hope all is well. Perhaps it's an infection? So hopefully they can give you something tomorrow.

Hope it's so ridiculous that you're still having to fight this. Do these people a. Have no morals in continually telling lies and b. not realise that no mother (or father) is going to give up fighting for their baby? (Since it seems like they're hoping you will). Sending you lots of virtual strength as you continue to try to get answers for Isaac

Thanks for asking about me. I'm doing ok but we are rather cocooned from real life at the moment so it's not properly sinking in. Some moments yes, but I still can't completely believe this happened. We're getting plenty of rest though & there's no rush going back to work either.

 

[Squig34]

Sorry double post.

 

[Hope39]

I'm feeling a bit more positive today. My endocrinologist has rung me to congratulate me. She works alongside my new obstetrician in the diabetic clinic so she knows her very well. She has assured me that if I am not getting the support or care I feel I need then I am to let her know and she will ensure my new obs does it

At least I have 1 consultant on My side x

 

[Hope39]

Squig I was quite cocooned too, my friend did our food shopping for us so we didn't have to go out

We escaped to our caravan a lot then upon returning a house we had purchased completed so we camped out there for about a month whilst getting it ready for tenants

We just couldn't face being at home so literally spent about 2 months between the rental house and our caravan by the sea

It was only in October that we had no where to run too anymore

Xx

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Hello ladies,

Hope, I'm so glad you are taking charge and trying to get answers. I'm sure that is incredibly difficult. Also, I'm glad the one consultant is being so sweet.

DSemcho, it could be an infection if it has an odor. I would get it checked out just in case.

Dairy, that spotting could be implantation bleeding!!

AFM: I've been getting headaches in the evenings lately. I'm 13 weeks 1 day...anyone else experience this??

 

[SweetV]

Hi ladies!!

So I may be jumping the gun a little early but may need some support from my PARL girls.
I got a BFP today on a FRER at 11 DPO and I'm kinda freaking out a little! Do you mind if I crash your party?

I'm so glad to see some familiar names from the RL thread.

 

[dairymomma]

Mrs-yeah it could be but it just unnerved me because it's not like the IB I had with my last pg. It's watery tannish/light brown discharge and a fair amount of it but only when I wipe. The other thing that's not normal is when I've gotten bfps and this discharge this time. But I've calmed down now. Just had to get the freakout out of my system.

Hope-don't know if I've said this before (when things start happening I tend to go off in my own little world and just post 'me me me' stuff...), but I'm sorry you are going through this. You should haven't to be fighting for care and I'm glad you have at least one person who is willing to help you get what you need. Having that supportive doctor or nurse is HUGE.

AFM-meh. Waiting mostly. Had bloods done this afternoon, results tomorrow, and trying to convince myself that this is just IB and it's not molar or ectopic. Can't really explain why I'm worried about molar pg but it's been on my mind all day so I contacted Dr Google. Bad idea. So I'm staying away from his office and just being zen atm. Nothing else I can do right?

 

[DSemcho]

Yay! They brought me in to make sure a membrane didn't rupture, and found I have bacterial vaginosis; thankfully a light case of it. So it seems any time I get an infection I get crampy like crazy.


On a side note, super nauseous today and I've

Spoiler

poo'ed

twice already and I've only been up for 2 1/2 hours! (it's 6:30ish am here)

 

[mowat]

Sorry to hear about the headaches Mrs Reineke. I had daily headaches daily from maybe 10-17 weeks. The doctor prescribed me something that helped enough that I was able to cope.

 

[blueblue]

Hope - really glad your scan showed a strong heartbeat. I hope your new doctor is much better than the old one. I'm glad your endocrinologist is being very supportive

Dairy - hope everything is ok, the tests can differ if the urine is more dilute. Don't worry about the freakout, we all freakout, PARL is pretty scary. Last few nights, I've been dreaming about having a loss, think it's praying on my mind more than I realise.

D - glad you have answers

Squig - thinking of you

SweetV - congratulations

 

[floridamomma]

Sweetv congrats. Praying for a stick lo.xx
Squig thinking if you and your family. Your still in my prayers hon.xx
D glad it's something simple
Hope so glad the lo is doing well
Dairy fingers crossed honxx

Afm- feeling less than optimistic. I'm 6+5. I've never made it past 8+4 I think and my miscarriages all take place between 6-8 weeks. Needless to say I've not felt so hot lately. Not having symptoms other than exhaustion and getting up at night to pee. Actually I only got up once last night. I don't know what id do if I had to deal with everyone else all the time. They think I don't have faith in this pregnancy. That's not it I just know my past and it's still makes me feel fear sometimes. I have a scan tomorrow at 6+6 and then I'm released to my regular ob for a intake appt at 7+4. I just wish the fear would go away. I feel safe with my rms. he and my ob and colleagues and work very well together and my on literally does whatever I ask if it won't kill me but I'm just not ready.

 

[blueblue]

Sweetv congrats. Praying for a stick lo.xx
Squig thinking if you and your family. Your still in my prayers hon.xx
D glad it's something simple
Hope so glad the lo is doing well
Dairy fingers crossed honxx

Afm- feeling less than optimistic. I'm 6+5. I've never made it past 8+4 I think and my miscarriages all take place between 6-8 weeks. Needless to say I've not felt so hot lately. Not having symptoms other than exhaustion and getting up at night to pee. Actually I only got up once last night. I don't know what id do if I had to deal with everyone else all the time. They think I don't have faith in this pregnancy. That's not it I just know my past and it's still makes me feel fear sometimes. I have a scan tomorrow at 6+6 and then I'm released to my regular ob for a intake appt at 7+4. I just wish the fear would go away. I feel safe with my rms. he and my ob and colleagues and work very well together and my on literally does whatever I ask if it won't kill me but I'm just not ready.

Sorry you are feeling crappy. I think it's hard for people who haven't been through a loss to understand, as much as you try to be optimistic, you are always going to be scared. Miscarriage is such a private devastation and sometimes others find it difficult to deal with. I find that the further I get, the more the fear gets me as it gets closer to a point where things might go wrong. I also find I get very nervous about scans, to the point where if I wasn't on a clinical trial and it wasn't required, I almost wonder if I would wait until week 13.

Good luck with your scan tomorrow. . I'm glad your dr is very supportive.

 

[SweetV]

I haven't had a chance to go too far back on the thread to get caught up.

Squig - my heart breaks. After I lost Alexander last year I wasn't sure how to carry on. Be kind to yourself, I took 8 weeks off work & it was the right decision. Huge, huge hugs.

Dairy - I feel the same way. AF isn't due until Friday but I'm still wondering every minute if this is the second something is going to go wrong. Dr Google is not our friend! Congrats!!!

Hope - it is great to have somebody on your side. I had a great doctor but she was the one a few weeks back that told me to just give up. I think I'm looking for a new great doctor.

Mrs. Reinkeke I'm prone to headaches even when very hydrated. Just make sure you're drinking lots of water and you're doing all you can. Yay for 2nd trimester!!

DSemcho - Yay for BM! My membranes ruptured with Alexander and it was very scary.

Florida - it's hard to have faith in pregnancy when you've suffered like we have.

afm - still pregnant. All my mc have been mmc so I'm terrified to even ask for a scan. My next appt with a high risk OB is beginning of April as a follow up to my hysteroscopy. I'm wondering if I should move up the appt or just hold in until then? I was going to wait until 8 weeks to ask for a scan but I think I'll go crazy in the mean time.... the joys. With my first I didn't get a scan until 12 weeks. The last I was getting them weekly from 5 weeks and I was terrified at every appt. Sigh....