Hello Pip, Embo and Sequeena! Thank you for this little group and for inviting me!
For those who don't know me - I had a baby boy in August 2008, born with spina bifida and hydrocephalus. He is a gorgeous lovey boy who looks to everyone like a normal child, but his kidneys are at risk for an bladder which won't function properly. He bowels don't work properly either, and he has a shunt in his head. We therefore spend a lot of time tooing and frooing hospital and suffering lots of uti's. His nerves to his lower limbs are damaged which doesn't affect him too much at the moment. But he is a very happy boy and I am so proud of him.
I desperately wanted to give him a sibling and conceived in July this year, first time and without even knowing when I ovulate. Unfortunately after I hard fall down the stairs, that one was lost at 9 weeks.
I didn't give myself long to recover and got back in the saddle straightaway, falling pregnant after my first cycle. I now 8wks something and had my scan last Saturday where there was a tiny flicker of a heartbeat. I hope so much this one sticks!
In just over two weeks I shall be walking down the isle to my oh and tying the knot. I worry the stress of it all will affect the baby, as well as the sadness that my dress which was chosen with a 25 week bump in mind will be a little bit emptier. But not completely!
I am taking part in a clinical trial for a new vitamin which works with folic acid (inositol) to prevent neural tube defects. I really hope that after all I have been through that I will have a healthy child this time. But I know nature deals it's hand to those who can cope.
The downside of inositol is it makes me very very sick, and although the sickness itself is mild, the nausia is cronic and I can't eat or drink anything without a struggle., and each day is very tough. But I am not complaining - I'd rather here than anywhere else!
I hope you all have a happy and healthy pregnancy, and I look forward to chatting with you all.
Btw, Tom said he wants a strong sister for his birthday (the week before baby is due) so I am getting girl vibes. Where can I find the predictor?
I'm 31 now so 10 years really can age a lot but feel lucky I have no wrinkles and nice hair.... well usually even when pregnant but I'm going lanky very quickly the last week or so. Hormones again.
It's a small victory but one I feel worth celebrating as I love my sleep. Woken up with even more nausea today so I feel I'm going to be in for a bumpy ride with this one. Embo did you notice more morning sickness with the girls more than your boy? I didn't feel like this with Sam I don't think not all the time.
bless!
so I have to stay away. That's not like me at all I'm normally so supportive.
Emmea you're here 
but we're the same, we're not getting excited about it. We were both hurt so deeply by our mmc so I think it's a way of protecting ourselves.
