Hi,
I never thought that I'd be posting in this section, I feel so alone
I have the most beautiful, wonderful DS who's just turned 2 he's my first child. I also have a 2 month old baby. I noticed that he's speech was very delayed he doesn't really say any clear words he waves bye and attempts to say it but it's not clear. Also he builds towers with he's building blocks and lines his blocks and straightens them if there out of line. He jumps up and down flapping his hands, walks on tip toes. Climbs all the time and is never still. He also makes lots of noises when were out and about like a mmmmmm sound.
Now for the positive he is so loving and puts out his arms for a cuddle, he will pull my face to him for a kiss. He gives eye contact with everyone, he loves people and other children and will join in with them. He loves going for walks in his stroller and the car, he always sits still throughout the whole time. He knows where the local park is and gets excited when we approach it and sad when we leave.
I know all this is ASD he had his 2 year assessment and the HV seemed concerned, something that I wasn't until her visit now I feel sick all the time and can't stop crying. I have no one apart from DH to talk to who is fantastic but I just don't know where we go from here? I feel such a failure is it something I've done? I'm scared what the future may hold for him, will he ever lead a normal life? Will he be bullied? Some children and adults can be so cruel I've seen it. Hopefully it's a long way off but what will happen when we die? I'm so afraid for him, I just can't stop crying I wish it was me and not him. I love him so much it's breaking my heart in two.
Sorry for the long post it may seem a bit mixed up it's just how I feel at the moment.
Thanks for reading.
I never thought that I'd be posting in this section, I feel so alone
I have the most beautiful, wonderful DS who's just turned 2 he's my first child. I also have a 2 month old baby. I noticed that he's speech was very delayed he doesn't really say any clear words he waves bye and attempts to say it but it's not clear. Also he builds towers with he's building blocks and lines his blocks and straightens them if there out of line. He jumps up and down flapping his hands, walks on tip toes. Climbs all the time and is never still. He also makes lots of noises when were out and about like a mmmmmm sound.
Now for the positive he is so loving and puts out his arms for a cuddle, he will pull my face to him for a kiss. He gives eye contact with everyone, he loves people and other children and will join in with them. He loves going for walks in his stroller and the car, he always sits still throughout the whole time. He knows where the local park is and gets excited when we approach it and sad when we leave.
I know all this is ASD he had his 2 year assessment and the HV seemed concerned, something that I wasn't until her visit now I feel sick all the time and can't stop crying. I have no one apart from DH to talk to who is fantastic but I just don't know where we go from here? I feel such a failure is it something I've done? I'm scared what the future may hold for him, will he ever lead a normal life? Will he be bullied? Some children and adults can be so cruel I've seen it. Hopefully it's a long way off but what will happen when we die? I'm so afraid for him, I just can't stop crying I wish it was me and not him. I love him so much it's breaking my heart in two.
Sorry for the long post it may seem a bit mixed up it's just how I feel at the moment.
Thanks for reading.