Mommy2Kian
Kaden and Sian :)
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Yesterday we went for scan to check the my womb was still strong since being torn when having a c-section with my last son 4years ago...we went into the scan room and she said we just gonna check him over first...so there he was blowing bubbles, waving, jumping...then she focused on the ventricles of his brain, she spent awhile doing this and asked me to turn to get a better look...she then said she needs a 2nd opinion..well from then on me and OH new something was wrong 
...she then stopped the scan and sent us to a room...a room like when someone has died, with flowers and tissues...our heart was breaking.
The midiwfe came in and explain that the ventricles in his brain are enlarged and prominent which could indicate something is wrong.
i need to go back thursday for a detailed scan then me and OH may be faced with a decision, a decision no mother or father should hav to make
She has seen both cases, where the ventricles decrease and fix themselves but also they could get worse
How can i choose weather my baby lives or dies? i love him so much already, me and OH just cried all night, we kept kian inour bed last night we couldnt bare to be a part from him
i have been praying for my baby to be ok, i havnt slept, and i have no more tears to cry...i cant give birth to my baby then have to bury him
Kian keeps getting little baby socks and toys saying they are for his baby..hes so excited
thursday wil either be the best day, or the worst day of our lives...
he is kicking me while i type this and all i want to do is hold him and mak him better, m his mommy an i cnt help him, it's killing me
xxx
The scan was worse than we thought, i couldnt watch him, everytime i glimpsed his lil hands were waving.
turns out our precious baby boy has many things wrong with his brain,,including fluid, and theres parts missing that should be there, sorry i cnt remember the exact words, he also has short limbs which could indicate downs syndrome. i had an amnio in my tummy which they took some fluid to check for down, edwards and pato syndrome. Its not looking good at all.
i have to go to birminghams children hospital for an mri and ive had blood tests for any virus
We will then be faced with a decision in 2 weeks time. it is against the law to terminate after 24 weeks so if we do decide (and please dont hate me if we do decide to terminate)it will be down to an ethics commitee to see if we have a good enough reason
I will then be given an inejection to stop his heart and i will give birth to him i havnt slept or eaten in 3 days and iv cried so many tears, our heart is aching.
They told me he is a poorly baby and im telling him if he wants to go to a better place than go, we love him so so much
Thank u all for your prayers but unluckily he is just to precious 4 this world
1st part of the amnio result
Our baby is clear of downs, edward and patue syndrome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I no we eint out the woods yet but it gives us a little bit of hope that he wont be as severe as they thought!
His sex chromosomes also came back clear, he is all boy and his bits are in perfect order!!
Please keep praying, someone isfinaly listening
Than u so so sooo much!!!
its all down to next tuesday now, please god keep our baby safe!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxx
...she then stopped the scan and sent us to a room...a room like when someone has died, with flowers and tissues...our heart was breaking.The midiwfe came in and explain that the ventricles in his brain are enlarged and prominent which could indicate something is wrong.
i need to go back thursday for a detailed scan then me and OH may be faced with a decision, a decision no mother or father should hav to make
She has seen both cases, where the ventricles decrease and fix themselves but also they could get worse
How can i choose weather my baby lives or dies?
i love him so much already, me and OH just cried all night, we kept kian inour bed last night we couldnt bare to be a part from him i have been praying for my baby to be ok, i havnt slept, and i have no more tears to cry...i cant give birth to my baby then have to bury him
Kian keeps getting little baby socks and toys saying they are for his baby..hes so excited
thursday wil either be the best day, or the worst day of our lives...
he is kicking me while i type this and all i want to do is hold him and mak him better, m his mommy an i cnt help him, it's killing me
xxx
The scan was worse than we thought, i couldnt watch him, everytime i glimpsed his lil hands were waving.
turns out our precious baby boy has many things wrong with his brain,,including fluid, and theres parts missing that should be there, sorry i cnt remember the exact words, he also has short limbs which could indicate downs syndrome. i had an amnio in my tummy which they took some fluid to check for down, edwards and pato syndrome. Its not looking good at all.
i have to go to birminghams children hospital for an mri and ive had blood tests for any virus
We will then be faced with a decision in 2 weeks time. it is against the law to terminate after 24 weeks so if we do decide (and please dont hate me if we do decide to terminate)it will be down to an ethics commitee to see if we have a good enough reason
I will then be given an inejection to stop his heart and i will give birth to him
i havnt slept or eaten in 3 days and iv cried so many tears, our heart is aching.They told me he is a poorly baby and im telling him if he wants to go to a better place than go, we love him so so much
Thank u all for your prayers but unluckily he is just to precious 4 this world
1st part of the amnio result
Our baby is clear of downs, edward and patue syndrome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I no we eint out the woods yet but it gives us a little bit of hope that he wont be as severe as they thought!
His sex chromosomes also came back clear, he is all boy and his bits are in perfect order!!
Please keep praying, someone isfinaly listening
Than u so so sooo much!!!
its all down to next tuesday now, please god keep our baby safe!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxx
for you and hoping you get the news your hoping for on Thursday xxx
