hey Chez, hope youv been keeping ok.
Need a Vent so im gonna do it in here...
My mum... right at this moment.. is the most selfish so and so ever.
My dad turns 50 next year in March, exactly 2 weeks 3 days after Ethan is due my mum is doing a surprise family birthday party for him. Iv been asking her for AGES to tell me if she is definitely doing this party so we know.
well shes finally decided shes deffo doing it, so i messaged my sister on face book to ask what time does she think mum would start this party at... she said 7. Which i thought fair enough we go over for an hour and get the bus back home at 8:15. Till i realised.. the connecting bus to get us back home is not till 9:30pm! And your not even supposed to have a newborn out late at night as the air changes and its not good for them or something like that so theres no way in hell im hanging round in town from 8:40 till 9:30pm for a bus that wouldnt get us home untill 10pm or later!
so phoned my mum up to ask if shed start the party at 6pm.. so we could come. and do you know what i got.............. "6 is far too early, im not cancelling your dads party just because your having a baby" OH MY FUCKING GOD! When the hell did i ask you to cancel it.. i just asked you to start it 1 hour earlier so i could actually come to my dads party! But guess what... she doesnt give a shit whether i can go or not! I swear down sometimes she just doesn't give a shit about me at all! As long as my sister can be there thats all that matters. All i want to do right now is cry!
I'm not forking out £25 bus fares to spend 30 minutes at the party then have to leave to get the bus that would connect to another at a half decent time. I couldn't even justify it by going over earlier in the day and spending some time with my dad during the day since hes not allowed to know that we were over. Cant stay in a hotel as you can imagine how much stuff wed need to take for a new born ON THE BUS and there is no hotels that have rooms downstairs so have the awkwardness of trying to get all the stuff up the stairs along with ethan in his carry cot. And all this could happen just 2/3 days after i have given birth if i go competely overdue.
argh im just so pissed off and upset with her right now