Jin
Unhinged Mummy of 3
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Hi everyone.
I'm not sure if what I have is PND or sleep deprivation but my HV seems to think I may have mild PND as well as sleep deprivation.
Basically my baby stopped sleeping properly about nine weeks ago. His sleeping has become really erratic with him waking some nights every half hour. My husband works nights four days a week and the other 3 nights he falls asleep on the sofa. Over the past month or so I have become tearful, irritable and extremely resentful towards my husband. All of this of course is caused by sleep deprivation.
However, this is why the HV thinks I may also have mild PND. Even when my baby does sleep I am sometimes awake. I wake up in the night and have all sorts of things running through my head, like the hedge outside the house that needs trimming! I can not sleep during the day even if I have been up all night. I go to bed at 9, but often don't go to sleep until gone 11. Even when my husband offers to take LO from me in the morning so I can get an extra hour or whatever, if I hear LO I get up as I still can not sleep. I have had people offer to have Lo for a night to give me a break but I know I still won't sleep as I will be too worried about him not being with me. I thought all of this was perfectly normal. My HV says that most mothers as tired as I am usually fall asleep at any given opportunity, and would be thankful for a night off. My baby is 6 months old so it's not like he's just a few weeks old but I even take him to the shops with me instead of leaving him with Daddy. I don't know why, I just hate leaving him behind. I have the seperation anxiety, not LO and I am completely unable to switch off and give myself a break.
I am completely irrational towards my husband. It's like I am taking all my frustrations out on him even when I don't mean too. I feel like he has it so easy but then when he offers to take over with lo, I can't bring myself to let him???? I have no thoughts about harming myself or my baby. Infact right now I feel like running away somewhere and taking my baby with me so that it's just him and me. That's not normal right?
I also have a teenage daughter. She is 15. The same age as i was when i got pregnant with her and she is driving me crazy. It's like she thinks I'm just here to serve her. I'm constantly cleaning up after her and like I said I just want to run off somewhere with my baby. Just him and me against the world. Totally stupid, totally selfish but that's how I feel. I also want to cry all the time but I try not to. I bottle it up because I feel that if people see my crying, i.e my husband and friends, they will think that I can't cope or that i'm not happy after having my baby and that is not the case at all. Actually a lot of the time I think I love him too much.
So what do you all think/
PND or just sleep deprivation?
I'm not sure if what I have is PND or sleep deprivation but my HV seems to think I may have mild PND as well as sleep deprivation.
Basically my baby stopped sleeping properly about nine weeks ago. His sleeping has become really erratic with him waking some nights every half hour. My husband works nights four days a week and the other 3 nights he falls asleep on the sofa. Over the past month or so I have become tearful, irritable and extremely resentful towards my husband. All of this of course is caused by sleep deprivation.
However, this is why the HV thinks I may also have mild PND. Even when my baby does sleep I am sometimes awake. I wake up in the night and have all sorts of things running through my head, like the hedge outside the house that needs trimming! I can not sleep during the day even if I have been up all night. I go to bed at 9, but often don't go to sleep until gone 11. Even when my husband offers to take LO from me in the morning so I can get an extra hour or whatever, if I hear LO I get up as I still can not sleep. I have had people offer to have Lo for a night to give me a break but I know I still won't sleep as I will be too worried about him not being with me. I thought all of this was perfectly normal. My HV says that most mothers as tired as I am usually fall asleep at any given opportunity, and would be thankful for a night off. My baby is 6 months old so it's not like he's just a few weeks old but I even take him to the shops with me instead of leaving him with Daddy. I don't know why, I just hate leaving him behind. I have the seperation anxiety, not LO and I am completely unable to switch off and give myself a break.
I am completely irrational towards my husband. It's like I am taking all my frustrations out on him even when I don't mean too. I feel like he has it so easy but then when he offers to take over with lo, I can't bring myself to let him???? I have no thoughts about harming myself or my baby. Infact right now I feel like running away somewhere and taking my baby with me so that it's just him and me. That's not normal right?
I also have a teenage daughter. She is 15. The same age as i was when i got pregnant with her and she is driving me crazy. It's like she thinks I'm just here to serve her. I'm constantly cleaning up after her and like I said I just want to run off somewhere with my baby. Just him and me against the world. Totally stupid, totally selfish but that's how I feel. I also want to cry all the time but I try not to. I bottle it up because I feel that if people see my crying, i.e my husband and friends, they will think that I can't cope or that i'm not happy after having my baby and that is not the case at all. Actually a lot of the time I think I love him too much.
So what do you all think/
PND or just sleep deprivation?