positive opk @ 8dpo...HELP!!!

[mzswizz]

L.E. yes they did actually. But i think now my back hurts because I been trying to rearrange all my MIL's stuff in the house so i can atleast be able to walk around my own living room without bumping into any and everything. Any new luck on your temps?

AFM, im on cd17 today and have lots of discharge. Also, i have on and off spotting going on. Really dont know what thats about but i guess its just my body adjusting to the BCPs. I already started my 2nd month pack today. 11 more days until I see DH so im happy about that and already he is planning to give me money so i can go treat myself and have a me day before he gets here Im happy about that because I really need one. I have been more stressed than anything lately. This morning, I woke up with a headache and I really dont know why. Its probably due to dh and I having a bad night's sleep and could barely sleep so we were on the phone with each other until we could fall asleep which was around almost 6am Hopefully, we are able to sleep tonight though. Time is really flying by. Today is my friend's birthday and in 19 days.....it will be my birthday. Plus in 21 days...its my mom's birthday. So alot of birthdays coming up. Today was a productive day. I went down to Miami to visit my family and I also decided to send a message to my ex-friend that I wanted to talk to her about the situation that caused us to stop being friends and dislike each other. I want to be the bigger person and be able to sit down like mature women and converse about what happened because I think it was all due to false allegations. Ever since then, I had so much anger and hate towards her and I dont really want to live that way. If she doesnt want to ever talk to me again then atleast I can say I tried and just forgive her and move on but just wont talk to her. If we solve the situation then thats good but if we ever became friends again, it would take ALOT of time for me to gain trust and believe her again. So let's see how it goes. And I talked to DH about it and he is proud of me and supports what I am doing.

 

[L.E.]

My sister and my cousin had a birthday a couple days ago, and mine is the same as your mom's. Lots of December birthdays!

I hope you and your friend work it out. At least trying is a big thing. If it doesn't work then at least it is off of your shoulders.

For me, I don't know what to think. My temp was really low this morning, and I woke at normal time. The really low temp the other day was an hour earlier than usual. I'm 1/2 tempted to get a couple opks and see what they look like. Last night my cm was more of the watered down white like I had before, but today it's creamy, but I can see watery too... I guess I'll check it later. CP is pretty high though. Unless things seems super-fertile over the next couple days, I'll be calling the doc by the end of the week for Provera. If I wait it out past this week, I think I'll wait 2 weeks so I can skip having AF for Christmas, my birthday, and New Years. So I'll have to think about that. If I start Provera on Friday, I'll likely have AF for our Family Christmas here the 22nd, our Christmas program at church the 23rd, and then the 23rd-25th we'll be out of town visiting DH's family. I'd have AF for all of it. Maybe I should rethink this and just wait the 2 weeks. What do you ladies think? Hold out til after Christmas and then move on to the new cycle or go though with AF (Which will probably be pretty heavy) during all my Christmas activities?? I'm leaning more towards waiting now. I don't really want to hold it off (because it seems like I'm always waiting), but I really don't want to be messing with a heavy AF during such a busy time either if I can help it.

 

[L.E.]

I think I just made up my own mind lol. I'm going to wait the 2 weeks. I just checked the charts, and while there weren't a ton of people that O'd late on a Clomid cycle, that could be because they didn't wait the cycle out. The charts that did O late had a 29% chance conception rate. It's a little lower than the "average" but still pretty good. Last Dec. when I O'd after Provera, it was about CD50-51, so 2 weeks would put me past that. I'd feel like I gave it long enough to happen by then, so I would feel better about "giving up" on this cycle at that point.

 

[L.E.]

Wanted to specify that I do consider this a failed round of Clomid. Chances are good that I won't O, and even if I do, it wouldn't be from the Clomid.

 

[mzswizz]

L.E. im with you when you say wait it out. I wouldnt want you to go through AF during Xmas activities and end up having to worry about the symptoms that go along with it. So i say wait it out. And sucks the Clomid didnt work this time. Since it didnt wor...will they up the dosage? And wow you and my mom have the same birthday? So that means just like me and my mom..our birthdays are 2 days apart Oh and the conversation with my ex friend and I went well. We both apologized and found out that someone was making up false accusations about both of us etc. So now we are back to being okay with each other.

AFM, im on cd19 today and it seems like my cycle is going by pretty quickly. Also speaking of time going by...cant believe dh will be here next friday Im super excited. Yesterday, I decided to treat myself and so i did my hair and DH loves it. I always wanted to go to a salon and get it done but its hard to find someone who you can trust with your hair so I just been doing my own hair since I was 16. Now back to my cycle The midwife had told me I suppose to get AF on the 4th week of the BCPs. Which means now im going from a 35+ cycle to a 28 day or less cycle I think thats pretty good because that will increase our chances more seeing that I will be able to go through my cycles which means more tries compared to now where my cycle is sooooo long that I get less chances. Also, im almost at the point where I have only 3 more months left to go I will be off the bc in no time so im happy about that. Im hoping we can immediately start ttc after i stop the bcp but if we cant...then i guess a little longer wait. I dont mind waiting right now because right now dh and I are not living together and he is going through the process of changing his job so i want to wait until he gets stationed before we ttc. So atleast we are together and dont have to worry about catching ovulation during a trip or anything. Well in 17 more days...it will be my birthday Im turning 23 on the 28th so I cant wait. Well thats all for now.

 

[L.E.]

Yep our birthdays are really close. I hope you get your bfp soon. Since we were about the same age getting married too, I was your age and married 3.5 yrs too when I got my bfp... actually it would have been about 2 months from now (Feb. 16th) that I got my bfp. I hope you get yours soon too!

That's great that you and your friend made amends. Good friends are hard to find.

For me, I do hope she ups the Clomid. I think I'm going to call for the Provera at the end of next week, and just start the Provera right after Christmas. If it didn't work the first time, why do that again? I may see if we can check my insulin levels again to see if I'm on the right dose of Metformin too.

I don't know whether to call me "officially" sick, but I'm at least fighting something. I'm just all-around feeling icky. No major cough or sneezing or runny nose, but a little bit... plus feeling extra tired (doesn't help that I only slept about 3.5 hrs last night). I'm hoping it doesn't go into a nasty cold, but we'll see.

 

[L.E.]

Some sinus ickies and a barking cough today, but not too bad thankfully. :/. Assuming that's why my temp went up a little....may be why yesterday's temp wasn't that low either. Dunno. I don't feel feverish, but I could have something very low-grade...enough to just affect my bbt slightly. I guess about anything could do that but still...

 

[mzswizz]

L.E. the day you got your bfp is 2 days before me and dh's dating anniversary I know we will be able to start ttc after our 7 yr anniversary and hoping to get a bfp before our 4 yr wedding anniversary in july. So we shall see. Fxed!! And that is oo true. Good friends are hard to find and I think she realized how good I was of a friend and what people were saying didnt make any sense because i was there helping her since day 1. Also, hoping you dont get really sick. Hope it gets better. I hate being sick.

AFM, im on cd20 and this morning I discovered that I have LOADS of thick, creamy white cm Have no clue what it means because my cm never looked like this before. It was more on the watered down side but this time its very thick. Dont know if that means im getting closer to ov and the cm is going to change soon or what but i guess its just a wait and see. Now i get to see if AF is going to come during the 4th week of the bc like the midwife says it should or im going to get it in the middle of the pack again. Hopefully whenever it does decide to show up....it will be spotting and doesnt lasts long like the last one because im ready to enjoy alone time with dh. Im researching nice places we can go to while he is down so he can enjoy his time here and it can be a romantic little getaway while he is here because unfortunately i got a phone call from my MIL and she says she definitely has to move now so now she will be here when dh comes down to visit Oh well dh told me thats not going to stop him but at the sam time i just want us to be free and not have to be secretive about what WE do. But we shall see. Today, im going to straighten up a bit and also relax because i need all the relaxing i can get before MIL comes in. DH is pretty pissed at MIL because he is telling her what she can and cannot bring and she is fighting with him saying she is still going to do it so he is pretty pissed off at her because he says she is rying to do whatever she wants to do and thats not going to work. Atleast i actually have proof that n matter if i stand my ground...this lady does whatever she wants and i think thats going to be a problem once she gets here. Hoping we dont end up arguing most of her stay here though. Well as an update. I talked to my ex friend and everything went well. We are now okay with talking again and found out it was all a misunderstanding and rumors just going about so we both apologized and now are trying to mend our friendship again Soon I will only have 3 months to go with the BC and also dh wants to be a medical corpsman. And he talked to corpsman and they told him that he is most likely never going to be assigned to a ship and just have shore duty and if he gets deployed...they will fly him out Happy about that because if he has shore duty then that menas that he will be there with me everyday and so we will have no problem ttc because he will be there for the pregnancy So fxed that he gets that job

 

[L.E.]

Your MIL sounds like she's being a pain in the rear. Does she not understand that you are going out of your way to help her when you don't have to. You'd think she'd be appreciative.

Oooh I hope your DH does get that job and that you can see him every day.

Well, I still have the bit of sickness, but nothing too bad... little bit of cough and a little bit of sinus stuff, but definitely tolerable. I'm assuming that is why my temps are up (though I really don't understand why they went up so nicely). On the off chance that I did O (I know that's not likely), I did BD 3 days before the rise, so I guess there would be a chance.

Not much new around here. Went with family to the Lights Before Christmas at the zoo last night... slept the first 1/2 of the day to try to sleep the sickness off and so I'd feel okay for going to the lights. I was fine there. DS has a follow-up doc appt soon, so I've got to get ready for that.

 

[mzswizz]

Hopefully you can get better quickly. And dh already said that he will take care of her when it gets home.

AFM, its cd21 today and I am exhausted. Today, I suppose to go down to Miami to help MIL bring up food from her freezer here. Im going to go later because Im not up for the drive right now. I been down lately just because of the whole moving thing and Im just ready for DH to come home. He says im not going to be here for long so thats a good thing because im really ready to get out of this house and be with him. Hoping its before i get off the BC so we can still enjoy each other for a little bit while he is in school for his new job. He says once they change him then Im moving to wherever he is so im happy about that. Im just ready to be back together again and MIL can just be able to have the house to herself while we are gone. Atleast then I dont have to worry about privacy or anything. Well, I dont know when AF is coming nor do I know when I am suppose to ovulate. Since AF started in the middle of the pack...im hoping it didnt knock it off track and now its going to come every 2nd week of the BCPs. But if i think about it..if it did..then it would be every 28 days that my cycle came so maybe that isnt a bad thing. Well, im going to watch an episode of my show and then start cleaning up around the house. Oh and dh said something to me that was very thoughtful last night. He told me that the way I am now..he can tell im in mommy mode and with that being said..just from being around me, he know i am going to make a wonderful mommy That was pretty sweet of him. He has been doing nice things and saying nice things like telling me he loves me and how pretty I am just because and I appreciate every minute of it. Cant wait until he comes home next Friday

 

[L.E.]

Temp went up again. Baffles me because I'm not that sick...I mean, enough to count as being sick, but I was really surprised to see that temp. Must be really fighting this off or something. Even when I was super-sick a few months back, my temp didn't go up 4 days in a row. Oh well.

 

[mzswizz]

L.E. yay for the crosshairs!!!! Maybe your body finally o'd while you were sick. I heard that its easier for a woman to get pregnant while sick than when healthy because your immune system is down or busy fighting off the sickness that it allows pregnancy to become easier or something like that. Maybe your body decided to properly ov finally.

AFM, im cd22 today and i just experienced loads of watery white cm Dont really kno whats going on but its all going to be a wait and see for me. I have been busy cleaning for 2 hours so far this morning. I have cleaned both upstairs and downstairs' bathrooms and rearranged everything under the sinks. Also, washed the dishes and swept the floors. Now i have laundry, folding, and mopping to do thats left. Im just trying to clean what I can. The other things have to wait until everything gets rearranged and I can see what Im working with afterwards. I also have to go back down to Miami to move more food up here. Im thinking by the end of this day, Im going to go to bed early again. I went to bed around 7:30 last night. Its just so much I got left to do but Im going to take a break at the moment. Even though I clean up....the house still looks a mess with all of MIL things still over the place but Im not going to stress because DH will be home soon to help me get rid of most of this stuff. I cant wait until January 2nd because DH told me yesterday over the phone that he has a brthday surprise. Its a nice overnight getaway at a hotel Just what we need because I know its going to be stressful with MIL here and DH and her arguing all the time. He says he tried to get it booked for my birthday but they werent available. He wont tell me the hotel or anything we are going to do but he gave me hints saying its alot of nightlife and daylife so bring clothes for both occassions. And i think we are going somewhere nice because he was throwing hints about bringing the dresses that I got. I told dh i had an appt that morning then after that we are free to enjoy ourselves. I cant wait!!! A nice overnight stay at a hotel and places to go and see is just what we both need. He says he wants to start the New Year with a bang and right so im happy we doing this. Also, cant wait for him to get re-rated so I can pack up and leave. He found out that he was suppose to be pulled out of submarines within a week of the approval Its been almost a month?! DH didnt even know it was suppose to happen so fast. But the lieutenant who has been helping him through this process is so helpful and she is getting things done so his process can go forward so she said he will hear something either before he leaves or when he comes back on their follow up appt on Jan. 8th sooooo im excited because I might be leaving in January or February So nothing but good news over here so far

 

[L.E.]

All sounds like it's going well there, MzSwizz. Busy and happy times for you! Does your doc think you'll O on the BC? Usually it prevents it, but I know if it's a low enough dose, there is a possibility (though not that likely). I never did, even on the mini-pill, but I'm a big mess anyway, so you can't go by me lol. The hotel thing sounds nice. I wanted to go to one for our 10 year anniversary this past August, but it would've been about $300 for the one I wanted, and I couldn't see forking that out for just 1 night. If we had a lot of extra money I probably would have, but we never have much extra.

 

[L.E.]

Well I went to the Dollar Store tonight and got 1 opk and 1 hpt... BFN on both. So that proves that I definitely did not O on CD27 or CD29. I still think my high temps are from this little sickness but we'll see what the next couple days hold.

 

[mzswizz]

L.E. i dont think i ovulate with these. I never asked actually seeing that they are low dose BCPs. Oh well, it really doesnt matter But yes the hotel thing came as a huge surprise to me. I guess dh had money put aside already. He is good with saving up for surprises. Cant believe dh will be here friday Im super excited. And hmm bfns on both...im hoping that ff is correct and when you got your crosshairs is when you actually o'd.

 

[mzswizz]

AFM, its cd23 today and I am exhausted. It feels like I havent gotten enough sleep. I guess my body is still tired from the hours of cleaning I did. I got to finish laundry today though. My friend called this morning and she wants me to drive her dad to Doral, FL for a rental car and thats almost a hour drive Im pretty tired but I might do it seeing as I got to go to Miami anyways so I can just take him there and then head back north to go to Miami. Cant believe today is already Saturday and tomorrow I start week 2 of the BCPs. It doesnt feel like its been 5 weeks already It feels like I just started the first pack. DH is super excited and cant wait to come down. Not only that, he cant wait until I am able to finally move and be where he is. FXed sooooo bad that he is re-rated as a medical corpsman (corpsman pronounced coreman for some odd reason ) So all i got to do is drive 19 hours east and BAM right in San Antonio, Texas. And plus he will have shore duty so we can ttc with no problem Just hoping that happens so fxed and heavy prayer Now on another good note....we have paid of one of our credit cards in full and closed the account so that means 1 less credit card to pay a month We are trying to get rid of all our credit card debt because once we do that...we will be able to have more money because majority of the money goes to credit card payments So everything is going well. Now to take the time out to mourn the losses of the children and people during the Connecticut shooting yesterday. Their families are in my prayers. I cant believe someone can go into an elementary and not think twice about killing 20 children ranging in the ages of 5-10. This feels like another phase of terrorism. What is going on in the world today?! People are just opening fire without a care in the world. And they go out easy because they turn the guns on themselves. I wish they would've caught him before he did that so he can rot in prison instead of getting the easy way out. In the end, he is going to suffer but the families who have lost someone will suffer worse than him. I couldnt imagine what would be going through my mind if that were to happen if i had a child. Just goes to show that we cant really have any type of place we can call safe. I just hope this gets better and not worse. Im tired of innocent people dying for no reason. R.I.P. to those who have fallen. You will be forever missed but never forgotten.

 

[L.E.]

Yay for paying off credit cards. I really want to work on doing that after Christmas. It doesn't help that DH just had a root canal yesterday so that was $560 on the credit card yesterday, plus we have to come up with another 300 at the appt Jan 3rd, plus the cost of the build up and crown. Fortunately, they do payments, but only spread it out over like 3 of them, and an extra 300-500 dollars is hard to come up with at any given time. All-together the root canal is about $2,000. So yea, that will be a struggle.

I'm still not convinced the CH are legitimate for me because I've been a little sick, but I guess anything's possible. I only took the HPT and OPK to be sure that I didn't O on CD27-29. I went ahead and changed my cm to W for the days I had it marked as C, but I had noted that it was a lot thinner. If I find out I didn't O, I'll put those back to C. I'm still waiting for this bit of cold to go away so I can see what my temps do. My ear has also been plugged up again for weeks, so I think I'm going to call the doc Monday and make an appt finally. It's been doing this on and off for probably a year and it is really annoying.

Yes, that is sooooo sad about the shooting. 1 crazy person can ruin so many people's lives. If DH were in public school, he'd be in Kindergarten. Definitely hits home. I can't imagine getting the news that some psycho killed my son on purpose.

 

[mzswizz]

L.E. i totally understand. Dh and I was just saying that its hard to control the debt when emergencies come up and we use the credit cards. But we are now putting money aside and just paying them off slowly but surely. Our goal is to be debt free by the end of next year Hopefully that will be possible.

 

[L.E.]

Well I just don't know what to think of my temps. If I were sure I'd O'd and wasn't sick at all, I'd be thrilled with my temps. Today's temp was the highest I've had since I started temping in April. The 2nd-highest was when I was really really sick, but I actually felt completely terrible and feverish then. Sure I have a little bit of something, but not bad enough that I even take meds, other than an occasional cough drop. Waiting it out.

 

[mzswizz]

L.E. your temps are looking pretty darn good and the fact that they are continuously rising and not doing the up/down pattern is really good. FXed this is it for you.

AFM, today is cd24 and in 4 more days DH will be here Im super happy. Tomorrow, Im getting my hair dyed a nice deep burgundy color and im also going to get it curled for DH's arrival home. I already have the outfits picked out too as a surprise. Tuesday, im going to the nail salon for waxing etc also...(DH paid for me to pamper myself ) So I'm happy about that. Cant believe he will be home this week. He told me he know its been stressful dealing with both our families and he just wants us to get away as much as possible while he is down here so thats great because we can have our alone time and just enjoy being with each other. I miss him dearly and the stress has caused me to understand how people really are and I have just been keeping my distance. Im proud of DH because he told me that at the end of the day, he is standing behind me and supporting me because the bible says leave your parents and cleave onto your wife/husband. And he said so he chooses me over his family anyday and that made me feel good to know that he will forever have my back like I have his. I cant wait until we are able to be together and expand our family etc because we will be away from the stress and wont have to worry about anything except each other and the pets. Well today im going to go wash my hair and just relax and watch a few episodes of Law & Order:SVU (i got all the seasons on Netflix ) Feeling good today and today started week 2 of the BCPs for pack #2. Let's see if im going to get AF this week like what happened the last time. I hope not though and im not going to put much thought into it neither because it might just come for a visit