Post-pill irregular cycles support thread!!

[Lemonflower]

Struth - thanks for explaining things!

It may be nothing but like you said I'll get checked! Then I'll know what's wrong or not wrong!

When do you get your confination?

Xx

 

[Reba]

Before my cycles ranged from 5 weeks to 8 weeks. I've gained weight though so need to lose some lbs

 

[struth]

Struth - thanks for explaining things!

It may be nothing but like you said I'll get checked! Then I'll know what's wrong or not wrong!

When do you get your confination?

Xx

I've got an appointment with the gynae next Tuesday - hopefully I will get some answers then but I not going to talk myself into believing that unless they want to do more tests...

 

[Trishg21]

Hey guys-

I haven't been around much lately because I have been feeling very down with this whole TTC thing and reading the forums can sometimes be hard on me. I am in a pretty dark place right now and I don't really know what to do about it. I don't really have anywhere else to go talk about it though.

DH and I have both been extremely stressed lately. It has really thrown us for a loop since he is usually so calm and easy going. It has changed our relationship. Don't get me wrong we still love eachother very much and we have never doubted that we would be together the rest of our lives, but we don't laugh as much as we used to. And it seems like one of us is always irritated at the other for some reason or another.

I feel like it is never gonna happen for us. I still was not even close to ovulating on our first round of clomid. Then to make matters worse my temp. rose today for the first time during an ovulation window (CD 18) and we have not BD'd for 4 days (since CD14). So pretty much if this WAS me ovulating we don't have much of a chance at all.

Sorry to be such a downer but like I said I have no where else to go. Just feeling so frustrated and cheated. I know everyone on here has their own set of problems and that we all want the same thing. I just wish I could figure out how to deal with everything that is being thrown at me.

 

[Reba]

aww Trish - I don't have any advice but I'm sending

 

[wouldluvabub]

Hi trish, it's so hard I know! I was like that for a while and then I had a massive talk with dh an explained how i was feeling and told him some days are worse then others but basically I feel really down alot of the time. Since then we have been talking so much more and he shows me much more support. But to be honest I don't think there is a way to get rid of that feeling untill we get our BFP. I have tried and tried to find something anything to cheer me up but there is nothing more in the world I want then to be a mum and I can't just make that go away.. At least your o'ing now so you have a better chance. I pray I get regular cycles again soon.. I do think that would make it easier for me.

But all in all you have us here to talk to when u need..

 

[struth]

Hey guys-

I haven't been around much lately because I have been feeling very down with this whole TTC thing and reading the forums can sometimes be hard on me. I am in a pretty dark place right now and I don't really know what to do about it. I don't really have anywhere else to go talk about it though.

DH and I have both been extremely stressed lately. It has really thrown us for a loop since he is usually so calm and easy going. It has changed our relationship. Don't get me wrong we still love eachother very much and we have never doubted that we would be together the rest of our lives, but we don't laugh as much as we used to. And it seems like one of us is always irritated at the other for some reason or another.

I feel like it is never gonna happen for us. I still was not even close to ovulating on our first round of clomid. Then to make matters worse my temp. rose today for the first time during an ovulation window (CD 18) and we have not BD'd for 4 days (since CD14). So pretty much if this WAS me ovulating we don't have much of a chance at all.

Sorry to be such a downer but like I said I have no where else to go. Just feeling so frustrated and cheated. I know everyone on here has their own set of problems and that we all want the same thing. I just wish I could figure out how to deal with everything that is being thrown at me.

Hi Trishg21 - I'm sorry to hear that things are stressful at the moment. I think that even within the strongest relationship that TTC (especially when things don't go exactly to plan) can put a strain on the relationship. There are so many heightened emotions around and it can highlight the most tiny cracks (which lets face it, all of our relationships have, I know mine does!) in a relationship and make them seem huge.

I know it is really difficult (I know I struggle some days) but the way I try to get through it is by focussing on the positives e.g. the very fact that you are TTC means that your relationship is strong and that you and your husband want to express that in the most explicit way possible (a baby) AND it looks like you have ovulated (isn't that great news even if you missed it this time?!). I know I would feel the same if we had missed an O - they only come along so rarely that to miss it would be devastating BUT take a step back and look at the bigger picture - you may have O'd which means that you can again next cycle and you and your OH can have a bloody good go at catching the eggy then.

I think wouldluvabub is probably right - when things have died down a little bit it would perhaps be worth talking it out with the OH. I have learned that we need a but of distance from the flare up before we can talk it out without getting annoyed at each other again - we let the emotions die down a little first and we can then talk it through more rationally. Perhaps once you know for sure about O you could speak with the OH?

Don't worry about being on a downer on here - that is what we are all here for. We are here to support each other and to help each other out when things are tough. I have had so much support from you guys - I'm more than happy to give it back when needed.

Hang in there Trishg21 - things WILL get better, I promise you x

 

[Trishg21]

Thanks for the support ladies. It means more than you know. I also had a good conversation with my aunt last night. She struggled with infertility as well and ended up having to be inseminated to get pregnant. Back then (15 years) they really didn't use OPK's so they always went in AFTER her temp rose. They said after her temp went up she had 36 hours to get inseminated. It worked 2 times for her. That gave me hope. It seems like it is possible to get pg after your temp rises. So hubby and I did the BD last night and hopefully tonight as well.

I just hope that it really was my O time. My temp dropped a teeny bit this morning. I was playing around with FF and it seems that in order for FF to say that I ovulated my temp will have to be at least 97.7 (my chart is in my siggy if anyone is curious). So I guess we will see.

 

[Reba]

I hope it was an O for you Trishg21

 

[missangie]

Hey guys-

I haven't been around much lately because I have been feeling very down with this whole TTC thing and reading the forums can sometimes be hard on me. I am in a pretty dark place right now and I don't really know what to do about it. I don't really have anywhere else to go talk about it though.

DH and I have both been extremely stressed lately. It has really thrown us for a loop since he is usually so calm and easy going. It has changed our relationship. Don't get me wrong we still love eachother very much and we have never doubted that we would be together the rest of our lives, but we don't laugh as much as we used to. And it seems like one of us is always irritated at the other for some reason or another.

I feel like it is never gonna happen for us. I still was not even close to ovulating on our first round of clomid. Then to make matters worse my temp. rose today for the first time during an ovulation window (CD 18) and we have not BD'd for 4 days (since CD14). So pretty much if this WAS me ovulating we don't have much of a chance at all.

Sorry to be such a downer but like I said I have no where else to go. Just feeling so frustrated and cheated. I know everyone on here has their own set of problems and that we all want the same thing. I just wish I could figure out how to deal with everything that is being thrown at me.

Oh Trish I am SO sorry you are feeling like this. I am also very glad you posted this because it is EXACTLY how I am feeling right now. I am so emotional and just really down and cant quite figure out what to do or how to get out of this rut. I feel so very alone about all of this even though many know that we are having a hard time, no one truly understands or knows what to say or do and its just hard. I hope things start looking up for you and that you start feeling better about everything. Try to remember that it IS going to happen for you! It will, it will!!!!!

 

[struth]

Trishg21 - I'll be popping in later to see your temp from this morning. I so hope that you get the temp rise that you want and that you caught the eggy. Interesting news from your aunt too...! It makes you realise how far things have come - the chances for us can only be better nowadays x

Missangie - I hear everything you are saying about other people not understanding. I told a friend recently about PCOS - I didn't tell her about TTC as such just that I am being investigated for PCOS and that I hadn't had AF for 3 months. Anyway, we are going out tomorrow night and she rang me the other day to ask if I will be driving i.e. are you pregnant and therefore not drinking? It hit me that she really has no idea It seems like such a minor thing but it really hit home. Does that make sense?

 

[wouldluvabub]

Trishg21 - I'll be popping in later to see your temp from this morning. I so hope that you get the temp rise that you want and that you caught the eggy. Interesting news from your aunt too...! It makes you realise how far things have come - the chances for us can only be better nowadays x

Missangie - I hear everything you are saying about other people not understanding. I told a friend recently about PCOS - I didn't tell her about TTC as such just that I am being investigated for PCOS and that I hadn't had AF for 3 months. Anyway, we are going out tomorrow night and she rang me the other day to ask if I will be driving i.e. are you pregnant and therefore not drinking? It hit me that she really has no idea It seems like such a minor thing but it really hit home. Does that make sense?

I have a pregnant friend who started TTC at the same time I did and she knows all about my troubles and she continues to ask me nearly every day are you pregnant yet.. Ohh I think your pregnant.. Run and grab a test.. Your so pregnant... I think she thinks it will make me feel better but it makes it SSSOOOO much worse I just wanna punch her in the face!!!!

For me FF put my O date back in and it thinks I am 19DPO... I don't think I am but I am thinking of maybe testing as my temp is 36.2 and has been the last few days.. Highest it's ever been... Been getting a few AF like cramps and feel like she has come but then when I go to the loo its just CM (sorry TMI!!!!) Have no idea what my body is doing....

 

[missangie]

Struth, yes that makes perfect sense to me. They just dont quite understand unless they have been in our shoes I think.

Wouldluvabub, I hate that too! I have a friend who does the SAME thing, I wish I would have not told her we were trying. (most others I have told dont do this, thankfully) Keep us updated, I think you should test and just see. However, Im the kind of person that tests like crazy but i know others get really upset by seeing negative tests. If thats you, then maybe just wait a few days and see what happens? fingers crossed for you

 

[struth]

I'm with missangie on this one - I will test at the drop of a hat but then I would prefer to know and so don't get too upset with bfns.

Let us know how you get on!

 

[struth]

Can you post your chart again Wouldluvabub?

 

[Reba]

On the Provera my temp has been hovering around 36.2 and FF says I O'd which I know I didn't. So maybe you did wouldluvabub!!

I'll put in my latest numbers for you to take a look at lovlies maybe it'll help sort out your charts

Hope everyone is feeling ok. I'm just so anxious to get off the Provera and on to the next cycle. Really hoping I O next time!!

 

[Reba]

Ohh also if you want to share your chart in your signature here's how to do it

Go to Sharing on the top menu
Click on Get Code under the bold Charting Home Page
there is a https:// web address right at the top under Your Charting Home Page Web Address
Copy that address and go back to B&B

You can either just link that in a comment or go to your CP and edit signature.
If you edit signature click on the little paperclip icon with the world behind it and make a hyper-link. Input the address and viola!

 

[Trishg21]

Well my temp stayed the same as it was yesterday but that is still a bit higher than my average so I don't know what to think. FF says I havI not yet ovulated. I go get my bloodwork done Tuesday so I guess I will just have to wait it out. I just FEEL like I O'd this month, but then again I thought that last month too. Sigh...

 

[Lemonflower]

Feel so sad!
Saw a specialist doctor today and she confirmed my original 'normal' bloods were yes in the normal range but Eastrogen was at the low end and FH at the high end! She says it's likely with my other symptoms (spots) that I have PCOS. Need a scan to confirm.

Thought my bloods were fine and that i would have a hard time convincing them to book me for scan!

Sorry, I'm not much support for you girls, don't know how to deal with this myself let alone offering advice at the moment!

It can take up to 6 weeks to be booked in for a scan and then a week after for diagnoses though it looks likely!

I'm feeling very sorry for myself!!! OH cried seeing me upset and that's made me feel worse! He's been so good, I hope this doesn't affect us, I feel scared also!

 

[Reba]

Lemonflower
My bloodwork has always been in the 'normal' range. I have always thought to myself that because the bloodwork was fine it must mean that I am on the low end of the syndrome. Sure I have other symptoms but because they can't do bloodwork and say for sure that I have PCOS I take it as a good sign. I really try to stay positive. I will be come pregnant. I will lose weight and this will all be easy. I totally understand being sorry for yourself. I've been in tears too. Those times are necessary but remember with todays medicine they are doing wonderful things to help women like us have children. It just means that things might be more difficult than for others.