Well after a rather complicated pregnancy and difficult c-section I felt, and do still feel really happy to have my little Alex and feel I am coping really well with being a new Mummy. Unfortunately I'm probably failing miserably on the wife front, I'm so terrified of ever having to go through a pregnancy like that again (I was on bedrest for 5 months of it) that the thought of having any more children is just a complete no no. My husband's really quite happy with that, but I'm still so terrified that I just freeze up whenever we attempt to have sex, I just link it with getting pregnant and can't do it. I'm completely irrational when it comes to contraception and can't bring myself to trust anything that we use. Anyway, I don't think my husband will put up with my looney behaviour for much longer so I'm going to speak to the doctor. Do you think that the trauma of it all is just finally catching up with me? I don't think it's post-natal depression becasue I feel really really happy with every other aspect of my life I'm just obsessed and petrified about getting pregnant again.