To be honest i am all over the map with emotions about NNICU i just dont know what to think, @ times its like its not that bad then other times im like no no i cant deal with it again. I have requested a counsellor from the high risk DR. my first appointment is on Saturday, i cant beleive im going into counselling over this pregnancy and everything is just fine SMH. Part of teh reason is to get M into daycare and they can help with that as its a 8-12 month wait list here and they can speed up the process. I hope by then ill be able to start bonding with the baby. Yesterday i did the glucose testing and drank the sugary drink LO would not stop moving kicking and doing summersaults, i was like wow, and i think thats the most emotion i have shown in this pregnancy. I beleive in my heart that ill love the baby once they arrive but the initial bonding is this pregnancy i have not been able to acheive, i dont think im a bad person its just im scared.