urgh today was a bit....blah..... lottie i'll text u later hunny i think i need to gather my thoughts...
maybe i am just fulla hormones. i was pissed off enough that our appointment time was 2pm but because we arrved 'on time' and their 2.30pm woman arriived before us, she got seen first.....go figure? why bother giving us appointment times.
alex has nooooo patience.....
if DH wasnt with me i would have walked and gone home. we didnt get seen u til an hour later!
and the consultant was happy with her eating, and shes on the 25th centile now, which is great. but he went on, and on, and ON about her right side, and i dunno how many times i told him that the situation, in my eyes, has improved since she was a baby.
There was a thread on here when she was little and my video was on it, alex was kicking left leg constant and right leg didnt move.
i was really concerned back then but the problem isnt even as obvious as it was back then, Lottie and the girls have seen her and i bet they would all say its not even obvious.
but the guys banging on about it. and her omeprazole. which im telling you, we NEED or i will have to remain in the house FOREVER. Her meds have only been put up in the last two weeks and we have seen a difference. but no, this tube thinks its time to get her off it.
Like i need Alex puking when i have a newborn....
so im downhearted, hes getting the physio to get in touch and i just want to run away and hide. its not alex im upset about, its neonatal and their lovely 'positive' attitude.... (and a few things at home i dont wanna discuss but i'll be ok)
so i post on fb, and somehow someone wants to remind me that im lucky alex is 'walking' (no-one on bnb) of course i know how lucky we are, i know that! im just venting because im hurting! come on, am i not allowed? i spend most of my days trying to keep positive for everyone else on here and Bliss and IRL
im so tired of being positive, for them to shoot us down.