Pregnant after 2 losses and scared.

[Mrs Reineke]

Long story kind of short...my husband and I started trying for our first in late February 2014. I got pregnant our 4th month trying and we were incredibly excited. Then at 5 1/2 weeks I miscarried naturally. We waited one cycle and then got pregnant again our 2nd month trying. We were cautious, but very excited again because we figured we'd be good to go. Well I made it to 6 weeks and miscarried again naturally. After my 2nd miscarriage I have been panicking. Can we ever have a baby? I've wanted to be a mom forever and the fear of never being blessed with that has consumed me. My doctor said they normally don't do any testing until after 3 miscarriages, but I bothered them so much they finally decided to do some. Here are the tests I've had done...

Thyroid-normal
Progesterone-normal (checked on CD 21 of a non-pregnant cycle)
Estradiol-normal
FSH-normal
AMH-normal
I knew I had Factor V Leiden Heterozygous, but my doctor at the time didn't think I needed to take anything for it. I've never had a blood clot and I've never needed to take anything for it.

Well I decided to switch doctors when my first one thought I should go see a fertility specialist because my AMH (egg reserve) levels were normal, but on the lower end of normal according to him, and with me having 2 miscarriages. He also would not check my progesterone levels because he didn't think it was necessary, but said he'd put me on supplements when I got pregnant again. Which sounds stupid especially if I do not need them. I wasn't feeling confident with his care or suggestions so I decided to get a 2nd opinion. When I started with my new doctor she tested my progesterone on CD 21 and it came back normal. She does not think I need supplements because my body is producing it naturally and I have always had regular 28-30 day cycles, so my luteal phase is not short either. She also prescribed me a prenatal vitamin with more folic acid in it. Because I have Factor V Leiden she had me get tested for other blood clotting disorders as well. All of those tests came back normal, but the one checking my anticardiolipin antibodies came back slightly abnormal, so I was told when I get pregnant again that they'll re-check those levels and if they increase I will be put on Lovenox injections. So between the Factor V and this, I'm hoping we have found the problem. I started taking baby aspirin shortly after my 2nd miscarriage to help thin my blood, along with vitamin c, vitamin d3 and omega 3's which also help. Well I just got a faint BFP at 9dpo. I'm now 12dpo. I've never had a BFP show up that early, so I'm praying it's because it's a strong one. But I'm preparing myself to lose this one as well. I'm only 3 weeks 4 days along. I go in today to get my blood drawn to check my clotting levels, but won't know the results until my follow up appointment on December 31st. But happy I'm getting this taken care of a.s.a.p. I can't get into my main doctor until January 26th, which puts me right at 8 weeks. I've never made it that far, so on Monday when I call to set up my HCG level checks I'm going to see if I can get in any sooner. Around 6 weeks would be nice. I'm absolutely terrified to tell the truth. I can't imagine going through another loss in less than a year. My new doctor does not think I need to see a specialist. She thinks we are getting things figured out and that we will be able to have a baby without major intervention. She made me feel like I could trust her, so I'm hoping she is right. So that is my story. I'd love to hear from women who have had success after multiple losses and what was determined and done to give you your rainbow. I'm also here to give advice to anyone who needs it from what I have learned.

 

[Bug222]

Sending you much love xxx I am also newly pregnant after 2mc, and absolutely terrified. It sounds like you have a good plan in place and a dr who is willing to help you make this one stick.

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Thank you Bug. Did they ever figure out what caused your 2 mc?

 

[Bug222]

No- no known cause, one was an early olds at just 4 weeks, the second was a mmc at 9+6

 

[Mrs Reineke]

It's partially comforting knowing there's nothing wrong, but then it's frustrating because it's like...what's wrong? I'm praying this is your rainbow.

 

[Stacey_89]

Awh congratulations hun I hope this is your rainbow baby!!
I was hoping to ovulate by now, but 8 days after first AF stopped I'm bleeding again like a period. So I guess I'm out this month

Are you going to be having any early scans? X

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Well that's a bummer Stacey_89. When I called to set up my appointment with the receptionist on Christmas Eve she set me up for January 26th, but at that point I'd be 8 weeks and I have never made it that far before (5 1/2 & 6 weeks), so I called this morning because she had also told me to call today to set up my HCG checks and I was going to ask if she could squeeze me in sooner than January 26th, but I got their answering service and the gal said that her nurse was supposed to be in sometime today she just didn't know when exactly. So yes, I'd like to be checked earlier if possible due to my past...but now I have to wait to see because they're not there right now. Frustrating that the receptionist told me to call today, but maybe their schedule just got messed up or something. I'm trying to be rational and tell myself if I can't get it set up today it is not the end of the world because I'm literally 4 weeks today and would just now be finding out I'm pregnant. I've never found out this early before, I've known for 6 days already and my test line yesterday was the same and the control line when in the past it's been very faint at this point and then I miscarried. So I'm praying that means my levels are better than they were with my first 2 pregnancies. So I'm trying to breathe and just relax.

 

[TTC First]

I totally understand where you are coming from. I lost a singleton and twins this year. I was tested for everything and they say it is all fine.

They say that my progesterone is fine also however I believe I need the additional boost. I have had 4 IUIs. The first one no progesterone an it was BPN. The following three I took the progesterone and got BFPs. hmmm I blame that one on the progesterone.

This time I was told to take the aspirin and they said coQ10 may also help, 600 mg daily. DH has me taking maca because it regulates hormones and chia just because its healthy.

I am 4 weeks now and just as scared as you. I won't stop being scared till I see the baby with my eyes, then I may feel a little better.

Here's to our sticky beans!!!

 

[Mrs Reineke]

TTC First, I'm so sorry for your losses. If you don't mind me asking, why did your doctor decide to go the IUI route if you were getting pregnant on your own?

 

[TTC First]

TTC First, I'm so sorry for your losses. If you don't mind me asking, why did your doctor decide to go the IUI route if you were getting pregnant on your own?

No problem, I was't actually getting PG on my own. We tried for a year and no BFP. I tried medicated cycles without and IUI and no BFP. After 2 years now, the only time I have gotten a BFP is when I do an IUI with progesterone. I can't get pg on my own and I can not stay pg when I get a BFP after and IUI. And they say that there is nothing wrong with either DH or I.

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Oh my misunderstanding TTC First. I have a friend that is going through the same thing. They have been trying forever and they're doing their first attempt at IUI here in the middle of January. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you go forward and I'm praying you get your rainbow soon!!

 

[TTC First]

Thanks Mrs Reineke, I am sure the third time will be the charm for both of us!

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Oh I so hope so TTC. Have you had your HCG levels checked yet?

 

[TTC First]

Oh ya, I did that this week. On 14dpo I was 396 and 16dpo I was 905. I calculated it to be 37.74 hour doubling. I go for my first u/s on Monday.

How about you?

 

[Mrs Reineke]

at 4 weeks 1 day I was at 802 and I get my 2nd check done tomorrow. I think I implanted a bit early thought because I got a BFP at 9dpo. My first appointment isn't until January 26th. I'll be exactly 8 weeks at that point. My doctor doesn't see you before then unless there are concerns because she wants a clear, unquestionable ultrasound. So I have to try to be patient.

 

[TTC First]

Good luck today, I am sure you will have no problem doubling.

I got a bfn on 11 dpo then tested on 14dpo to get my bfn. I go early for the u/s because its a fertility clinic. they do them weekly for the first couple weeks then biweekly. I don't switch to a midwife or doctor till a couple months in.

Are you going midwife or doctor? We get a choice, they are both covered. Doctors deliver in the hospital and midwifes you can choose home or hospital. I would really like a midwife at the hospital but If I have multiples I am stuck with a doctor.

 

[angelmommy13]

Sending lots and lots of prayers your way, hon!

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Thank you so much angelmommy13. That truly means the world to me. I can use prayers right now. I'm so scared and having horrible anxiety. I've been having some aching in my lower right side pretty much in my groin area since last night and it's freaking me out. Then I get random aches here and there and when I moved the other day I got a pulling pain in my right ovary area. I'm praying that it is all normal "growing pains" even though I'm only 4 weeks 4 days??

TTC First, I'm seeing a doctor. Because I have the blood clotting disorder I can't see a midwife because the one here that I could see doesn't take on patients unless they have nothing to be concerned about.

So I went and got my 2nd blood draw this morning to check and see if my HCG levels are rising normally. I'm so beyond nervous! They were 802 on Tuesday evening, so I'm approx 62ish hours later and I'm hoping they're at least 1600 today. The nurse said if I don't hear from her by 3pm to give her a call. Praying...

 

[Stacey_89]

Hope your numbers rise nicely
I have been told many time that if you find out your pregnant early aches and pains are more noticeable because they can happen around the time AF is due, the Reason why many many woman experience AF type cramps before their BFP thinking that AF is actually on its way.
Xx

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Thank you Stacey_89. Yeah it's weird I'm just sitting here and it's aching in my right side where my leg attaches to my pelvis?? So weird. When I talk to the nurse about my HCG levels today I'm going to ask her about it just for peace of mind.