Putting things off

[Mizze]

Not as sorted in my mind as I thought I was about this Pregnancy

Yesterday a thread in 2nd tri sent me into a blind spin which meant I had a nightmare about losing this baby and two others (not my actual angels , two more again in 1 go). This morning I called the midwife and got reasured (to a certain extent) about my symptoms.

However, ive been feeling really down and panicy all day and its made me realise something

Ive been putting everything off - I had wondered why the Pram and cot and mattress and baby bargin threads in 2nd tri werent interesting to me. And now I realise why. For all my PMA and keeping calm etc I dont think I actually think this baby is going to happen. I think its the same reason I havent got my act together about pregnancy yoga classes and swimming - my subconcious is saying "why bother"

And now I feel down and tearful about being scared for another 6 months and even more tearful about not having 6 months.

Sorry my dere's - having a bad day and needing to get it out.

Mizze xx

 

[blondee]

Hey Mizze,

We all get those days. Try not to dwell or beat yourself up. PMA is a magic ingredient that we don't get every day.

I can honestly say i have got steadily a tiny bit better each week (last week being an exception when i cried the whole week, or at least it felt like i did!). I think you are probably on a natural dip after the high of a good 12 wk scan - could that be right? Don't worry - you will soon start to feel little movements and kicks and it is the most amazing feeling and causes you to bond really quickly (you can't help talking to someone who is kicking you in your tum!).

Try to keep calm and as positive as you can

 

[pinkgem100]

I hope you feel better soon chick!! we all have these days (or weeks!!) I have spent ages looking through magazines and searching in shops for the perfect pram, nursery furniture, clothes etc for my lil one and its was only last week that my OH said come on get your bag we are going shopping for stuff, all because the night before i had a nightmare that we lost this little one aswell and i said to him that i really dont feel like we are going to be bringing her home with us... He said for this to feel real we needd to go and buy stuff for her, not much but bits and pieces!! I now have a house full of baby stuff, clothes, toys etc, i have paid for the furniture and parm in full and having them delivered at the end of Aug!!

It seemed to help me as i now have so much stuff i am constantly busy sorting out and tidying the house etc that i dont really have time to worry.

I really hope that you do start to enjoy it, and if you have a bad couple of days/weeks then dont be to hard on yourself we all get them and everyone copes differently!

 

[Mizze]

Thank you ladies it does help to know its normal to be like this

Am gradually getting calmer today

Thanks again

Mizze xx

 

[Sophist]

I know what you mean. I get angry sometimes thinking "what if all this (sickness, exhaustion, weight gain) is going to be for nothing?"

 

[mrsjo]

I think those feelings are normal, especially after experiencing previous losses. I am trying to give myself milestones to aim for. I have a scan this arvo and I hope to see a heart beat as that will give me just a little more reassurance.

 

[Carmello_01]

Huge huge huge

I know exactly what you mean about 'putting things off'.

I've been trying to pack my hospital bag for a week or so, I get a few things in there and have to stop...

 

[Mizze]

Good luck with the scan MrsJo -

A bit better today - still slightly freaked out and unwilling to believe in the pregnancy again but definately less tearful and scared than yesterday

Mizze x