Rainbows after the storm (late loss/stillbirth/neonatal loss/sids)

[Baby Bell]

Quick update: yellow bump turned blue! Lewis jacob Owen Bell born 3.12.12 7lb3oz is beautiful and healthy. Will update properly when home from hospital xxxxx

 

[amjon]

Congrats on the new babies!

 

[Krippy]

I was just checking in to see if there was an update!

Another boy!!!!! OMG!!!! I am so happy for you Aileen! Can't wait to hear all about it and see your beautiful boy!

 

[nicola ttc]

Congratulations Aileen! Another beautiful boy. Can't wait for pictures!!

 

[Jox]

Congratulations on the new babies x

 

[ummuthman]

Hi ladies, i haven't posted in a very long time. A bit of history. My husband and I got married on Aug 26, 2001. We tried for over 6 years and we fell pregnant with our beautiful baby boy Uthman in 2007 but unfortunately he was born sleeping at 39+4weeks on 24 June 2008. We were devastated. 5 months later i fell pregnant with our little girl Tahaani on 30 july 2009. I was induced but four days later had an emergency c-section, which really affected me afterwards. But she is now a healthy 3 year old.

I am now 13weeks pregnant with our 3rd baby, and have decided not to get induced but i'm really worried as i've never felt what it likes ti be in early stages of labour as i was induced both times.

I think it'll be nice to be in this group to help us all through.

My due date this time is 13 June

 

[dextersmum]

Aileen congratulations on your baby boy. I love his name please give Lewis a cuddle from me. I hope you are both well and now home.

Sweet - is everything ok??

Kristin how are you doing hunny? is it good to be home with your bundle of blue joy?

ummuthman - welcome to our lovely group. Sorry to hear about your baby boy. Congratulations on this latest pregnancy. I am with you on the being nervous about labour as I had to have an emergency section with my baby and was only 28 weeks so had now signs of labour and don't know what to expect but guess I will find out. Although I am waiting to find out at my 16 week meeting with my consultant if I will need to have another section as they are finding out how the previous hospital did it.

How is everybody else doing??

I ended up at the doctors on monday as I had an horrendous headache on sunday that made me dizzy and blurred vision and I had to pull over on the hard shoulder to let my husband drive as I couldn't see properly. Doctor thinks it was a migraine which I still had signs of on monday when I went. She did a urine sample to check protein levels and found that there was white blood cells and blood in my sample?? she sent it off to see if I have a UTI and I had to go back to the doctors today with another sample as the one I gave it was not clear if I have an infection?? so my doctor has given me antibiotics to be on the save side until we get the results on monday. I feel like I am rattling at the moment as I take aspirin and folic acid and now 3 antibiotics a day lol. I am not sure if the progestrone perssaries that I use 2 of each day could have caused an infection?? I can't wait for my 16 week milestone then I can stop using them.

 

[sweetbuthyper]

hi i'm fine,
still crampy but bean is fine, had a scan to check today, so its just growing pain. To be honest not as happy as i should be having seen bean, the nurse really upset me telling me that too many scans could be dangerous and making me feel like i was wasting her time, so a bit bummed.

that and we have family stuff going on thats stressing me out. All i have to say on that matter is teenagers are a pain and i'm starting to wish we never agreed to take my OH's brother in in the first place.

 

[dextersmum]

hi ladies its been a few days since anybody posted on here so I hope everybody is ok.

I had my dating scan today and we are now 13 weeks and 1 day the NT is 1.8 which is within the average measurement which although I know doesn't mean baby doesn't have ds it is a lot better than Dexter's NT measurement when we found out there was something wrong with him so I am taking it as a good sign I had the blood tests done for DS aswell so will wait to get the results.

Nicola my due date is 17th June 2013 so you can add me to the front page now please

 

[amjon]

Glad everything looked good on your NT scan. I'll be having mine in a couple of weeks for the twins. I went to the GD class today and had to stay after for the insulin instruction. They have me eating way more than I normally do, so I'll have to cut back on some of the things they have. I'd gain 60lbs if I followed their plan as written.

 

[nicola ttc]

Added Tracey
My nt was 1.8 this time too so lets take it as a really good sign.
So, anyone got cravings?? I just want chip shop chips and korma sauce consttantly
Amjon, i think i'm gonna be the size of an elephant by the end but lets not worry - we'll have a new diet thread once our angels have arrived safely
You'll soon lose it running around after twins!!
Hope everyone else is well.
Kristin and Aileen, hope you are enjoying lovely snuggles with your little men. Would love to see pics when you have the time!

 

[sweetbuthyper]

I'm craving wotists is the only consistant one other things i crave for a few days throw them up and then can't go near them again. that said i really want mash potoato at the moment.

I'm suprised by my lack of craving this time last time it was anything tomotoe including ketchup on toast and snaps crisps that i made people hunt for because my local shop stopped selling them.

I'm still loosing weight although i do have a bump developing my overall body weight is dropping.

once the ms gets lost i plan on going back on slimmingworld to try to minimise gains but at the moment i can't stand fruit or veg.

Had a rough few days, a friend miscarried monday she didn't know she was pregnant till she started bleeding heavily she was 16 weeks so was very tramatic for her, being there as much as i can for her and explaining what the process is and what to expect and have sent her links to places i found useful but its hard as it brings back the memories and the fear, hope you are all well my next scan is on the 18th can't wait not having nt done i didn't last time and don't want it this time.

 

[dextersmum]

got my blood results back and chance of DS is 1:11,000 so am really pleased considering my history and age. This is not because we didn't want another baby with DS but because I know of the complications that can happen in the pregnancy and for the baby that I am pleased I don't have this to worry about this time.

my ms has eased off so not wretching as much and although I was never severely sick I have lost a bit of weight which is nothing to worry about as I am on the bigger side anyway and it is only a few pounds.

Nicola I am not sure I am craving anything and usually by tea time I am not particularly hungry which is unusual for me but as long as I am eating something even if it is jam on toast then that is ok isn't it?

I am looking forward to telling the rest of my family on christmas day that I am pregnant so that it is out in the open as I will be 15 weeks on christmas day

Kristin and Aileen hope your baby boys are thriving and giving you lots of cuddles it would lovely to see photos if you have time

 

[_Lexi_]

I had my scan on Thursday. Now 13+4. Nt measurement of 1.6, baby measured 70.mm. Got my combined results back yesterday of 1/242. My oh is really pleased with these, and so is my specialist, but I'm not. Joshua's nt was 3.8, and my result was 1/20, with such a low nt, I was expecting a much lower risk. I'm considering asking for a cvs anyway. I know they can't tell us if this baby has the same condition, as they don't know what to look for, but just think I might feel more reassured. They say greater than 1/150 is high risk. Just don't know what to do. So scared that something's going to go wrong I can't bond with this baby x

 

[Baby Bell]

Hey girls how are you all!

Tracy I bet your announcement will be the best christmas present for all your family I look forward to hearing how excited the all are for you!

Lexi I know how hard it is to stay positive when you've known such tragedy, if a cvs will help ease your mind and help you bond with baba then it should be something tht you and your partner consider.......anything to reduce your stress levels.

Sweetbuthyper I used to crave onion rings when pregnant with Eoin and Lewis, I would eat cheesy wotsits all day long anyway with out being pregnant I don't think I'm ever gonna loose this pregnancy weight!

My rainbow baby is 13 days old, he is breast feeding now like a pro. He also looks a bit like Eoin, but not overly similar which I'm happy about. Such a wee personality already.
This week I think is going to be so difficult. It's a year tomorrow that Eoin stopped moving in my tummy and its Eoins first birthday on Thursday. I can't stop crying whenever I stop an think. I miss my wee angel so much and as much as I love Lewis and would never change him, having him here and watching his development is just making me realise how much iv lost with Eoin

Sorry I don't mean to be depressive especially when you are all going through such a hard difficult journey. But I love my wee rainbow and he also brings us such happiness I can't wait to hear about all your rainbow babies being born and being safe and well

Here's my wee Lewis

 

[Baby Bell]

Pops here he is

 

[Baby Bell]

Lol ok this isn't working lol

 

[dextersmum]

Lexi if you had the cvs what would it be able to tell you and did they know from the nt score with Joshua what was wrong with him? It is such a hard time having all these tests and so wanting very clear results so that we know the same thing isn't going to happen to us again but your results are a lot better this time. The only reason I had the amnio with Dexter was because they said it could be 1 or 4 conditions that was showing as a swelling in his neck and head and 2 of those were not compatible with life. I know there is a risk with the cvs and amnio and I don't think I would have had it this time even if the nt or blood work had come back higher/lower but do what ever you have to do to help you feel more relaxed and connected to the baby in this pregnancy.

I have visited my step grandson today and as I held him I was so wishing it was Dexter that I was holding and talking to and looking at but it obviously isn't and I can't help but feel jealous when I see my step daughter holding her little boy and bonding with him. But I guess I will just have to enjoy my cuddles and grit my teeth until my own baby arrives so as you can imagine I am hoping with everything I have that this is my time.

I was booked into have a scan at 16 weeks but the scan dept lost the slip I gave them from the consultant and as I haven't seen that consultant again nobody else knows why she said I should have it because it is not standard so I have to wait for the standard 20 week scan and that just feels like ages away considering I have been having a scan every 2 weeks since I was around 6 weeks pregnant. I have my next consultant meeting at the beginning if jan so if I am feeling apprehensive I will ask for a scan then and see what they say??

Nicola how are you getting on when is your next scan/apt what is the care plan they are putting you on??

Aileen I hope you work out how to put the photo of Lewis on soon I am really looking forward to seeing him.
Don't worry about being emotional about Eoin it is only natural. Just because you now have Lewis does not mean that you will stop missing Eoin or forget all about him and you have difficult milestones to get through. I just hope a little cuddle with Lewis makes it a little easier (if that is possible). And don't ever worry about needing to get things off your chest that is what we are all here for so sending you big hugs sweetheart don't forget your hormones are still all over the place and it is normal to be teary and you are allowed

 

[Baby Bell]

I hope this works

 

[Baby Bell]

Thank you Tracy I hope they sort out the scan issue, obvious your consultant ordered the scan for a reason, I'm sure you've already thought of this but when I met my consultant he wrote the plan for scans, tests, induction etc in my notes so that when he wasn't there the spec regs etc knew what the plan was. Did your consultant maybe do this?
It must be so hard having a step grandson, my cousin told me she was pregnant a couple of months after Eoin died.....even though I was happy for her, it was so hard to hear......I don't even know why! Even when I discovered I was pregnant myself I found it hard to talk to her about her pregnancy and when her baby was born, I said I would go visit.....but still haven't. Isn't that bizarre? I hope the cuddles get easier for you!