lexey_7
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Hi ladies
I just wanted somewhere to rant really I'm just super angry inside! My OH is going snowboarding for a week in January when our daughter will be 5 months old. He goes every year, when I was pregnant, and booked it without any mention of it to me... on my birthday.
We had a row about it 'how dare I call him selfish, he deserves his release' then eventually he apologised and said he wished he wasn't going anymore but it's paid for and I'll be fine ect.
But I'm still so angry, I'm lying awake wondering how I'm going to forgive him. I love him lots and don't want to break up and maybe it sounds stupid but I just can't see how it's going to continue past January when I feel the way I do about the whole thing. I'm fighting the urge to wake him up now and tell him not to ring once while he's away because I won't want to speak to him and they always go 'off piste' in dangerous places and I want to tell him if anything happened to him I would remember him as being a terrible father for being so selfish and irresponsible.
I really don't want to feel like this but I am just so angry and hurt inside its horrible. I don't know what to do, if I carry on like this I know it will end up with me being the spiteful selfish one but the thought of him leaving us for a week to do everything he likes while I spend 24/7 with DD is making me feel sick
What do I do?
Thanks for reading ladies eeek it's the middle of the night! Xx
I just wanted somewhere to rant really I'm just super angry inside! My OH is going snowboarding for a week in January when our daughter will be 5 months old. He goes every year, when I was pregnant, and booked it without any mention of it to me... on my birthday.
We had a row about it 'how dare I call him selfish, he deserves his release' then eventually he apologised and said he wished he wasn't going anymore but it's paid for and I'll be fine ect.
But I'm still so angry, I'm lying awake wondering how I'm going to forgive him. I love him lots and don't want to break up and maybe it sounds stupid but I just can't see how it's going to continue past January when I feel the way I do about the whole thing. I'm fighting the urge to wake him up now and tell him not to ring once while he's away because I won't want to speak to him and they always go 'off piste' in dangerous places and I want to tell him if anything happened to him I would remember him as being a terrible father for being so selfish and irresponsible.
I really don't want to feel like this but I am just so angry and hurt inside its horrible. I don't know what to do, if I carry on like this I know it will end up with me being the spiteful selfish one but the thought of him leaving us for a week to do everything he likes while I spend 24/7 with DD is making me feel sick
What do I do?
Thanks for reading ladies eeek it's the middle of the night! Xx