Recurrent Miscarriage Thread

[eabwhab]

Floridam, your hubby is right! He should get you away from all this. Please take a break and find an alternative to the cruise. You deserve it!
I second what other ladies said, people who did not have similar experiences cannot understand. I have five losses myself (including two ectopics) and sometimes it is just too hard to keep going with your daily life and pretend things are fine. Huge

SweetV, glad to hear you are feeling better today. Sometimes you just need to get it all out. It happened to me earlier this week, with a friend, over skype. I felt so much better afterward. Huge

 

[dairymomma]

Sweet-I had a meltdown in front of DH and the kids on Monday. We were heading to an appt and DH said something that just made me snap. I pretty much stormed out with LO and would have left everyone home if DH hadn't gotten the rest of the kids ready. He asked me a question and for some reason it just lit my fuse. I cried pretty much the whole way to the appt-which is saying something since said appt was 2.5 hours away...Nothing like walking in to the chiropractor with puffy red eyes. (They must have noticed because I got a sympathy card in the mail yesterday. They knew about the loss and they knew I had been crying because of that but it was still sweet of them to send me the card.) I later apologized to DH and tried to explain that no matter what I said or did, I knew the whole time it was wrong and I didn't mean any of it. It was just that I couldn't stop it. M/C does a number on your head, doesn't it? But I felt SO much better after that outburst and I haven't had any issues since. Thinking on it now, that was the first time I'd truly cried about the loss since it happened and I think that's what was wrong. I just needed to let it all out.

Florida-hope you are feeling better today.

AFM-I'm not sure how many of you ladies know my story but I just had loss #9 last week. It was another blighted ovum (the sac was very malformed, oddly textured, and there was no baby) making it my 4th confirmed possibly 5th overall. My other 4 losses were after seeing a healthy hb just days prior but 3 of those m/c I wasn't on the medications I seem to need and the 4th was undetermined. I'd been on the meds but I had an SCH and the baby passed at 14 weeks. It's a toss up as to whether or not it was the clot or a genetic issue that caused that one because testing couldn't be done. Despite all this (and normal test results) I have managed to have 3 miracle babies. Thus far we know I need progesterone and baby aspirin in the first 13-14 weeks, my hormones typically stay on the lowest end of normal despite this, and I tend to have blighted ovums if I conceive on the left ovary. I'm going to request an hsg or a scope of my uterus/tubes and maybe some hormone testing from an endocrinologist in a few months because 4 BO (3 of which I know are from one side and I've yet to carry a left ovary conceived pregnancy to term) is not normal.

 

[SweetV]

Thanks ladies! I am feeling much better today. It's funny as there really wasn't a trigger it just started and I couldn't stop it. I will try and explain to DH tonight that there is nothing he could have done but what he did (just hug me). It's funny that through it all I just felt bad for him (wide eye'd "what do I do now" look)

Dairy I'm so very sorry for your loss. . It doesn't matter the number it hurts just the same.

 

[floridamomma]

I lost it on dh this am. Told him I needed help around the house. I'm in the tww after iui and dealing with everything. We talked it out and I'm a home health nurse so he's actually riding around with me today making me smile and just sitting in the car waiting for me. Then we are going to lunch. I'm very grateful for him. He reminded me that I have to live. I can't go back to only thinking about getting/stating pregnant. So hard though.
Dairy sometimes we have to just get it out. You needed to let it out. I hope you get the testing done soon but who knows you said you get your rainbows after Bo? Keep us updated. Hugs
Sweet- you needed to get it out also. You've been through so much. Hugs

 

[SweetV]

florida - you are so lucky to have a man that understands. It makes a huge difference!

 

[blueblue]

Sweetv - I'm so sorry, it must be so hard for you. I'm glad it helps to get it out, keeping it in just breaks us. I had a meltdown the other night too.

Florida - fingers crossed for you this month! 11 follicles is a lot. I think you should go on the cruise too, you need a break. You aren't being selfish - it's very hard for people who have never been through recurrent loss to understand how utterly heartbreaking it is. I'm glad your lovely friend is so supportive. It's so hard when it's your due date/anniversary of miscarriages. Everyone expects us to bounce back, it's really impossible to do. I also think of all when I'm on a break from here, I'm glad we have the support but I wish none of us had to go through this.

dairy - I completely get it, I duck out of family things too. I'm so sorry for your latest loss.

eabwhab - hope the hcg has gone down now

Spoiler

I have a very faint ghost of a line on my test this weekend, it's about 10/11 DPO. I feel pregnant too, very tired, hungry etc. This is the first time I've had the hospital monitoring me, hoping I get more support from now on. I know it might disappear in the next few days, we'll see. Someone told me to hope for the best, but have no expectations. Sound advice but very hard to do. I hope all of us get our rainbows soon

 

[SweetV]

congrats blueblue! It's so hard when you have experienced a loss to be excited when you see the BFP. I hope it sticks!!!!

 

[blueblue]

thank you sweetV, we'll see what happens this time. Hope you get your rainbow soon

 

[dairymomma]

Argh!!! Hpts are still showing lines...They got fainter early in the week and I figured they'd be negative by now but even this morning with really diluted fmu (i guzzled a quart of water last night before bed so it was REALLY light colored this AM), I've still got a recognizable line. Grr. I know my usual is to have hCG in my system for a few weeks after and it's only been a week and half but I feel stuck. PG symptoms, not sleeping well, and crampy/pinchy cervix/ewcm stuff is doing my head in. It's like I'm dealing with ovulation, PMS, AND early pg all at the same time. And it's turning me in to a knucklehead. I told DH the other day that I feel like a blithering idiot and I just proved it today. DH wanted me to give him a buzz cut and he did the majority of the cutting first while I was taking care of LO. Then I went to help him with his neckline and the long bits he missed. Only when I went to buzz the long bits, he thought I was going to do his neckline and took the guard of the clippers. One BZZZ (and one very loud yelp from DH) later, he had a reverse mohawk. He ended up buzzing everything off because it looked so terrible. I sat there in utter horror and he starts cracking jokes at my expense. I was almost in tears and he was jabbing at me every time he spoke! I can handle a few comments about it but rubbing it in every 2 seconds was a bit much especially when my hormones are still apparently raging...

 

[eabwhab]

DairyM sorry for what you are going through. It is hard to sit and wait for HCG to go back to zero. Take good care of yourself. Do something you like and will make you feel a little better if you can. It is hard to keep it together with all these hormones going up then down.

Floridm, I hope you are feeling better and then you will take the time off. How many days left in your tww?

blueblue, congrats! Are you doing anything different this cycle?

As for me, my hcg went down to 116 last thu, from 9000 nine days earlier. I felt relieved. I can finally move on. Once Hcg is back to zero I can proceed with a bunch of testing.


Hello to everyone else

 

[eabwhab]

Ladies,

does any of you has any information about vitamin D deficiency and recurrent mc?

I found a medical article linking vitamin D deficiency with MC. I decided to have tested. Mine is very low. Normal levels are 30-100 ng/ml, mine was at 8!!!

If you have talked about this with your doc and got any info could you please share it? Thanks!

 

[Hope39]

Eab that is really low, I'm classed as insufficient at 52, your proper deficient at 8

Take 2000iui a day immediately

My consultant prescribes vit d as part of his protocol whether your deficient or not because it is linked to Rmc

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[SweetV]

I am also on a vit d supplement as my high risk doctor recommends them to everyone. My doctor was part of a huge study a few years ago linking vitamin d deficiency to failed ivf. There are also studies linking it to rmc.

 

[dairymomma]

I'm on it on the advice of my naturopath. He has tested it once a few years ago and it was one point above Rickets but neither my dr nor my naturopath have said anything about Vit D being linked to m/c. I'm on it simply because I'm super low most of the year as I burn easily so I don't sunbathe in the summer and I live in an area where we don't get alot of sunlight in the winter. But I have seen things about it elsewhere.

 

[floridamomma]

Spoiler

I have two test that have faint lines. Not trusting them as it was outside the allotted tune frame. I've never had an evap before. Whenever I've had any line it's usually accurate the matter how long after. That's how I found out last time I took a test and thought it was negative came back a little later and it was positive. Since I'm only nine days post iui I'm hoping that that's what happening this time and that I'll start getting dark lines keep your fingers crossed for me ladies.

Not sure if I should get excited.

 

[dairymomma]

FX florida. Hoping this is a true bfp and a sticky sticky sticky one at that.

 

[floridamomma]

Spoiler

i decided to use a walmart cheapie and a clear lye just knowing it was too soon. Went to my car and came back to this. Strange the wm cheapie is very lightly positive and clear blue days 1-2 weeks. I'm nervous as I had a trigger shot 11 days ago. I tested it out but I just don't believe this.

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[dairymomma]

florida-Walmart cheapies are usually the first to give me lines BUT they stay faint for the longest. I usually start double checking with FRERs when I get lines like that on cheap tests. FX again that this is a sticky sticky bfp!

 

[SweetV]

Florida - how exciting!!! Congrats!!! FX for you!

 

[eabwhab]

Floridam, how exciting!!!! Hope this little bean is a sticky one.

Ladies, thank you all for your replies about vitamin D.