Thank you all so much for your support. Through the tears, I still can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of hope and love. I'm still so very glad that we got to see our little sprout today. I knew it was too small the second the image came up, but it was there and growing for a good, long month...I'm thankful for that. Before now, I was filled with the fear that it just would never happen for us. Our gremlin gave us the gift of peace in our future ttc journey. Now I know it can and will happen, and I will be a mom one day.
You all fill me with hope. I'm so very glad to see such strong, supportive, intelligent women bringing life into this world. You're all amazing. I just know you're all going to have such beautiful September babies! So glad I got to be a part of this group even for a short time.
Psy - I'm so sad we don't get to share this journey afterall. Still just so thrilled for you. I wish you and your snuggler all the best. Hope to see wonderful, happy updates!
I was given three options. I was told that we could wait a few weeks and see if I miscarry naturally. She said that it would be extremely painful, like labor pains. The second option is medication to induce the miscarriage, and the third is a d&c. She said there's a 50% chance that I would need options 2 or 3. I thought it over and chose medication. That way I can control when it happens, and avoid missing any work from the pain. I also don't think I could handle the anxiety of waiting for it to happen. We have showings tomorrow, but we're blocking off Sunday so we can go through the process and then hopefully move on. I bought an Oreo shake and new pajamas today after the appointment. Seems trivial, but really what can you do in moments like these but accept what life has handed you and make the best of it. Hiding out this weekend, letting the tears pass, and hopefully emerging stronger
You are in my thoughts. Stay strong!
Stay strong and thinking of you
