I'm sorry that I went AWOL yesterday, I had quite a traumatic time and it's taken me a while to come to terms with things.
I had my MW appointment at 9.30 am and had to go alone as DH was on a course. I was 35 minutes late going in so was a bit tense by the time I got through the door. However, I had a nice chat with the MW's as there were two in with me and got ready for them to give me my Sweep. Just as she was about to do it, the MW (thankfully she was a Senior MW!) decided to check the position of the baby. Yes, you've guessed it - the baby has turned back to breech
I burst into tears immediately. The MW said she was 99% sure but wanted a second opinion so she went off to find my Consultant. The Consultant came back with a portable scanner and confirmed that the baby is indeed breech again.
I feel devastated to be honest, as you all know I had to get approval from the Consultant MW to use water for labour, did Moxibustion when the baby was breech before, have attended active birth classes and listened to Hypnobirthing CD's as I wanted a 100% natural birth. To find out at this late stage (it's my due date today) that, that isn't going to be possible has really knocked me for six. I came back from the hospital and cried for three hours.
Eventually I managed to calm down, my DH came home to comfort me and discuss our limited options. It really scares me to think I could easily have gone into Labour with an undiagnosed breech, thank goodness it was the Senior MW that saw me yesterday. The hospital did offer me an ECV, one MW was positive about trying it but the other wasn't. I decided to get an objective opinion so called my Aunt who is a Senior Sister in Casualty - she immediately advised me not to have it. My Aunt told me about a website called Birth Choices which gives you the actual statistics for your hospital - not the national average. Here is the link if anyone is interested https://www.birthchoiceuk.com/Professionals/Frame.htm I had been told that the chance of the ECV working was about 40-50% which is the national average, however when I checked the actual statistics for my hospital there was only a 15.2% success rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 89.1% of Breech Babies born at term at my hospital are delivered by C-Section including those that were undiagnosed prior to labour. With those kinds of statistics in play, my rational mathematical DH, had no doubts about what we should do.
Therefore, I have decided to accept the C-Section that they have booked for me and I will be meeting my baby tomorrow (16th). I have to report to the Labour Ward at 7.30am and assuming there are no emergencies, I hope to meet my baby within a few hours of arrival. I have been told that I can have music and they will do their best to make the birth the way I want it. My main priority is to have skin-to-skin as soon as possible as I really want to try and BF. I will probably be kept in hospital until Sat/Sun and luckily my Mum has now arranged to come up Mon-Thurs to support me as DH will be on his Course.
I'm still feeling very emotional about the situation and can't quite get my head around the fact that the baby managed to turn back at such a late stage. I think I may have a very stubborn character on my hands.
Please can I ask a favour - if you are on my facebook would you mind not mentioning it as I have only told my parents and brother and don't really want to talk about it today while I'm trying to prepare myself mentally. I'm glad I've got you guys to share this with. I know many of you will understand why I am so upset that it has come to this. But, I haven't at any point lost sight of the most important thing, a happy healthy baby regardless of how it is delivered.
I will text Blob/Jellycat with an update as soon as I am able after the op.
If you have made it this far, thanks for listening
I will lurk on BnB today but may not post much depending on how I feel
xxx
to everyone needing it 
. it really can't be too long now. 
