Thanks guys,
MrsJ08, I have no problem with the p word either(cant put it in or it will come up in my history and i expect i will blame dh for it
) But not behind my back when i have openly offered him anything in any way shape or form, i put it on when we were ttc to put him in the mood, he has a much lower sex drive than me!
What my issue was firstly lying about it, then doing it when being asked not to and again lying about it, but the real horrible one was saying how hot someone else's woman was, how lucky the other guy was, what stunning figure, great tits etc, while at the time i was carrying Rosie, that was what i objected to.
I was starved of sex while pg with my dd, i was very horny but he refused, I had an 'offer' from a friend, and i reacted by declining politely and dropping contact with him, my friend had pictures on her facebook of a rather large male stripper, did i comment how tempting that looked, what great tackle he had or request more pics?? NO!!
Anywho, feel slightly better today, i think it was youngmummy said trust is the key, and that is it, i have to regain that, I know he has not cheated, but he has repeatedly lied which gives him the ability to lie to me, he could cheat and just lie, i asked him if he had cheated, then i said don't know why i bother asking when he would only lie to do whatever he could to cover his ass anyway!
Well kids break up soon, school plays, party's etc this week, then i can stay in bed next week! Have so much wrapping to do!
Took the youngest 2 to do a plate for dh yesterday, I was not really in the mood but wanted something personal from his girls, they choose a heart plate and pink paint to do hand prints and i just wrote to Daddy, then their names and 2010, i will post pics when it's done, it was only £14, i was really pleased!
It is very cold but no snow, we are apparantly due it again, we only had a bit last time.
Will get Rosie weighed next week b4 Christmas, not sure what she is but she suddenly seems much bigger, she is just into the 0-3 months but they are way too long and her little legs keep getting caught up in the poppers but newborn is a bit on the small side, although i did put her in a newborn grow last night so i know she didnt get caught up, she really doesnt complain so she would be all uncomfy and not tell me!
She has started to take both boobs at a feed, not all the second but one is not enough any more!
Her second jabs were due the 20th Dec but i am waiting til after Christmas now, i dont want her to have sore leggies on Christmas day.
Thanks again for all the support here, it makes me glad i went mental at him when it happened, sometimes i think what am i getting all worked up about, but it is not what he did but i suppose why and then the lying, and the comments about someone else were personal to me because i felt so shit about myself!
xxxx
But I can't whinge because I only sent mine today! Sorry!!!
