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guys
I'm being crap today. Chris has taken Emma to her riding lesson, and Izzy is asleep. I said that I was gonna clean all the house while he was gone - bar the hoovering cos of Izzy. Instead, I have a cuppa and then the laptop just magically came on. Ooops!
Jelly - I've just noticed your ticker - does that mean you're TTC???
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yey for 12 weeks Teeny
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Not long now for you Emzy either!
I'm pretty broody at the moment, but I know that there's no way we can ttc just yet. I only started my job in Sept, and it's only a year contract at the moment, so i've gotta wait till I've got a permanent one at least. Thing is, we're pretty skint at the moment, so it'll be ages off anyway. AND i've had to up doses on my anti-depressants lately. I'd really like to be off them before we ttc again, so that's gonna be a while away.
I know I haven't been on for ages, so I'd better update you on my time away. Basically, since we've been married, OH and I haven't been getting on very well. We've been majorly skint all summer cos I didn't have a job, and we've had loads of outgoings with things breaking around the house. We've had a merry-go-round of minor illnesses, and things have taken their toll. To top it off, i'm struggling in my new job. My boss is an amazing teacher, but it feels like i'm getting at least an hour of criticism a day. I started really confident, and she's slowly broken me down by constantly observing and criticising me so that now my head's a right mess! I've just written loads of examples, but the remembered that this is an open thread, and people get the sack for writing things on the net. I then went out with my old school friends, got hideously drunk and had a right go at all of them. NOT good.
Anyway, last night I went for a meal with my old friends, and made them goodie bags to say sorry. They had sweets in them, one of those soppy friendship plaques you can get from card shops, and a card with me on the front saying 'CAUTION - This person is an absolute Tw*t'. They liked it, and forgave me, so that's one problem sorted.
Me and chris seem to be getting on a bit better of late, but I have ZERO sex drive! Maybe it's cos of everything else on my plate - I dunno. But i'm adament to get us back on track. Honeymoon period? It's been a nightmare!
And i've been to the docs and upped my dose of a/d's. I've also asked to be referred for councilling. Last time I had it, my illness was well controlled, so I felt like I had nothing to say. Hopfully this time will be better.
As for work, I've gotta stick at it. Chris is in the middle of applying for a job that will actually give him quite a big pay cut, but is a managerial role, and has better prospects for moving up. Not good on the pay front though, so we really need my wage! I can't go to anyone higher than my boss as everyone loves her at work, so i'll just try harder. It might just be me being sensitive, as she does give advice on how to make things better. I'm just gonna have to stop making so many mistakes!
Sorry, that's turned into a right essay! So many things I can't put on facebook lol. As for a meet, i'd LOVE to come to one. Just lemme know when and where. I'd happily travel 2-3 hours either way with Izzy, or longer on my own/if we stayed over night. I think we should all book into a haven one weekend next year. It'd be amazing!!!
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