:wave: I'm back from my private scan. Baby is fine, measuring bang on what it should be now since the last scan 8+1 with a lovely heart beat
What I like about the private scan is that they have a huge monitor right in front of the bed so you can clearly see everything that they're doing from the get go.
As soon as she placed the probe on my lower tummy area you could see baby with it's heart beating away but she also noticed the black "bleed" patch straight away. I hadnt even mentioned it at this point. As soon as she started looking around it we could both see straight away that there was a grey/white area inside the black bleed and my first thought was "crap! they missed it, im having two!" but there wasn't a second heartbeat.
I told her they'd found a bleed last time and she measured it and I took my notes with the size the last person said that it was, and said it hasnt grown much/any since. But the last person wrote they didnt see any echoes inside. She said she could clearly see something inside of it, and I could too.
So she said it's either a bleed with a clot or something inside it or my pregnancy could well have started as a twin pregnancy and I lost one very early
Im so sad right now as I kind of feel like this was a twin pregnancy. But who knows. The "thing" inside the black area looked so much like a tiny little bean.
Anyway, she told me if I have bleeding or pain to go to the hospital. Im expecting to start bleeding at some point anyway if there's something there that needs to come away, especially if it is a deteriorating twin sac. She said the main concern is the bleed/clot/sac affecting my other sac an the baby. I think if I bleed badly there's a risk it'll take that with it too.
I just feel majorly crap tbh, and my OH seems so pessemisitc. I was thinking about maybe tellling people since the baby is fine, with a heartbeat but he basically said "No. Because it might not even happen" which made me nearly burst out crying.
I feel like I cant be happy or excited about this pregnancy now, and especially if whatever it is is still there at my 12week scan.