LadyLovenox
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Hi all!! I am 32 years old. Ttc #2. #1 took four fresh cycles of ivf , two miscarriages and LOTS of heartache, but hes finally here, and just turned one. Now, I feel ready to get pregnant w a second baby, but the thought of ttc gives me anxiety and I can feel my depression returning, at the mere thought. Our "diagnosis" is "borderline dor" my FSH has ranged from 5-10 and my amh has ranged from .9- 1.34 . In my ivf cycles, I made 8, 14, 17, and 15 embryos, which isnt usual for dor, but then again, each cycle only yielded 2-3 high quality blasts...so maybe overall quality was poor? I was also diagnosed with endometritis (different than endometriosis...this is just an infection/inflammation of the lining)...this was diagnosed as "chronic" and was treated with antibiotics before each and every embryo transfer, but it never went away. My re said she didn't think it would be a prob w implantation, so was never concerned. Finally, before my last transfer, she said she just read a study that found that inflammation of the lining absolutely DOES inhibit embryo implantation...so she recommended I go gluten free in a final effort to get rid of inflammation in my body. I went gluten free, and two moths later, my biopsy showed the inflammation was GONE!!! At last!! The very next ivf, 2 of my 3 embies implanted and I had twins growing!! I did lose one at 10 weeks but my beautiful baby boy is sleeping beside me and now, and I am so thankful.
We spent $33,000 out of pocket to get him here, and just cannot afford to shell out that type of money again for #2. Dh thinks maybe now that my inflammation is gone, we can get pregnant on our own. With my fsh and amh though, I'm not very confident. My afc has ranged from 11-22, if that matters. If we adopt a sonor embryo, it will be cheaper than going through ivf all over again.
My questions are:
When did you finally made the decision to go w donor eggs/embies? What made you realize you were ready for that?
If you have any biological children, do you love them differently then the donor embie baby?
I'm afraid I will feel unbonded with the baby because it isnt really "mine". Did you have those same worries?
Do you plan on telling your child that you used a donor?
Any input at all would be helpful
We spent $33,000 out of pocket to get him here, and just cannot afford to shell out that type of money again for #2. Dh thinks maybe now that my inflammation is gone, we can get pregnant on our own. With my fsh and amh though, I'm not very confident. My afc has ranged from 11-22, if that matters. If we adopt a sonor embryo, it will be cheaper than going through ivf all over again.
My questions are:
When did you finally made the decision to go w donor eggs/embies? What made you realize you were ready for that?
If you have any biological children, do you love them differently then the donor embie baby?
I'm afraid I will feel unbonded with the baby because it isnt really "mine". Did you have those same worries?
Do you plan on telling your child that you used a donor?
Any input at all would be helpful