Hi ladies, could I join you on this thread, i've been stalking from a distance and have been trying to keep a stiff upper lip about my whole ivf journey, but this morning everything has hit me like a ton of bricks and just need to talk to some people in the same boat.
I am currently in the dreaded tww after one grade 1 embryo was transferred back on Monday ((29th August), we originally had 15 eggs collected, 11 fertilised, 7 made it to blastocyst (one of which was "perfect" according to the embryologist and this was the one they put back), the others were cultured for another day but sadly none was suitable for freezing.
My husband has been really supportive along the whole journey, i'd been quite surprised by how easy I found all the drugs with no real side effects, but he is the eternal optimist and i am the pessimist, which is where we sometimes clash. So I keep dropping lines like "if it doesn't work this time...", he keeps getting angry with me and saying that i need to be positive, its going to work this time. I don't think that he gets its less than a 50/50 chance each cycle, even if we did have the perfect embryo. I feel like I have twice the pressure now as I have to try and be all positive, but my way of dealing with it was to try and put it out of my mind, as if I get excited it would be an even bigger fall if it hasn't worked. I feel like i've got to put on my happy face to my husband and close family that know, when inside i'm cracking up - I naively thought I would OK during the whole process.
Test day for me is still not until next Wednesday (7th September), its just seems like an eternity away. I promised myself I wouldn't symptom spot, but I just don't feel anything - did any of your ladies that have got your BFP's have any symptoms?
Sorry for the extremely long post, congrats to all you ladies that have got their BFP's.