Still looking for our May Flowers...

[savvysaver]

Hi everyone...some of you knew my Grandpa was really sick and in the hospital. Well unfortunately my Grandpa passed away last night. It has been a crazy last 24 hours and while I can't look back through the posts I wish everyone the best for this weekend and next week.

I am also upset because depending when the funeral is... it looks like I might have to cancel my RE appointment that is on Tuesday, I had to wait 6 weeks to get in. When I made the appointment the receptionist told me it would be about 2 hours. For the girls who recently saw an RE for the first time...do you think that is right? Did they run tests? My appointment is at 10:45 and I don't want to be rushed or worried.

 

[beaglemom]

Hi everyone...some of you knew my Grandpa was really sick and in the hospital. Well unfortunately my Grandpa passed away last night. It has been a crazy last 24 hours and while I can't look back through the posts I wish everyone the best for this weekend and next week.

I am also upset because depending when the funeral is... it looks like I might have to cancel my RE appointment that is on Tuesday, I had to wait 6 weeks to get in. When I made the appointment the receptionist told me it would be about 2 hours. For the girls who recently saw an RE for the first time...do you think that is right? Did they run tests? My appointment is at 10:45 and I don't want to be rushed or worried.

Savvy, first off I am so sorry about your loss.

I would think 2 hrs for the appt is about right. Mine was not that long. But I had already gotten every test imaginable beforehand. The only thing we did was talk about what I wanted to do, talk to financial lady, get blood samples for the few tests they wanted. Maybe an hour. It is possible you could get away with just an hour. A lot of the testing is determined on cycle days.

I am not trying to sound insensitive when I say this, but do you think if you told your family you had a dr appt with a specialist you just can't cancel that would fly? I know you haven't told them about TTC, but with your medical issues, I think you could just say that & get away with not saying any more. I know funerals are not always just about the service...there is visitation & time before/after with the family. However, if you feel you need to go, you should just go. But I just don't want you missing out on the RE appt & waiting even longer to get in. I think you can still support your family if you go to your appt but spend the rest of the time with them. Again, I really hope none of this sounds insensitive...that is not at all how I want it to come across. You do what you think is right.

 

[misaacs117]

Savvy I am so so sorry. This has been a rough couple of months for you. And I was going to say the same thing beaglemom said. Or maybe you could swing by doing the time for your granpa's visitation be after or before your appointment or to where it is still going on after/before your appointment. So that way you can still spend time with them. I really don't want to sound mean or insensitive either but you have waited a long time for this appointment and if you cancel it will be more time added. Again, I am so sorry

Also, I called about my initial blood work. With all the ladies talking about their levels. I got curious about what my levels where. All I knew was that they were good. So here are my levels. And if you all see anything funny please, please tell me.
Prolactin 18.2- she said anything below 20 is good
Thyroid 2.56- she said anything below 3 is good
AMH- 15 - she said they want it at like a 1 so pumped about that!

Also, CD32 and no AF. So nurse said that if she isn't here by Monday to call and come up with a game plan to get her lol. Also, spoke with billing and my bill is about $550 for my surgery and they haven't even sent it to my secondary insurance yet. So that is great news!!

 

[beaglemom]

Savvy I am so so sorry. This has been a rough couple of months for you. And I was going to say the same thing beaglemom said. Or maybe you could swing by doing the time for your granpa's visitation be after or before your appointment or to where it is still going on after/before your appointment. So that way you can still spend time with them. I really don't want to sound mean or insensitive either but you have waited a long time for this appointment and if you cancel it will be more time added. Again, I am so sorry

Also, I called about my initial blood work. With all the ladies talking about their levels. I got curious about what my levels where. All I knew was that they were good. So here are my levels. And if you all see anything funny please, please tell me.
Prolactin 18.2- she said anything below 20 is good
Thyroid 2.56- she said anything below 3 is good
AMH- 15 - she said they want it at like a 1 so pumped about that!

Also, CD32 and no AF. So nurse said that if she isn't here by Monday to call and come up with a game plan to get her lol. Also, spoke with billing and my bill is about $550 for my surgery and they haven't even sent it to my secondary insurance yet. So that is great news!!

That is great news....am I reading that right? AMH is 15!!! Wow...& I was wondering about mine being alomost 9. My thyroid was just below 1. My paper says 0.45 - 4.5 is normal on thyroid. And the website I went to said I think anything above 4 for AMH was high which isn't bad I don't think excpet it would mean PCOS...but I am pretty certain I do not have that.

 

[floridasian]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Savvy! My dad just got the news that his brother passed away last night as well. My parents are here with me and it's not practical for him to change his flights so I am not sure if he'll be able to make it back for my uncle's funeral either.

Regarding the RE's appointment, my first appointment ran for about an hour. It's helpful to have the questionnaire they send you ahead of time completely filled out to the best you can. They'll likely go over with you again but it'll go a lot quicker if you have all the answers ready for them. About the tests, it really only takes about 3-5 minutes because all they do is draw your blood and depending on how many tests they run, they might draw anywhere between 1 to 5 vials of blood. I also had a complete pelvic exam, wellness exam and PAP/HPV done at the same time.

Again so sorry for your loss and best of luck to you on whatever you decide to do. Hopefully it won't take another 6 weeks to get in if you do decide to re-schedule.

 

[misaacs117]

Beagle mom I just got a chance to look up AMH levels online it says anything over four is considered highly likely PCOS. So I don't know why I was never tested for it I was supposed to be but they never have. When I go in for my ultrasound I guess I will go ahead and get blood drawn to be diagnosed with PCOS I guess

 

[savvysaver]

Thanks girls for the feedback. I know my family would completely understand if I was late to the viewing but I guess it is more my struggle with myself. My grandfather was my role model, basically the best human being on this earth and I just couldn't live with myself if I wasn't there or missed a lot of the day. I am also responsible for all pictures/digital images, etc....this was my choice. Right now the viewing is on Tuesday, I just don't know the times until later tonight. I might call the RE office on Tuesday to see what they say, maybe a cancellation or they could squeeze me in another day...doesn't hurt to try. I just needed an idea of what to expect at my appointment. Sorry I am so scattered right now...I hope this makes sense. Thanks girls, this has been an emotional last couple of months...I appreciate the support.

 

[sarahok]

So sorry for you loss, Savvy. It must be so hard for you to deal with that on top of all this TTC stress right now. Hugs!!

I can't be much help concerning the RE appointment, as my first will be in June, but looking forward to hearing how yours goes. Again, so sorry!!

 

[beaglemom]

Beagle mom I just got a chance to look up AMH levels online it says anything over four is considered highly likely PCOS. So I don't know why I was never tested for it I was supposed to be but they never have. When I go in for my ultrasound I guess I will go ahead and get blood drawn to be diagnosed with PCOS I guess

I don't even know how they test for PCOS...I just know I do not have any of the other classic symptoms. Plus the office didn't seem concerned with my number.

 

[misaacs117]

Beagle mom I just got a chance to look up AMH levels online it says anything over four is considered highly likely PCOS. So I don't know why I was never tested for it I was supposed to be but they never have. When I go in for my ultrasound I guess I will go ahead and get blood drawn to be diagnosed with PCOS I guess

I don't even know how they test for PCOS...I just know I do not have any of the other classic symptoms. Plus the office didn't seem concerned with my number.

Mine aren't concerned about it but I am. I only have about 10 periods a year sometimes less. The hair I have on my legs are thick and black. Thought it was because of my mom since she has the same thing. Now I am thinking it's because of PCOS. It would also explain why I don't O each month and when I do the endometriosis keeps me from getting pregnant. Does that make sense or am I crazy? Lol

 

[misaacs117]

Oh and how they test for PCOS is through blood work. They test your androgens and testosterone levels. Also through AMH and ultrasounds.

 

[Suzy18]

Hi everyone...some of you knew my Grandpa was really sick and in the hospital. Well unfortunately my Grandpa passed away last night. It has been a crazy last 24 hours and while I can't look back through the posts I wish everyone the best for this weekend and next week.

I am also upset because depending when the funeral is... it looks like I might have to cancel my RE appointment that is on Tuesday, I had to wait 6 weeks to get in. When I made the appointment the receptionist told me it would be about 2 hours. For the girls who recently saw an RE for the first time...do you think that is right? Did they run tests? My appointment is at 10:45 and I don't want to be rushed or worried.

I'm so sorry savvy
My heart goes out to you right now

 

[misaacs117]

Suzy get a + opk yet?

 

[misaacs117]

Ladies now I am wondering if I should skip the IUIs if I have endometriosis and PCOS and go to ivf. I am a worry wart and have not been diagnosed with PCOS yet but am already thinking, worrying and googling. I know we have barley done treatment with IUI but just don't want to waste money and time.

 

[Suzy18]

Suzy get a + opk yet?

Hi honey, I don't think it's gonna happen this month. I'm doubting I even O'd. And yesterday I started getting big time pms symptoms: I felt like crying all day, lower back pain and cramps. I thought I might have O'd around cd22 or 24. So if I did, my LP is really short this month. I think it's time for me to visit a RE. I did some research and found a private clinic that has a lot of OBGYN's that specialize in fertility. And you can use your health insurance to cover at least the appointments and some other exams because they classify them as normal gyn visits. I already told dh and that he would probably have to get tested as well. He's ok with the idea but he still wants to believe that we won't have any trouble conceiving. But the fact of the matter is: we're not. And I'm 35, I can't afford to lose time. And I see that many of you regretted not going to a re sooner. So I'm going for it. It's a hard step to take because it feels like you're officially admitting something's not right. But I don't want to keep doing this. Trying the natural way and have faith and get disappointed every month. It's really hard and I cried yesterday when I felt af symptoms. I'm just sad and want a doctor to see me and dh and help us, see if anything is off.
Sorry about the huge testament but I felt this huge burden inside me and had to let it out. I don't want to bring you girls down. But thanks for being here

 

[beaglemom]

Suzy, I am sorry you are having so many issues...I think it is a great idea to start with a regular gyno. That is what I did. However, I would not waste much time with them. Let them do all the testing & possibly put you on clomid. I would not spend more than 6 months. I mainly say this because you are 35 & you suspect your cycles are off to begin with.

Good luck!

 

[beaglemom]

So I triggered last night. I had an awful headache from about 11 am yesterday until I got home around 5:30. I almost asked my boss if I could leave. But we were not too busy, so I just waited it out. I got home & laid down & my back really ached. I also had some nausea off & on. Then I took the trigger & it hurt a little...but then my stomach really hurt after. I could see the bruise right away. So my body just started to ache everywhere. I was bloated & achy.

So then our BD attempt failed. I was almost to the point I felt like I might throw up & my husband couldn't focus on anything except that I didn't feel good. I was very slow to just screaming JUST DO IT! I was pretty upset by all of it. But we did BD on CD 8 & my IUI is CD 10. So I feel okay about it.

This morning I took an opk & hpt. Last night I barely saw a second line on the opk. This morning it was totally dark. My hpt had a very faint line. I think I am going to continue to test out the trigger to see if it gets darker or when it actually goes away.

 

[sarahok]

Suzy, sorry you're feeling so down. It is so frustrating to be let down month after month. I'm just about to turn 30, so I'm not on quite the time crunch that you are. But I would like to have more than one child, so after 18 months of disappointments, the clock is ticking pretty loudly in my ear. Plus my husband is several years older than me, and I would like to get this show on the road!! I think it's a good idea to just taker the plunge and see an RE. I have my first appt scheduled for June. Keep us updated!

 

[savvysaver]

Suzy, I am sorry you are feeling so sad, I totally know the feeling.
I regret not going straight to the RE back in January or February after my m/c in December. I kept thinking I should go but didn't make the appointment. I also regret not seeing a GI specialist for 3 years, I spent so much time miserable with stomach issues and now I am feeling 90% back to my old self minus being able to eat what I actually want. If you feel like you should see an RE then I would say definitely make an appointment. As the months go by I get more upset by the fact that everyone I know is pregnant and I am not, it is time for me to stop messing around and get serious about ttc.

Beaglemom, I am sorry you felt so sick. I sure hope you are feeling better. Is your IUI scheduled for tomorrow or Monday? Good luck.

Sorry girls I haven't been around, this was already a busy weekend with a different family obligation...we are all a mess. My grandfather was the center of our family and we all just can't function without him. I think I have decided to cancel my appointment for Tuesday, while obviously I am disappointed but I just can't even focus on ttc and I know I would not be in the right frame of mind for the appointment and major decisions. I am calling Monday to see what my options are.

 

[beaglemom]

Savvy I hope they can fit you in quickly for the reschedule.

I still feel a little sick to my stomach off & on...hopefully I will feel better after the IUI...maybe the meds will be worked out of my system by then.

My IUI is tomorrow. So new dilemma...my mom came to visit with me today. And things are pointing to her staying the night. But I don't know. So if she stays tonight, I have to tell her what is going on...or make up a reason I have to drive an hour away & she can't come. Oh, well...we will just have to see how it goes.