Still TTC - For the ladies who have been here a while

[Hispirits]

Hi tallmom and hispirits! How are you ladies? It's been a while since I've been on. I'm back at work (teaching 2nd grade) so I've been pretty busy lately. Hopefully it will take my mind of things. I'm currently on my 18th cycle ttc. We are in the 2ww of our 6th clomid/iui cycle. I'm thinking it's bfn again, but I am okay with that because the doctor's said that if clomid didn't work for me by now it prob. won't do the trick. Next cycle I'm on to bigger and better things (I think!). I'll be taking follstim which is an inject. med. I will have to give myself injections for 1-2 weeks daily, which I"m not looking forward to. Then I go in to the doctor before work and get monitored about every other day. I'm hoping that will do the trick!

Hey babes!
How u been?
Glad your looking forward to trying new things, and letting it get you down. I'll be keeping everything crossed. The injections aren't too bad,it's just getting the knack of putting the needle in, coz you anticipate the pain you kinda hold back from just jabbing urself with it. Get the dr to go thru it properly with you so ur confide t at doin it wen ur home.
If there's loads of spelling mistakes, sorry, typing on my phone on the train lol.
Xxxxx

 

[Tallmom2b]

Hi tallmom and hispirits! How are you ladies? It's been a while since I've been on. I'm back at work (teaching 2nd grade) so I've been pretty busy lately. Hopefully it will take my mind of things. I'm currently on my 18th cycle ttc. We are in the 2ww of our 6th clomid/iui cycle. I'm thinking it's bfn again, but I am okay with that because the doctor's said that if clomid didn't work for me by now it prob. won't do the trick. Next cycle I'm on to bigger and better things (I think!). I'll be taking follstim which is an inject. med. I will have to give myself injections for 1-2 weeks daily, which I"m not looking forward to. Then I go in to the doctor before work and get monitored about every other day. I'm hoping that will do the trick!

Hi Frankie

Sorry clomid didn't work for you. I hope the injections do the trick!
It's really hard not to get discouraged. Sounds like you are handling it well!

 

[Tallmom2b]

BTW, FF is saying I O'd but pretty sure I didn't. Temps are still pretty steady, but a little higher cuz we've put the big quilt on our bed and it's toastier now I think that's what its from anyway

 

[Hispirits]

BTW, FF is saying I O'd but pretty sure I didn't. Temps are still pretty steady, but a little higher cuz we've put the big quilt on our bed and it's toastier now I think that's what its from anyway

i wanna see, your ticker links not working.
i don't think the quilt would make a difference, hun, i tried that one when i took my big quilt off in May.
have you had any ewcm?
xxxxxx

 

[Tallmom2b]

BTW, FF is saying I O'd but pretty sure I didn't. Temps are still pretty steady, but a little higher cuz we've put the big quilt on our bed and it's toastier now I think that's what its from anyway

i wanna see, your ticker links not working.
i don't think the quilt would make a difference, hun, i tried that one when i took my big quilt off in May.
have you had any ewcm?
xxxxxx

Oops, should be working now, ya I don't have my usual after O symptoms...

 

[Hispirits]

BTW, FF is saying I O'd but pretty sure I didn't. Temps are still pretty steady, but a little higher cuz we've put the big quilt on our bed and it's toastier now I think that's what its from anyway

i wanna see, your ticker links not working.
i don't think the quilt would make a difference, hun, i tried that one when i took my big quilt off in May.
have you had any ewcm?
xxxxxx

Oops, should be working now, ya I don't have my usual after O symptoms...

well your chart temps doe look like you have, but with no ewcm or positive opk but already looking very promising this month, hopefully this cycle will be shorter for you, if your temps and body are getting ready to o now, then WOW! what an improvement. you never no, you may o twice this month, double your chances keeping everything crossed for you xxxx

 

[Tallmom2b]

Thanks I guess stranger things have happend. My OPK today was really light so maybe I did miss the surge. Either that my body decided not to O, which sounds like something it would do
Guess I'll find out in a week or so.

 

[Tallmom2b]

So look how positive this OPK looks! Double checked it with the clear blue digital OPK and nope! Not positive, but I think i'm getting close

How is everyone today?

 

[Hispirits]

So look how positive this OPK looks! Double checked it with the clear blue digital OPK and nope! Not positive, but I think i'm getting close

How is everyone today?

hi hun, definitly close!!! hopefully you'll have a big smiley face in the next day!

i'm good today, day off work, so just being lazy
you'd better start make sure theres lots of waiting when your eggys released xxxxxx

 

[Tallmom2b]

So look how positive this OPK looks! Double checked it with the clear blue digital OPK and nope! Not positive, but I think i'm getting close

How is everyone today?

hi hun, definitly close!!! hopefully you'll have a big smiley face in the next day!

i'm good today, day off work, so just being lazy
you'd better start make sure theres lots of waiting when your eggys released xxxxxx

I know, my dh wasn't in the mood this morning, but not going to accept that tonight!!! He can be such a punk sometimes, as if TTC isn't stressful enough he has to go and be a stick in the mud!
Wish me luck!!

 

[Hispirits]

So look how positive this OPK looks! Double checked it with the clear blue digital OPK and nope! Not positive, but I think i'm getting close

How is everyone today?

hi hun, definitly close!!! hopefully you'll have a big smiley face in the next day!

i'm good today, day off work, so just being lazy
you'd better start make sure theres lots of waiting when your eggys released xxxxxx

I know, my dh wasn't in the mood this morning, but not going to accept that tonight!!! He can be such a punk sometimes, as if TTC isn't stressful enough he has to go and be a stick in the mud!
Wish me luck!!

hiya,
well i completely broke down last night
i can't carry on like this, every day i carry on like everything is ok, every day i stay strong, and tell myself to be patient, but i've had enough and want this to all be over now. but the only way i can get out of this and it be over is for me to get pregnant
its never ending. all in all 7 years of this and i'm keep thing to myself, i've spent all of my twenties being strong, being sad, worrying about having a baby, not knowing what is going on? am i going to turn round in ten years time and be in the same situation? how will i feel knowing twenty years are down the pan and i still haven't had a baby?
but how do i stop trying? how can i give up?
everyone is pregnant and having babies which is really doing my head in. i would just like the world to suck me up right now, i want this to be over, but the only way out for me, the door a firmly shut.
i hope i get an appointment at the fertility clinic soon, i need to see some kind of progress, i feel so idle.
my husband, bless him doesn't know what to say or do, i think he thinks i'm having a break down? maybe i am?
he suggested a holiday, i think i may take him up on it. even tho i should be saving for our mortgage.
well i better get ready for work. xxxx

 

[Queenie23]

Hi chick - Found you

Hey everyone :wave:

Well, this will be mine and the oh's 7th cycle I think. I chart (thanks to the ever patient advice from Hispirits ) and use the cbfm. I agree with Hi, it all feels like part of everyday life to the point where I think you do almost forget you're trying.

I know that compared to some ladies, I have not been trying that long and haven't had some of the ups and downs that they have with ttc but I just feel that it can be sooooo depressing when you know in your heart of hearts that you've done EVERYTHING right...and the still shows.

Buuuut... having said that, I believe that whatever will be will be and with some extremely fabulous support from some individuals on this forum (Hi - ) in your darkest hours, you always know that next month will be the one

Looking forward to getting to know everyone

Hello Lilmisscheer- I too will be approaching my 7th Cycle. I am also using the CBFM and the day I stop peeing on a stick I will begin having withdrawal symptoms. LOL. I am currently 13DPO and tested on 11DPO and got a BFN on the Clearblue digital test. Gutted. Will it ever be a BFP. I actually don’t think I have the guts to test again. I can't stand it. I read all over the internet about Preseed and CBFM and 6-7 months later and I am still here. I'm guessing there is a problem now. Fingers and toes crossed for all of us ladies. Xxx

 

[Tallmom2b]

Hi Queenie I hope the you get your bfp and have a happy and healthy baby. It is so hard to be patient and stay positive!

Hispirits hope you are feeling better. I really wish we were the lucky ones and get pregnant at the drop of a hat. But, we aren't. I wish I knew what to do, although I love chatting with you on here maybe it's time to take a break from trying so hard. Do nothing but have unprotected sex? I've heard lots of people give up hope and adopt, then get preggo, I've heard of people being told they will never have kids then years later tada! I keep thinking, maybe this will work, or that! Then same old outcome.
I'm struggling with whether or not I should go back to school. Do a masters program, but I'm afraid I'll sign up and then get pregnant. I'm getting kinda tired of putting my life on hold for something I have no idea is coming or when! I think we should live our lives the way we want and if we get our bfp, great! If not them we didn't waste time. I don't know

 

[rai_28]

dont want to sound dumb...but how does the acupuncture work?? does it help with your cycle? or what? xx

 

[Tallmom2b]

Hi rai, I'm not sure exactly how it works, but I know it seems to help a lot of people TTC. Hispirits might be able to explain.

 

[FrankieGirl16]

Hi girls,
Hispirits I' hope you're feeling better. I'm sorry I can't believe it's been so many years of trying. God that must be so frustrating. I hope that it happens very soon for you. I'll keep everything crossed too!

Tallmom ur predictor kits looked like it was really close. Maybe the clear blue digital is just a lot more sensitive? Not really sure! Did you ever find out if you have PCOS? I know that your cycles are really long which is a symptom of it. Ladies with PCOS make more of the Lutenizing hormone in their body naturally, so those predictor kits aren't reliable when you have PCOS b/c you can get false postives. Hopefully you don't have it though, but I think 10 percent of women do. Or something like that. Maybe 5-10 percent.

Rai-- I did acupuncture for about 4 months. I had to stop because I wasn't getting a paycheck over summer and it was expensive. The way it worked was that I went in and had a brief mini consult with the acupuncturist regarding my status. If I had basal body temperature charts I brought them with me for her to look at. She made me mixtures of herbs according to the part of my cycle that we were in and what we needed to work on. For me, she said we needed to work on my luteal phase because my temps were all over the place. Then she had me lay down. Usually she put a needle on each ear, sometimes a few around my ovaries, belly, knees, shins, and/or ankles. I would lay there for about 30 minutes in the dark with music playing. I usually would fall asleep! Then she would come in and take out the needles. For the herbs, I had to mix them with hot water and drink them. I had to do it twice a day. Honestly I wasn't the best at keeping up with my herbs. My doctors at the RE told me they really like acupuncture but they don't suggest that their patients take the herbs b/c they don't know what's in them and how it's affecting the meds. Usually they say acupuncture takes at least 3 cycles to make a differece. My friend who wasn't getting her period regularly started to when she was doing acupuncture. As for me, it wasn't really my thing so I'm no longer doing it. Hope that helps!

 

[Tallmom2b]

Hi Frankie I went to see a specialist and he said he didnt think I have pcos. But I do have a cyst on my right ovary. It hasn't gotten too big, my right ovary is the dominant one and always feel it on that side when I O. My left ovary is beautiful they said but it seems like it isn't releasing eggs.
Im one of the unlucky ones I guess.

How are you? Clomid didn't do the trick for you?
I wish I had the discipline to to the yoga practice everyday!

 

[Hispirits]

Hi ladies!!!

feeling a bit better. my hubby suggested a holiday, I think he was spot on, just what i need a week off, properly. so i booked last night, we're going to turkey for a week the 12th october, i can't wait, its really lifted my spirits and given me something to look forward too.

I got pregnant last time i came back from turkey (must have been the mud bath ) despite catching swine flu when i was there! (prob why i m/c)

my acupuncture experiences are pretty much the same as frankies. the acupuncture works by restoring the flo of qi (chi) through your body, its very old chinese theories and medicines, but its worked for thousands, its not a quick fix, so you have to stick at it, even though sometimes you may not notice any changes in your actual self, (they are usually subtle changes) but i think you need to believe in it, and have faith in your acupuncturist.

so tallmom, hows things? i haven't peeked at your chart yet, i'll have a look in a mo.

what you been up to frankie? where you at ttc wise at the mo'?

 

[LilMissCheer]

Hi everyone :wave: Can I come back?

Sorry for being anti-social - i just couldn't face it after another months disappointment. We're trying to have a month off this month and not think about it so not really temped or monitored or anything. I've felt almost back to my normal, pre-baby obsessed self - it's been nice!

Currently in bed feeling like shite. I'm asthmatic and it's kicked off big time this weekend plus a snotty headcold so not gone into work. It's the bloody kids that's given it to me in the first place. Sods Anyway, i'm gonna have to club my fella over the head if i'm gonna get any tonight. I look like the living dead

How's everyone? I'm around cd 14 I think. Peed on two sticks - one yesterday (a high) and one this morning (peak) so will prob today and tomorrow and leave it at that. No temping and getting obsessed. I just can't do it anymore!

Welcome to everyone who I haven't spoke to yet :wave:

 

[LilMissCheer]

Hi ladies!!!

feeling a bit better. my hubby suggested a holiday, I think he was spot on, just what i need a week off, properly. so i booked last night, we're going to turkey for a week the 12th october, i can't wait, its really lifted my spirits and given me something to look forward too.

I got pregnant last time i came back from turkey (must have been the mud bath ) despite catching swine flu when i was there! (prob why i m/c)

my acupuncture experiences are pretty much the same as frankies. the acupuncture works by restoring the flo of qi (chi) through your body, its very old chinese theories and medicines, but its worked for thousands, its not a quick fix, so you have to stick at it, even though sometimes you may not notice any changes in your actual self, (they are usually subtle changes) but i think you need to believe in it, and have faith in your acupuncturist.

so tallmom, hows things? i haven't peeked at your chart yet, i'll have a look in a mo.

what you been up to frankie? where you at ttc wise at the mo'?

I holiday sounds like just what you need babe. So much stressing lately with ttc and your job and everything. It sounds absolutely perfect. I hate people who can go on holiday in term time...can I come?