WantsALittle1
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I hate pregnancy dreams. They are so intense and disturbing sometimes. I had a horrifying dream last night that LO was born at home within seconds of noticing a tickling feeling down below. In the dream he was born at 24 weeks (his current gestational age) in a very feeble and visually frightening state where survival was totally impossible. I was so grief-stricken that he wouldn't survive that I woke up screaming.
I have a growth scan today so my guess is that I am subconsciously worried about that, but I hate that it has to manifest itself in such a horrible and vivid way. I was so relieved to wake up, shift positions, and feel little man kicking, but realized that deep down I am scared of having another preemie or another cord issue. We could have lost DD due to her severe cord entanglement and I am just terrified of something happening to our little man. We so deeply want to meet him and get to know him and watch his life bud! I guess I realized after this dream that even though I haven't met him, I am already deeply attached and absolutely love him to pieces. I am so scared of losing him and not being able to prevent or stop it.
I have a growth scan today so my guess is that I am subconsciously worried about that, but I hate that it has to manifest itself in such a horrible and vivid way. I was so relieved to wake up, shift positions, and feel little man kicking, but realized that deep down I am scared of having another preemie or another cord issue. We could have lost DD due to her severe cord entanglement and I am just terrified of something happening to our little man. We so deeply want to meet him and get to know him and watch his life bud! I guess I realized after this dream that even though I haven't met him, I am already deeply attached and absolutely love him to pieces. I am so scared of losing him and not being able to prevent or stop it.