Hi Tanks- So sorry you've been going through such a bad time, but looks as though you've reached breaking point and that means that you're going to start making changes which will lead to your being much happier. The TTC process is so frustrating, I find that it just magnifies all the other problems that life regularly throws at us. (Maybe it's something to do with the lack of control within the TTC process, which then makes us feel even more out of control in other areas of our lives.) In any case, big hug from me and things really will improve. Good luck for the job interview!