The BFP Before The 'Would Of Been' Due Date Thread - Any Joiners?

[girlinyork]

I know what you mean starry night. The bleeding is such an awful and constant reminder of what you have lost :/

 

[traceyAndLee]

my duedate and not being pregnant i keep thinking about how big i wud be now how i wud feel the baby kicking but NO nothin still TTC cant only hope for the best and keep up at what were doing somtime i what to run away from it all, there time were we have not try at all and still nothin, times were i was like IM prego i kow im i feel it and still here we are TTC this wud of bin my first baby

 

[girlinyork]

so sorry Tracey. This whole baby loss thing is a nightmare

 

[carebear1981]

So sorry tracey take some time to pamper yourself today and hopefully your DH will too.

 

[girlinyork]

When you lose a baby you become obsessed with getting another one in there and then when you get one in there you get obsessed with whether or not its staying there. No respite :/

 

[armymama2012]

Yeah, for me I add that after losing ours on as a toddler we are paranoid of something happening to our daughter or any other babies we have.

 

[Starry Night]

I hate being so aware of the fragility of life. Makes me so paranoid for my DS.

to all the ladies here.

AFM - this morning started to spot brown stuff so thought it was the beginning of the end but it went red again.

 

[samj732]

to you ladies. I'm sorry about all the tough times. It's a rough road but you will be stronger at the end of it

 

[Harley Quinn]

It can really be depressing to hold death so close. But it can also be a blessing.

It is something you will always carry with you. It can either be a heavy weight that wears you down, or a ribbon tied around your finger reminding you to love the ones you have because you never know when they might be gone.

 

[traceyAndLee]

Thanks girl its nice to come here an let it out - i dont think my man gets it hes like well you now you can get prego just stop stressing about it and it will happen like thats time,

so as for there cheap ov teats still all new to me as i was usin the smilly face ones but the price it just to much - so got some of amazon im on CD12 and still nothing,

i get up go the loo at 10/11ish am as its say not to use fmu so i wait for about 2/3pm and do it then, hope im doing it right

Hope all you girl are well

P.S can bathing every-night be bad as ya know water gos up there

 

[aknqtpie]

Tracey - This has been a great outlet for me as well. My DH totally doesn't understnad. I think he is disapointed, but in his mind... it means we get to have lotsa sex again!!

I think the concern with baths is the heat..

 

[Kelly9]

Girlin nice ticker

I bathe a lot when pregnant and not pregnant, nothing like a tub of hot water to settle your muscles.

 

[Starry Night]

I don't like baths much. I feel like I'm stewing in my own juices. However, I do like epsom salt baths after a hard massage. That feels really nice. What I love is hot, steamy showers.

Oh man. I am feeling really low today. I think the bleeding is slowing as it's mostly browny-gunky stuff though it went a bit browny-red after running around the house all day. But really I feel like I'm never going to get my rainbow. I feel like I should be thankful for the son I already have and just give up on #2. It's such a pessimistic feeling when I haven't even finished miscarrying yet but I'm just so afraid of going through this again (and again).

People keep telling me stories of those who had miscarried over and over but they eventually got their baby. They tell me these stories to encourage me but all I get from them is "you will miscarry repeatedly before you get your rainbow". Really blue today.

 

[Kelly9]

Starry night don't give up if you still want another baby. Your rainbow will happen it may just take time. Have you had testing done to see why you're mc'ing? It could be something as simple and taking some baby aspirin during your cycle and tww. I lost my little girl at 18 weeks and though it was due to a condition she had it was still devastating and there were days I never thought I'd be pregnant again. We did IVF to conceive her so it was also a hard blow financially for us. It took 1 failed frozen cycle and then another fresh cycle to get pregnant with our second little girl and even though it was a super hard path it was worth it.

 

[Starry Night]

I see my doctor on Thursday so I will ask him about testing. Most doctors don't believe me about my lost twin (he didn't show up on the early ultrasounds but I definitely held a fetus in my hand and my son was born 8 months later so I'm pretty sure there was a twin...never mind the u/s the next day showed a second, empty sac) so not sure I'll convince him to let me get any. But who knows? He just might! I've had bleeding in all of my pregnancies so that alone might convince him.

I just don't want to delay TTC. I have irregular cycles but otherwise I think I'm fairly fertile as I get my bfps within 3 tries each time. I'd almost rather wait for another m/c to test b/c I want to ttc now & i'm almost 30.

 

[Kelly9]

I dont' see why you'd have to stop ttc just cause they're doing some testing. Worth asking anyway.

 

[Starry Night]

I don't know. I guess I just assumed that these things would take time...especially if we want to see a specialist. My DS is in line to see an allergy specialist and it's been 4 months and we haven't even heard from them yet, never mind the actual wait for the appointment.

I've started bleeding bright red again so it will be awhile before i can TTC anyways. I'll ask my doctor.

 

[carebear1981]

I'm sorry you're feeling so down starry. I really hope that you can think positively. Its very hard to do when you are still bleeding. I know my thoughts were very dark during that time. and for you. Don't give up hope!

 

[armymama2012]

I hope the Dr. will understand and do some testing for you Starry. I don't want you to give up on having a Rainbow baby.

 

[girlinyork]

Starry, if you have to then lie. In a couple of months go in and say you had a loss at four weeks. They'll take your word for it because it'll be hard to prove you wrong. You need these tests and it's sad you'll have to lie to get them but in actuality you've met the criteria for them