After talking with DH this evening we decided we're going to go ahead and start "not, not trying" to TTC, but keep the stress off. We'd both love to be expecting by our girls due date of March 6th. Our baby girls were 22wks when they grew their wings and they can never be replaced in our hearts, but we can't wait to bring a healthy rainbow baby home. It's a strange feeling to be wanting a baby so badly, but grieving for the one's we lost. I feel guilty moving on and TTC, but know that the world won't be right for me again and I won't be able to full heal until we leave the hospital with full hearts and full arms.