The LTTTC thread for everyone.

[LLbean]

HA hang in there! it is very stressful and hard to keep hope alive but you owe it to yourself and the baby to keep on keeping on

I am on day 5 of mine as well and tonight I do my last dose of Letrazole (Femara) as well as the first of Gonal-F...should be exciting lol

 

[peacebaby]

HA good to hear this protocol is working well for you, 20 follies with some at 17mm is great! As LL said hang in there You can do it!

LL well done and good luck with the scan this week

 

[LLbean]

Thanks Peace...hope all is progressing well with you

 

[Milty]

HA this is great news ...I know you were nervous with the change because you had done well in the past. However if I remember right your doing better this time. I think that is a good sign your doc is tayloring this just for you and what your body needs. When trying to keep sane it might help that your doc is doing so well for you.

Just FYI it seems so weird to me to hear about everyone excited for more follies when I'm praying for less

Yeah like usually I'm the odd ball

 

[crystal443]

Milty- That is true you are always hoping for less How are the ovaries after you've O'd this time? Are they sore or anything? I hope the progesterone and then last cycle has kick started a more "normal" cycle for you I keep meaning to ask what your DS is going to be for Halloween?

HA- Wow 20 follies, I could only dream of hearing my ovaries and that number in the same sentence Way to go, stay positive this could be the one

Peace- Hang in there, I wish there some magic piece of advice to give you that could get you through to your scan but it really is just hanging on day to day until you can see things are fine Spotting is common in early pregnancy but I can well imagine how you felt when you saw it so just hang in there. Thinking of you

Liz- I am trying to hang on until Wednesday but its taking forever

Bmom- I make my DH go walking with me, I'd never go if I had to go by myself I need to walk and talk or I get bored so I make him go with

H0peful- Hope you had a great weekend

Jen- Hope your weekend has been ok, and your feeling better now When is your next scan?

Ready- Hope you had a great weekend What are your kids going to be for Halloween?

AFM- I woke up with a hormonal headache I'd say because I O'd and my hormones have shifted. Its the first one I've had in a while so I can't complain really and its not as intense as they once were I also had a dream last night I was waiting for FS to get back so I could have my 8 week scan and I was terrified of having it DH had a dream a few nights ago that we went in for our csection appointment and they told us to come back when labour started and he was panicking Hopefully its a good sign of things to come

 

[HappyAuntie]

Thanks - yeah, on my last fresh cycle I had 14 follies on the day of trigger, so I'm definitely ahead this time. Just keeping my FX'd that at least one of these is good quality....

ETA: And you're right, I was very nervous about the protocol change... just one more example where I need to learn to let go....

 

[LLbean]

HA FXd for you!!!

Crystal I believe its coming for you!!!!! Even your hubby having a dream? That has got to be a very good sign

 

[peacebaby]

Thanks LL & Crystal

Wow those dreams are so specific - that has to be a good omen Crystal xxxxx

 

[crystal443]

Peace and Liz-Yes they were very specific, I thought at first mine was to have IVF, but then DH pointed out I was waiting for FS to get back for the scan We'll see, hopefully it means something good is coming in the next few months If anything it put positive thoughts in our heads which we can use It could also be we're both hoping so much we're now dreaming about it but their good dreams so no harm

HA- Sometimes it can be as simple as a change of protocol to produce better quality eggs, your was estrogen primed this time wasn't it? It may be all you needed but It is hard to stay positive when things haven't gone to plan in the past. I dread the thought of a cycle of IVF because I have had 0% luck with it but if we don't try it won't happen Hang in there

 

[Milty]

Well my overies didn't feel like much. I noticed a few twinges during O but definently not the norm. I did have an US this month so I don't really know how many follies I had but I feel like it was the same as last month or less.

I will say my Progestrone is up cause I'm already getting really tender breast.


As for Halloween he has not decided

 

[crystal443]

fx'd for you Milty

 

[LLbean]

Yes Milty FXd!!!

 

[sukisam]

Hi guys
Thought I'd give you lovely ladies an update from my emotional/ traumatic weekend! Seriously I think I've cried 3 years worth of tears I know I'm so bad at letting people know how I feel & I guess that's where you guys came in this is the only place I share some of how I feel.

Well OH did a half marathon Sunday so didnt talk to him Saturday - I can't believe I was so upset & he didn't notice ive only got myself to blame cos I am superb at hiding my feelings. Last night we had "the talk", I was really honest and said I didnt feel I could carry on TTC it was too upsetting etc I feel so sad that this much longed for baby never came. He did cry & said he was sad too but he is happy with me & dd & DS. I said I still want another child how did he feel about adoption. He doesn't think it's for him but we've agreed we'll focus on my course for the next year & try & pay our loans off early and see how we feel in a year. Tbh I think he's trying to let me down gently so I guess I'm going to have to get over it. He can see us fostering when the kids are older I'd rather adopt in the next year or two before DD has her exams. Although he didn't say what I wanted to hear it did feel good to tell him how I feel and he hugged me for ages and I was able to cry with him & not in secret.

So ladies I think this really is the end if the road for me - OH still clinging to the hope we'll get pregnant on our own but that's not going to happen. I'm going to take this year to focus on myself, doing the beyond chocolate course will hopefully help me get more skilled in looking after myself. Hopefully I'll put my interests first and go to Zumba etc more. I'm slowly coming to terms with the fact it's very unlikely I'm going to have another child.

If its okay I'll pop in here every now & then to see how you lovely ladies are doing. I really, really hope you all get your forever babies

Love you all

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Milty]

Suki love you girl

 

[Bravemom]

Suki ,I love and miss you

 

[LLbean]

Suki, come by any time!!!!! We will be thinking of you always!

 

[HappyAuntie]

Oh Suki, I'm so glad you feel better having talked to him about it. Of course you can pop in now and then... we would hunt you down if you didn't.

xoxoxoxox

 

[H0pefulagain]

Suki, so sorry it has come to this and yet so glad for you that you're able to find some peace in all of it. I pray God keeps you close to his heart right now and gives you the direction and peace you both want and need. Please do drop back in. While I am new here, you have been nothing but kind and gracious while I've been around. We'll miss you!

 

[readyformore]

I also had a dream last night I was waiting for FS to get back so I could have my 8 week scan and I was terrified of having it DH had a dream a few nights ago that we went in for our csection appointment and they told us to come back when labour started and he was panicking

I had a dream last night that my husband had sex with another woman and she got pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up mad at him.

 

[H0pefulagain]

Well, Ready....at least you know your don't wonder if his lil fellas are the reason!

I've done that before, waking up mad at Hubby for something I dreamed he did or didn't do. Poor fella can't win, even in sleep!