The LTTTC thread for everyone.

[Bonnie1990]

hugs everyone.

 

[Milty]

Yeah I will probably try to schedule an appt with my old FS that I actually liked

 

[readyformore]

So ladies I started the clomid this month . My hubby and I are trying three more months then we are done , we have been trying for seven years and I feel we have gave it our best shot so three months of clomid then we are done. I am happy to accept there will be no more babies now and feel very blessed with what i have If we were younger it would be different but I'm 45 and this was always our time to give up praying for all of you on this thread . Big loves

Good luck with clomid Bmom. I hope it works for you. Finding resolution with whatever the outcome brings will be nice too. You've given it a full try, (more than just that really) so you should have no regrets.

 

[readyformore]

Ok........so I have a bit of a confession.

I found out for sure on Friday that my only fallopian tube was blocked. She was able to push it out of the way........so now it's open.

It's so weird to have been looking for resolution and now I feel like I'm suddenly fertile again.

I am rolling my eyes at myself while I admit that I do have a renewed sense of hope.

I am thinking about a lot of possible outcomes and trying not to get too far ahead of myself. It's just like before, I will either get pregnant or I won't and I will be happy with either outcome. My primary concern is that now I feel like the clock has restarted and I'm going to want to do this for another 2+ years. Frankly I'd rather chop off a toe than do this for another 2 years........or even 1.

I think I'm still in shock. I didn't expect that result. My husband isn't particularly happy. He's afraid that I am going to have a renewed sense of hope and be crushed with AF. I've been doing so well for the past several months, that I can understand his concerns.

So......as my bnb buddies have suggested, I am hoping for the best and preparing for the worst.

 

[Milty]

Ready this is such great news.

Think of it like this if that was the only issue then you will be PG within the next year most likely sooner...if not then you have done what you could


I'm really glad you went through the procedure

 

[crystal443]

Ready that is fabulous news Maybe TTC for awhile and see if it happens for you In all honesty why would you quit when you've only just found the problem? Give yourself a reasonable amount of time to TTC and then decide from there

I really hope it happens quickly You just never know now that you've found the problem

Milty- Good plan for you as well you need someone to have a good look with a scan etc. and get you going toward something that will work

 

[Bravemom]

Ready that is great news . I'm so chuffed for you ❤

 

[Bonnie1990]

Wonderful news!

 

[readyformore]

Everyone have a good weekend?

I had a big party for all 3 kids birthdays. Today I have considered exercising, but I am too busy making bad food choices from the leftovers. Triple chocolate pudding cake with breakfast........too many bread sticks and coke with lunch.

Hi to Bmom, Crystal, Milty, Suki, LL, More4, Bam, Cali, Alison, Bonnie, Jen and Peace (if they are lurking ), and everyone else.

 

[Bravemom]

Yum yum ready

 

[Bonnie1990]

After party at ready's!

 

[CaliDreaming]

More4mom and Milty

ByAnyMeans, a good cry always helps. I really do hope 2013 brings better news for all of us (assuming the earth is still here in 2012, lol)

Bravemom, I wish you all the luck in the world. I will be starting clomid and injectibles next month too. You sound so much at peace with your decision to try for three more months. I'm so afraid that if this doesn't work for me I won't be able to stop trying.

RFM, great news on the tubes! However I do understand how you and your hubby may have mixed feelings about it. It takes a lot of work to get to the point where you can feel okay about not trying anymore, and now you have a very good reason to keep going. I really hope you get a bfp right away.

Hi Crystal!!

AFM: I had my appointment at the FS on Thursday and I felt like a mental wreck afterward. I walked out of there feeling like I would never get pregnant again and I spent Thursday and Friday crying. I had hoped that I would get some definitive answers, but all it seemed to do was sow more seeds of confusion and doubt.

First, we went over my thyroid results. I had thought that I was hyperthyroid and that that was causing my fertility troubles. Turns out my TSH was 0.55, which is on the very low end of normal. I understand that ideally it should be between 1 and 2 when TTC. It's frustrating being so close to the line of what is normal and not being able to get treatment even when I'm having symptoms.

Second, dhs sperm count was good, but he had low morphology and low normal motility. FS said that should not be keeping me from getting pregnant.

Finally was the results of my HSG and this was the most frustrating of all. At the HSG my left tube was open but my right tube was blocked. The radiologist thought it was a spasm. A resident also looked at it and thought that she saw a little bit of dye go through. The FS looked at it and thought that it was definitely a block because the dye went in a little way and then abruptly stopped. However she didn't think my tubes needed any further investigation because the left tube was fine, although she mentioned there was a chance that whatever caused the block in the right tube might affect the left tube as well (which of course has caused me to panic like nothing else). But when I asked her about that, she again said that she thought I should be able to get pregnant with the one tube and not to worry about it anymore. No repeat HSG, lap, or anything.

So I am supposed to start Clomid and injectibles next month to produce more eggs. She seemed pretty certain that this was a reasonable course of action even while I was freaking about my tube.

I left the appointment feeling very down because I didn't get any definitive answers. I got a borderline thyroid result. I got three different people saying three different things about my tubes. I got a whole lot of information but no answers about why I'm not pregnant yet. I'm a little worried that I won't even get to start Clomid because of the large cyst on my ovary. It was 5 cm. I guess if it goes down next cycle I can start, but I know from my past history that I am cyst prone. I've read that that can be a sign that a woman is anovulatory even though she has regular periods.

I felt so unsettled by the lack of a definitive answer that I've decided to take some matters in my own hands. I'm planning on seeing a homeopathic doctor on the thyroid because I just don't understand why my TSH is not of more concern if I'm having symptoms. I hate the thought of waiting until the numbers fall off the cliff to get something done about them. Also, I know thyroid problems can cause hormonal imbalances that can interfere with ovulation, and it seems like if I'm getting cysts then all is not well and good with some part of my endocrine system.

I am feeling a lot better than I did on Thursday and Friday, because even though I didn't get the answers I needed, I am taking heart that the FS felt that I had a good shot with Clomid. I will go forward with her recommended treatment, but in the meantime, I am going to do some further digging.

Sorry for the book!

 

[readyformore]

Cali.

It can be really overwhelming and frustrating can't it? Everyone seems to have a different opinion and nobody seems to know what the problem is.

Good to know that the doc feels you have a shot with clomid.
I am also cyst prone. What type do you have? Mine originally were simple, meaning they were just clear fluid. I would get them often and they would rupture......sometimes. I had a clomid/IUI cycle cancelled due to a cyst. We still did IUI, just not medicated. And prior to meds I had a cyst and the doc drained it vaginally so I could get started. Honestly it was horribly painful, but it's still an option if you're feeling desperate to get the meds started.........I know I was. With my most recent set of IUIs we choose femara because clomid kept giving me repeated cysts.

I would also suggest seeing an endocrinologist if you are concerned about your thyroid. They would be way more helpful for you than an ob/gyn or RE.

It's nice to have a plan. I'm glad you're feeling better about the situation.

 

[H0pefulagain]

Cali

Is it possible to find another FS?

 

[crystal443]

Ready- the afterparty food sounds lovely exsecise can wait a day chocolate cake is more important

Cali- I think in geberal you'll always have that confused feeling when leaving your FS appointments they really don't always know why we can't get pregnant...so frustrating. I would say be careful taking any homeopathic medicines with injectibles, clomid etc. My FS doesn't allow any chinese herbs, homeopathic medicines etc while treating his patients. he said they can do more harm then good sometimes if your not careful and most FS like to know everything your on etc. Just be careful, I agree with Ready maybe go and see an Endocrinologist for your thyroid

H0peful- how are you today? got your tests ready

Bonnie- I'm headed to your journal now

Milty- looks like we're cycle buddies again!! we need to get us an early Christmas BFP

 

[CaliDreaming]

Good morning ladies!


readyformore, overwhelmed and frustrated is exactly how I feel right now. Do you think an endo would do something for me since I'm just a borderline case? I was afraid that an endo might give me the "so what are you doing here?" treatment. Or maybe I should ask around to see if I can find one who is willing to think outside the box?

The one I have right now is a simple cyst. I first learned that I got them five years ago before I even started TTC. My OB/GYN found one during a routine pap and monitored it for a few months. In that course of time, I had mostly simple cysts and one complex one with blood in it. Once my doc ruled out cancer, I quit going back to her because I didn't think they were hurting anything. I'm kicking myself for that now. I've never had one rupture. I think I would let them go ahead and drain it because I am tired already and I just want to get on with it. I guess that is not a good way to be feeling since I'm just starting the process now.

crystal, it's good to know I'm not alone in how I felt after my FS appointment. I came out of there feeling like I was just wasting my time.

H0pefulagain, I believe I will stick with my FS for the time being because I think anyone I go to will do the same thing as she's recommending. I think I will try her out for a few months and then go from there.

 

[More4mom]

Hey all... Sorry for the "dump" on Friday then my silence. That glaring BFN was more than I could handle. I took the weekend "off" BNB, thinking it would help, but instead, I just missed you guys!

I still have not had AF. I'm CD 35, 19-20 DPO (or so I thought). Now I'm not so sure... Maybe I O'd later and missed the signs?? I have an appt with my FS tomorrow. I guess I'll see what she says. If no AF by tomorrow, I'll ask for bloods.

Milty - Any news on the new FS?

Ready - so stoked about the open tube! I know how you feel. After the FS took out that huge polyp in September, I felt like I'd been given a "fresh start". It is really exciting! I loved what Milty told me... It's like starting ad Cycle 1, with tons of opportunity ahead!

BAM - totally giggled about the Mayan calendar thing. Hadn't thought of that, but you are right... !!

Bmom - What does "chuffed" mean??? Good luck with Clomid.

Cali - Cyst and blocked tube? Isnt' there anything they can do for that? Somehow I thought there was??? Sorry for all the frustrations hun!!!

Love to everyone else...

 

[readyformore]

readyformore, overwhelmed and frustrated is exactly how I feel right now. Do you think an endo would do something for me since I'm just a borderline case? I was afraid that an endo might give me the "so what are you doing here?" treatment. Or maybe I should ask around to see if I can find one who is willing to think outside the box?

You know, he might just say that there is nothing wrong but that's not bad. It's knowledge. The symptoms for under/over active thyroid are pretty diverse and can be attributed to a number of things. If both the RE and an endocrinologist rule out thyroid problems, when you think that there is one, then maybe see a general practitioner and see what he can make of the symptoms you are having.

 

[Bravemom]

Hey all... Sorry for the "dump" on Friday then my silence. That glaring BFN was more than I could handle. I took the weekend "off" BNB, thinking it would help, but instead, I just missed you guys!

I still have not had AF. I'm CD 35, 19-20 DPO (or so I thought). Now I'm not so sure... Maybe I O'd later and missed the signs?? I have an appt with my FS tomorrow. I guess I'll see what she says. If no AF by tomorrow, I'll ask for bloods.

Milty - Any news on the new FS?

Ready - so stoked about the open tube! I know how you feel. After the FS took out that huge polyp in September, I felt like I'd been given a "fresh start". It is really exciting! I loved what Milty told me... It's like starting ad Cycle 1, with tons of opportunity ahead!

BAM - totally giggled about the Mayan calendar thing. Hadn't thought of that, but you are right... !!

Bmom - What does "chuffed" mean??? Good luck with Clomid.

Cali - Cyst and blocked tube? Isnt' there anything they can do for that? Somehow I thought there was??? Sorry for all the frustrations hun!!!

Love to everyone else...

Chuffed means happy / overjoyed with myself Thanks huni

 

[More4mom]

Had my ObGyn - whom I really like - appt this morning. Told her what was going on. CD 36. 20/21 DPO (potentially). No AF. She told me to wait one more week, and if no AF, she would do bloods.

Man, this is just killing me. It took so much courage for me to test on Friday, I just don't know if I can do that again. Those BFN's knock the wind and life right out of me!

Part of me thinks, avoid another BFN and do nothing, AF is on the way. The other part of me thinks, grow up and test again silly woman!!

Now what???