

More4mom and Milty



ByAnyMeans, a good cry always helps. I really do hope 2013 brings better news for all of us (assuming the earth is still here in 2012, lol)
Bravemom, I wish you all the luck in the world. I will be starting clomid and injectibles next month too. You sound so much at peace with your decision to try for three more months. I'm so afraid that if this doesn't work for me I won't be able to stop trying.
RFM, great news on the tubes! However I do understand how you and your hubby may have mixed feelings about it. It takes a lot of work to get to the point where you can feel okay about not trying anymore, and now you have a very good reason to keep going. I really hope you get a bfp right away.
Hi Crystal!!
AFM: I had my appointment at the FS on Thursday and I felt like a mental wreck afterward. I walked out of there feeling like I would never get pregnant again and I spent Thursday and Friday crying. I had hoped that I would get some definitive answers, but all it seemed to do was sow more seeds of confusion and doubt.
First, we went over my thyroid results. I had thought that I was hyperthyroid and that that was causing my fertility troubles. Turns out my TSH was 0.55, which is on the very low end of normal. I understand that ideally it should be between 1 and 2 when TTC. It's frustrating being so close to the line of what is normal and not being able to get treatment even when I'm having symptoms.
Second, dhs sperm count was good, but he had low morphology and low normal motility. FS said that should not be keeping me from getting pregnant.
Finally was the results of my HSG and this was the most frustrating of all. At the HSG my left tube was open but my right tube was blocked. The radiologist thought it was a spasm. A resident also looked at it and thought that she saw a little bit of dye go through. The FS looked at it and thought that it was definitely a block because the dye went in a little way and then abruptly stopped. However she didn't think my tubes needed any further investigation because the left tube was fine, although she mentioned there was a chance that whatever caused the block in the right tube might affect the left tube as well (which of course has caused me to panic like nothing else). But when I asked her about that, she again said that she thought I should be able to get pregnant with the one tube and not to worry about it anymore. No repeat HSG, lap, or anything.
So I am supposed to start Clomid and injectibles next month to produce more eggs. She seemed pretty certain that this was a reasonable course of action even while I was freaking about my tube.
I left the appointment feeling very down because I didn't get any definitive answers. I got a borderline thyroid result. I got three different people saying three different things about my tubes. I got a whole lot of information but no answers about why I'm not pregnant yet. I'm a little worried that I won't even get to start Clomid because of the large cyst on my ovary. It was 5 cm. I guess if it goes down next cycle I can start, but I know from my past history that I am cyst prone. I've read that that can be a sign that a woman is anovulatory even though she has regular periods.
I felt so unsettled by the lack of a definitive answer that I've decided to take some matters in my own hands. I'm planning on seeing a homeopathic doctor on the thyroid because I just don't understand why my TSH is not of more concern if I'm having symptoms. I hate the thought of waiting until the numbers fall off the cliff to get something done about them. Also, I know thyroid problems can cause hormonal imbalances that can interfere with ovulation, and it seems like if I'm getting cysts then all is not well and good with some part of my endocrine system.
I am feeling a lot better than I did on Thursday and Friday, because even though I didn't get the answers I needed, I am taking heart that the FS felt that I had a good shot with Clomid. I will go forward with her recommended treatment, but in the meantime, I am going to do some further digging.
Sorry for the book!