The LTTTC thread for everyone.

[Bonnie1990]

Had my ObGyn - whom I really like - appt this morning. Told her what was going on. CD 36. 20/21 DPO (potentially). No AF. She told me to wait one more week, and if no AF, she would do bloods.

Man, this is just killing me. It took so much courage for me to test on Friday, I just don't know if I can do that again. Those BFN's knock the wind and life right out of me!

Part of me thinks, avoid another BFN and do nothing, AF is on the way. The other part of me thinks, grow up and test again silly woman!!

Now what???

That's a tough one. It's been long enough since your last that something should show. But if the bfn is too much maybe your best to wait. I'm a poas addict so I'm no help really

 

[alison29]

Just test it's better to know or not.

 

[CaliDreaming]

More4mom, gee that is a tough one. If it were me I would wait the week for the blood test those BFNs have become just more and more soul deflating for me. I guess it depends on whether the joy of getting a BFP faster outweighs the pain of possible BFN.

 

[More4mom]

More4mom, gee that is a tough one. If it were me I would wait the week for the blood test those BFNs have become just more and more soul deflating for me. I guess it depends on whether the joy of getting a BFP faster outweighs the pain of possible BFN.

I agree with the "soul deflating" BFN... and I guess that's where I'm stuck. I just tried to order some HPT's on-line and couldn't do it. I'm actually embarassed - to have the audacity to think I might be pregnant. How crazy am I?? I'm 42 w/many years of unexplained secondary infertility. AF has to be around the corner. Right?

Oh my gosh... I am such a freakin' mess!!! I feel so stupid!

 

[crystal443]

More- its tough, some months I'm ok testing other months I won't test at all I guess do what you feel comfortable with, if you think you can wait it out a week then do that. However with a blood test you will get a phone call with someone telling you the results if you take a test beforehand it softens the blow if it isn't good news.

We have been trying since ds and he is 14 almost 15 , we went all those years until last Feb before I got a BFP, lost that one at 13 weeks and then had 2 chemicals back to back so a BFP after years of trying is possible Hang in there

 

[readyformore]

More4........I feel embarrassed about being hopeful for a bfp too. It must be a common thing for those that are ltttc.

 

[readyformore]

Well I'm PMSing......and that makes me angry.

Today I have thought about doing another IUI and calling the urologist to schedule DH's vasectomy..........literally.............all in the same day.

I'm effing nuts!! Please, nobody tell my husband! He can't handle my ttc/infertility drama.

 

[More4mom]

Well I'm PMSing......and that makes me angry.

Today I have thought about doing another IUI and calling the urologist to schedule DH's vasectomy..........literally.............all in the same day.

I'm effing nuts!! Please, nobody tell my husband! He can't handle my ttc/infertility drama.

Smokes, Ready... That's quite the range!!! All in one day, no less.

 

[More4mom]

CD 1. AF in here!!!!! Man! I thought I'd be totally devastated, but actually, I'm more relieved!! I feel like someone openend the pressure valve and let out all the extra air! Ahhhh.....

After all the drama of this past week - sadly shared mostly with you lovelies - I feel calm and ready for next month... Bring it on baby!!!

Flex! Flex! (showing off my perseverence muscles while it lasts!)

 

[CaliDreaming]

ready4more, You might want to abstain from making any phone calls for a few days, lol.

More4Mom, Sorry about AF, but at least you didn't have to get a BFN. I always feel like I've achieved a small victory when I get through a cycle without testing.

 

[crystal443]

Ready- that is quite the range of things all in one day Just a silly question but why would you book your DH for a vasectomy if your infertile? Are you worried you could get pregnant when your not expecting it later down the road? Just curious

More4mom- glad you found relief with AF there are months like that sometimes that's for sure

 

[readyformore]

Cali I'm not a huge tester either.

And More4.........I completely hear you! Today and yesterday I have already ruled out a pregnancy this month, so I'm already looking forward to AF. Usually by the time she comes, I've resolved it hasn't happened and I'm ready for the next round.
So, now to wait for the witch.

Crystal, honestly I just don't do well in limbo. I'm sure I would welcome a baby if it were to come, regardless of when that is. I just don't want to live the rest of my fertile life hopeful and then disappointed every single month.


Oh, to add to the mix I saw my primary ob/gyn yesterday. I told her about the HSG results. She wasn't even there for the procedure, but she was very negative about a possible blockage. She was stating that it was probably a spasm, and if it was a truly complete blockage, the HSG alone wouldn't have cleared it. WTF!!
Can we all just pick an effing camp and stick to it? (You're not alone in doctor's inconsistency Cali) July I was told I had a 5% chance of conception even with IUI/meds. November I'm told I had tubal factor infertility all along, but hey the tube is now open. A week and a half later I'm told that probably wasn't the issue anyway?
It's no wonder I'm confused and angry!!!

 

[Milty]

Ready I really think your doc just seems to have a negitive attitude toward conceiving. It's strange.

I would stick with the opinion of the person who actually did the procedure and was there. By the way I was told by my FS before my first HSG ages ago that most blockages can be cleared by the HSG itself. He is still a FS and really high conception rates.

 

[readyformore]

Ready I really think your doc just seems to have a negitive attitude toward conceiving. It's strange.

I would stick with the opinion of the person who actually did the procedure and was there. By the way I was told by my FS before my first HSG ages ago that most blockages can be cleared by the HSG itself. He is still a FS and really high conception rates.

Ironically enough, this is the same doctor that has told me from the beginning that I WILL get pregnant. She has had this really positive attitude about me conceiving. She keeps telling me how young I am. She had her third when she was 42, so apparently at 35 I'm a baby.
A few days before the HSG she did my pap and she told me that she felt strongly my tube would be open. I think she felt that way because she has first hand knowledge. She's seen my reproductive system up close and personal when she removed my tube and ovary.

I don't know what her issue was. I know that she didn't do the test and so she can't really say what the results were. But it still hurt. I trust her, ya know. There's always been that part of me that said, "Well my ob/gyn really thinks I'll get pregnant again," and I've hung on to that.

She's been wrong before; ie-"I will be able to remove that cyst from your ovary without having to open you up."

I'm praying she's wrong again and that tube was blocked and now it's open.


Thanks. I really appreciate you telling me what your doc has said to you. I'm kind of hanging on to a thread of hope/sanity right now.

 

[Milty]

Well all I can say is you work in the medical field I'm sure we all have bad days and such. Or bad personality traits. Maybe she just didn't like being wrong about your tube. Besides she didn't see the inside of your tube if she even saw that one at all.

 

[crystal443]

Ready- I was told the exact same thing by the very first FS we went to see he said if there is a blockage in the tubes it can usually be flushed out during the HSG. It can just be a bit of debris that gets in them and they need to be flushed. He said sometimes that's all that's needed is a good flush

I think your gyne can sometimes be a bit harsh with you tbh..I know we all need to keep it real when it comes to getting pregnant but every FS I've had has always said they're numbers are based on educated guesses as to how previous women do in cycles of IVF,IUI etc. at the end of the day they still don't know enough about our reproduction to give a definate answer.

I just think its a bit wrong to totally deflate you like that, do you think it was partly because she didn't guess or it may have been blocked for awhile and you've had all those IUI's and could have been something so simple? That would be a bit embarrassing for a doctor I would think, I would go with what the doctor administering the test has said


Milty- how are doing now?

 

[Milty]

Well Crystal I really don't know how I'm doing. I've almost wrote this post three times and I keep deleting it.

So a couple days after AF started it disappeared again. Also my boobs Started hurting really bad. I tested again because I felt like I was going crazy. My test was darker. So I said this is it and went to my doc. They did labs and my HCG came back at 11 something.

So I had bloods and an ultrasound yesterday. Bloods were 2. I explained my O chart and how I'm positive to within 48 hours when I O'd. Not to mention we did not BD after that at all.

Anyway she thinks maybe I had an ectopic that ended on its own. Which is her reason for the slow rise and low HCG. The ultrasound scan thing to forever but the could find nothing. They spent a lot of time going over one spot but didn't tell me why or anything. Only I'm clear and do not have to worry about my tubes or anything now.

This was really really stressful for me and like I said I really don't know what to think.

 

[crystal443]

That's wierd because I looked at your chart earlier and though it was strange your AF only lasted 3 days. I'm so sorry if was ectopic but thankfully it resolved itself, your having a hard go of it, so was that your AF?

Milty third time has to be the charm for you I think anyone in your situation would have been confused about what was going on. I'm glad you got it sorted though, I think you feel like you shouldn't say if something is going on with you...don't be nervous about expressing what's going on with you. You can't get support if you stay quiet

Sorry one more question, so are you free and clear to try again? Is there a higher risk that you could have an ectopic next time?

 

[Milty]

I think that's my problem I have gotten so much info the last few days it's so hard to process.

My Doc thought I would start AF again after my HCG went down. It hasn't and won't I can tell you. I know my body to well. My AF was really only 2 days as the 3rd was so light it was like spotting. That 3rd day is when my HCG was the highest. So even when it was climbing AF still came. I have other odd points about this but it's to hard to think about all at once.

My doc said we are cleared as this was a very early loss. She said we are more fertile now.

I'm honestly confused about ectopic possibilities. I could swear my doc said I was and wasn't more likely to have an eptopic if I did or didn't have one this month.

 

[Milty]

Ohh kinda side note...

I already have 2 follicles going. That's good and my lowest count I've ever had. I think this is due to the Progestrone use over several cycles.