twinklestar25
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Weve been a little lax with contraception- using the pull out method but Ive just let him do it as I think subconsciously I wouldnt mind a slip up 3rd baby too much. I think I want a 3rd but dont or cant consciously make that decision to go ahead and ttc as Im scared of it all going wrong and turning out to be a bad decision for our family and it been my fault. Plus do says he really doesnt want another but when faced with an oopsie is so calm and accepting about it!
Anyway anytime we use the pull out method near to ov I start thinking about potentially been pregnant. This particular month I thought he slipped up, TMI-it was dark and couldnt see where the goods had gone after he pulled out, so my mind has been a little in overdrive.
I tried not to think about it too much, we were at Center Parcs last week and all the Christmas stuff my mind has been mostly occupied, but Ive been having (unless its all in my head, which is seeming more likely as I approach af been due) some questionable symptoms.
Ive had loads of cramping on and off, pinching feelings etc, tmi- very wet since yesterday (af is due fri, today is weds) lots of burping, waves of tiredness. I ran out Boxing Day twice to get pregnancy tests...
So far I have had a questionable line but think it was prob an indentation line with heaedays fmu, all others compleatly negative so far.
Ive had mixed emotions since thinking I could genuinely be pregnant, first I was really scared, panic but then made a plan in my head of how we would create space in the house, work situation, holiday thats booked next yr etc and started to feel better about it, even to the point that I feel abit miffed it might turn out to be neg now.
This is not the first time Ive gone through this cycle, although this month has been worse.
So as you can see Im driving myself compleatly mental with it all. I dont know what to do, Im thinking its probanly best to get some longer term contraception.
I would like a 3rd (obvs) but Im so worried about it been too much - too stressful, too expensive, were still paying off our wedding from the summer, not enough space, harder to have holidays etc we all know the list Im sure. It feels quite selfish of me to want it, I suppose if it happened by accident then if it turns out really hard then its not my fault as I didnt plan for it to happen. (Although I know if I really really didnt want anything to happen I/we would be more careful with contraception) our other two were planned and always managed with contraception before fine.
So yes it seems Im going loopy...
Anyway anytime we use the pull out method near to ov I start thinking about potentially been pregnant. This particular month I thought he slipped up, TMI-it was dark and couldnt see where the goods had gone after he pulled out, so my mind has been a little in overdrive.
I tried not to think about it too much, we were at Center Parcs last week and all the Christmas stuff my mind has been mostly occupied, but Ive been having (unless its all in my head, which is seeming more likely as I approach af been due) some questionable symptoms.
Ive had loads of cramping on and off, pinching feelings etc, tmi- very wet since yesterday (af is due fri, today is weds) lots of burping, waves of tiredness. I ran out Boxing Day twice to get pregnancy tests...
So far I have had a questionable line but think it was prob an indentation line with heaedays fmu, all others compleatly negative so far.
Ive had mixed emotions since thinking I could genuinely be pregnant, first I was really scared, panic but then made a plan in my head of how we would create space in the house, work situation, holiday thats booked next yr etc and started to feel better about it, even to the point that I feel abit miffed it might turn out to be neg now.
This is not the first time Ive gone through this cycle, although this month has been worse.
So as you can see Im driving myself compleatly mental with it all. I dont know what to do, Im thinking its probanly best to get some longer term contraception.
I would like a 3rd (obvs) but Im so worried about it been too much - too stressful, too expensive, were still paying off our wedding from the summer, not enough space, harder to have holidays etc we all know the list Im sure. It feels quite selfish of me to want it, I suppose if it happened by accident then if it turns out really hard then its not my fault as I didnt plan for it to happen. (Although I know if I really really didnt want anything to happen I/we would be more careful with contraception) our other two were planned and always managed with contraception before fine.
So yes it seems Im going loopy...