TrainWreck
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Hello.
I'm a newly divorced mother of two amazing little tots 3, 5. I had a great career, was with my husband for 15 years {last five were terrible}. Super mom... did it all. My marriage was empty, we fought all the time. I wanted more kids, and to stay home not work 60 hours a week. He wanted to work part time and pursue hobbies (major conflict of interest)I wanted family vacations, or even a date. I wanted to be married.
Please don't judge me on what I'm about to tell you; I have been saying struggling with my decisions
While it was irresponsible to do so in the manner that I chose, I decided to start a new life with my first love. He was getting divorced and I was about to. I got pregnant. Here is where it gets weird. I wasn't sleeping with my husband. And my lover paid lots of money to conceive his second child with his former wife. To his knowledge he can't conceive. So I did what any liberal woman having an affair and about to divorce her husband would do. I took the RU486 pill. But wouldn't you know it, 3 months later, it happened again. My lover is beyond shocked because now we know for absolute certain. But the problem is that my divorce is just starting. I can't go to court pregnant. I could lose my kids. So I take the RU486 pill again. At this point I am beyond crushed. Because I wanted more kids, so does my lover. I'm pro-choice, but I never thought I would have to make that choice, twice.
Now that I'm divorced and have someone who actually wants to raise children with me (my husband didn't really want children anyway, which made life even more difficult doing everything on my own) I want another baby. My lover was horribly upset with me for taking the pill, as he saw this as a miracle (which it really is), and potentially our only chance. I'm afraid he might be right. We really want a baby together, for the sake of wanting more kids, but also to have that connection together, and to help blend our families as we ease into this. It's been a year and the kids still don't realize that we are together, but that we are all friends.
After the second RU486 pill, my periods changed dramatically. I have always been very regular with 28 day cycles. All of a sudden, I had 30 day cycles, or 2 periods in one month. The first were very heavy, like horribly. I have no fibroids or endometrial issues. My hormone labs were fine, but my cycle is messed up. I don't get it. I've started the basal body temp, and cervical mucus survey process... but I guess there was a lot of stress, breaking up the family, relocating, new job, being on my own with the kiddos...
But then I wonder about the lover, he did lose 50 lbs and potentially that is why we was able to conceive (he conceived his first child no problem.) But he has put a few pounds back on, but not obese by any means.
So lay it on me. What do you think? I realize that my story isn't going to make me popular, but I really have lead a life that would make you never guess that I would do something like this. I have felt guilty for months and months, and it has been so incredibly difficult, but I didn't invent this phenomenon, have repented to the best of my ability.
I'm a newly divorced mother of two amazing little tots 3, 5. I had a great career, was with my husband for 15 years {last five were terrible}. Super mom... did it all. My marriage was empty, we fought all the time. I wanted more kids, and to stay home not work 60 hours a week. He wanted to work part time and pursue hobbies (major conflict of interest)I wanted family vacations, or even a date. I wanted to be married.
Please don't judge me on what I'm about to tell you; I have been saying struggling with my decisions
While it was irresponsible to do so in the manner that I chose, I decided to start a new life with my first love. He was getting divorced and I was about to. I got pregnant. Here is where it gets weird. I wasn't sleeping with my husband. And my lover paid lots of money to conceive his second child with his former wife. To his knowledge he can't conceive. So I did what any liberal woman having an affair and about to divorce her husband would do. I took the RU486 pill. But wouldn't you know it, 3 months later, it happened again. My lover is beyond shocked because now we know for absolute certain. But the problem is that my divorce is just starting. I can't go to court pregnant. I could lose my kids. So I take the RU486 pill again. At this point I am beyond crushed. Because I wanted more kids, so does my lover. I'm pro-choice, but I never thought I would have to make that choice, twice.
Now that I'm divorced and have someone who actually wants to raise children with me (my husband didn't really want children anyway, which made life even more difficult doing everything on my own) I want another baby. My lover was horribly upset with me for taking the pill, as he saw this as a miracle (which it really is), and potentially our only chance. I'm afraid he might be right. We really want a baby together, for the sake of wanting more kids, but also to have that connection together, and to help blend our families as we ease into this. It's been a year and the kids still don't realize that we are together, but that we are all friends.
After the second RU486 pill, my periods changed dramatically. I have always been very regular with 28 day cycles. All of a sudden, I had 30 day cycles, or 2 periods in one month. The first were very heavy, like horribly. I have no fibroids or endometrial issues. My hormone labs were fine, but my cycle is messed up. I don't get it. I've started the basal body temp, and cervical mucus survey process... but I guess there was a lot of stress, breaking up the family, relocating, new job, being on my own with the kiddos...
But then I wonder about the lover, he did lose 50 lbs and potentially that is why we was able to conceive (he conceived his first child no problem.) But he has put a few pounds back on, but not obese by any means.
So lay it on me. What do you think? I realize that my story isn't going to make me popular, but I really have lead a life that would make you never guess that I would do something like this. I have felt guilty for months and months, and it has been so incredibly difficult, but I didn't invent this phenomenon, have repented to the best of my ability.
