today I... add yours..

[xxMrsMcKxx]

Today i did not let work get to me.

Since my m/c, i've hated my job. Nothing's changed with it, i just seem to have no patience with it but today i have only looked at the jobs board once (as apposed to spending half my day on them

 

[TTCabundle]

Today I had a lie in till dinner time! And now I'm getting ready to go to ASDA, dreading it but I suppose it will do me good to get out

 

[WantaBelly]

Today (2 days past D&C) I managed to shower without crying and have spent the day laying around w/my 2, 1 and 5 month old. I'm looking forward to cooking a nice dinner for my family for Valentines Day!!

 

[LuckyW]

I started the misoprostol 3 nights ago, and have been expecting to be incapacitated with pain and bleeding, so I've been lounging about. Lots of sleeping, eating junk food, bad tv.

I haven't really started bleeding yet, but I'm already sick of mucking about and ready to start moving on. I do have to take it easy, though, because yesterday I showered then fainted in the bathtub.

Anyway, my project today is cooking a vat of beans. Pinto beans.

 

[Lovechristmas]

1 week post miscarriage.

Today I did a mini shop at tesco, went to the garden centre - was so exhausted I had to come home.

Don't want to go to sleep as it was one week ago I woke up at midnight with my miscarriage.

 

[TTCabundle]

Today I went to ASDA and then planted some flowers in memory of the baby

 

[skyesmom]

that's a lovely thing to do TTCatbundle!

 

[LuckyW]

Can't take sitting around in pajamas all day anymore. Today I am organizing drawers in my home office.

 

[aimze]

Sykes it sounds like you've had a horrible time - sending lotd of peaceful thoughts your way...

MrsK I have also started to hate my job since my loss...I think it'sbecause I was SO looking forward to having 12months off and then only doing part time to be with my baby...

Today I had our second fertility treatment after our loss which was our first attempt and one successful treatment..

I'm not holding out a lot of hope as the spermies weren't exactly in their millions and I only had one egg instead of the3 I had on the cycle I concieved.

Today I was also referred for IVF, I'm looking forward to IVF and then ending the TTC journey in 2014 if nothing works -I want to live for the moment and for my OH not for the child I haven't been able to have...I'm putting our lifes on hold whilst we TTC...

Lots of hugs to you all x

 

[baby1wanted]

Have been waiting to be able to post this on this thread...
Today I made custard.
The day we found out I was pregnant I made custard for DH - he loves proper homemade custard. And I spent the whole time stirring away letting myself go into a long daydream planning pretty much the rest of our lives, everything from pregnancy and labour to savings funds and university plans! Needless to say the custard boiled and curdled and we ended up eating very sweet scrambled eggs. But neither of us minded, we were so happy.
Up to now I haven't been able to bear the though of what daydream my mind would drift into making it again now we've lost the baby. But today I managed it, yay me

 

[baby1wanted]

Hugs to everyone else going through all this sadness

 

[LuckyW]

Positive daydreaming, huge! Go, you!

And hugs to you too.

 

[sedgeez]

today i washed my hair!

and i know that doesnt seem like much but ive been feeling so crappy for this past week and half that i havent washed my hair, ive just had it in a messy bun. ive barely even got out of bed this past week. only when ive had to go to the hospital. even then i didnt wash my hair.

so this was an acheivement.

although i didnt get dressed maybe tomorrow??

 

[skyesmom]

oh sedgeez i didn't wash my hair for almost 3 weeks in the time after the mc.. didn't even see those 3 weeks go by. and ever since then, my haircare has really gone to the minimum acceptable (been a year now)... but getting better with it!

and hurray to baby1wanted and custard and positive daydreaming and beautiful healing moments that are slowly starting to come

 

[sedgeez]

oh sedgeez i didn't wash my hair for almost 3 weeks in the time after the mc.. didn't even see those 3 weeks go by. and ever since then, my haircare has really gone to the minimum acceptable (been a year now)... but getting better with it!

it seems even the simplest of tasks arent manageable at the moment, so i was very proud i managed to do my hair.

its actually my OH's birthday today (what a crap day with all the crap thats happened this past week) , but when he went out to see his family, i also did a slight tidy up.

 

[LuckyW]

Congrats on the hair washing, sedgeez!

And I mean that without an ounce of sarcasm, I swear.

although i didnt get dressed maybe tomorrow??

Also, I thought your use of this smiley here was super cute and funny. The first part before he smacks his head, when he just looks sort of sheepish.

 

[LuckyW]

Today all I wanted to do was sit in bed and bleed. But my body isn't cooperating, even after 3 doses of misoprostol.

So I forced my ass up to go take a walk and run a few errands.

Thought this might make me feel better, but it hasn't.

Still, I am trying.

 

[george83]

My friend came round for lunch with her three and a half week old baby, I did my best at being happy but my heart actually broke when my 19 month old started gently stroking the baby's arm and talking to him.

 

[skyesmom]

george83, my heart would break to that too i had sth similar when i saw my bf adjusting a sock to our friends newborn, i just though i failed to make him a father and how wonderful dad he'd make and just died. it's hard times and u never know what may trigger you.
i admire your strength. let yourself cry whenever u feel like crying!

 

[LuckyW]

Aww, george, your post made my heart wrench.

skyesmom, feel your pain too. Something primal about seeing your mate with a baby, I know the feeling.