today I... add yours..

[BeautifulD]

Today I actually managed to get through a day without sobbing, I even managed to smile a bit. I had a horrific day yesterday, lots of pain and passing massive clots! I think I have passed everything now though as the bleeding has turned to spotting, please god let this be the road to healing, in body at least!

 

[PinkCupcake]

I don't think it's actually sunk in... I never for one second thought, that we would fall pregnant sooo fast, as it took years to fall in feb... Then when I found out I was pregnant again, I thought surely I can't be that unlucky to have 2 miscarriages in a row?... But obviously yup, I was that unlucky

It must be the hardest thing ever to go through it more than once. I'm so sorry

I remember reading your first MC story on a thread when I was pregnant. Then I lost the baby, and remember reading that you was pregnant again and I was so shocked at how quick it must have happened! And now this it's terrible.. How far along was you if you don't mind me asking?? x

 

[MrsC1003]

Today I managed to do the 350 mile journey home after miscarrying at my Grandparents. I managed to brush and straighten my hair and not scream as the train passed the place my baby is currently at having tests ran on her, or scream at the number of people I saw on the train with their children who just didn't seem to realise how lucky they are

 

[Babee_Bugs]

I remember reading your first MC story on a thread when I was pregnant. Then I lost the baby, and remember reading that you was pregnant again and I was so shocked at how quick it must have happened! And now this it's terrible.. How far along was you if you don't mind me asking?? x

I ovulated around 6 weeks after my d&c... But you add the 2 weeks before that, and so on the 11th of July I was around 8weeks, give and take a few days, as I had a scan done 16 days prior, which found a gestational sac with yolk sac... But my womb was full of blood! So it was a very bleak outlook from the start.

My first miscarriage was a blighted ovum and there treating this as a blighted ovum also, because of what the last scan showed

There were gonna give me the tablets, so I went to the hospital, to be told after further looking at the scan, there recommend doing it naturally... I can usually stomache a lot of things, but doing this naturally is starting to take its toll me on

 

[PinkCupcake]

Today I managed to do the 350 mile journey home after miscarrying at my Grandparents. I managed to brush and straighten my hair and not scream as the train passed the place my baby is currently at having tests ran on her, or scream at the number of people I saw on the train with their children who just didn't seem to realise how lucky they are

oh hun that's terrible.. you done very well not to scream because i would have done if it had just recently happened to me. also well done for managing to brush and straighten your hair! that's more than what i managed to do right away .. plus it's the small things like that, that lead to a smile in time xx

I remember reading your first MC story on a thread when I was pregnant. Then I lost the baby, and remember reading that you was pregnant again and I was so shocked at how quick it must have happened! And now this it's terrible.. How far along was you if you don't mind me asking?? x

I ovulated around 6 weeks after my d&c... But you add the 2 weeks before that, and so on the 11th of July I was around 8weeks, give and take a few days, as I had a scan done 16 days prior, which found a gestational sac with yolk sac... But my womb was full of blood! So it was a very bleak outlook from the start.

My first miscarriage was a blighted ovum and there treating this as a blighted ovum also, because of what the last scan showed

ohhh i see i had strong hopes for the most recent pregnancy of yours. what with reading about your last loss and then like you, i just doubted it would happen again. it seems so common and it's hard to understand why?! I was speaking to a old friend of mine today who actually asked how many weeks i was now (meant to be 18 nearly) and i couldn't help but cry. she didn't know what's happened, and ended up telling me that she's had 4 losses one after the other. it makes no sense how things can go wrong with a fresh, new pregnancy each time to the same person. i still find it hard to understand how things went wrong with my pregnancy even, especially when i saw the baby at 8+1 looking like a tiny human with little features already. then it all went wrong and it's hard to accept that it went wrong when my baby had developed to a certain degree already and then just died argh there's a million and one questions that we will never have answered. i wish we all did have more answers. i understand that hospitals deal with this every day but they didn't seem to care about the fact that i wanted answers. to them, our pregnancies are just one of SO many but to us, these meant everything and it would definitely have settled my mind to know if my baby would have been normal even but i'm never going to know. it SUCKS.

 

[cupcake]

today I finally got my period after being 6 days late, or maybe even 10, I ovulated after my miscarriage and got a normal period so this being my second period to come, didnt expect things to still be out of whack , but they were, and I just bought the progesterone pills the gyno said to take if I dont get my period...
well thank G-D I got my period, and for once thank G-D I tested early or I would have thought I was pregnant and been so let down

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Pink cupcake - your right it awful!. I've got 2 sons to the same partner, who I'm still with now... And I had them with absolutely no problems at all. I was overdue with them etc.

But I was only 18 and 21 when I had them, I'm now just turned 26.. So I'm starting to think that maybes I'm just too old? I started my periods early at about 12 years old... So maybes my good eggs have been depleted and now I've got rubbish empty ones

I don't know... I was talking to the consultant after my scan on the 11th just gone, it took him 20 minutes to remember he hadn't said his condolences, not that I wanted any, as I knew things weren't good before my scan. But he just kept smirking, took phone calls during my consultation. Asked me if I had children and I said, well yeh I've got 2 boys, so his response was, oh so your trying to have a girl then?... I just looked at him and my response was, "no, I don't really care, but considering I can't get past the first trimester, I will have whatever gender!" he quickly changed his smirk. Said I'm still in the range of normal, because there won't class my chemical pregnancy miscarriage I had in August, as a actual miscarriage, because I wouldn't of know I was pregnant if I hadn't of tested before my period was due. So if I miscarry again, then I'm elegible for testing! LOVELY... I hope there isn't a next time

I made the mistake of telling people when I was pregnant in feb, and so the people who didn't know that I miscarried would come upto me and say "ee lucky you for not showing!" needless to say I didn't feel so lucky after that. This pregnancy I told no-one not untill the other day.

 

[horseypants]

argh babee bumps dont say that - im 34!

today i'm hopeful damnit! testing tomorrow

 

[Babee_Bugs]

argh babee bumps dont say that - im 34!

today i'm hopeful damnit! testing tomorrow

Lol horsey... I don't know, 26 sounds young, but I honestly think my body is just screwed up.

Awww goodluck for testing Hunnie x

 

[BeautifulD]

At 26 you're definitely not to old hun!

Today I'm getting my house back together, tidy house is a tidy mind!

Good luck for testing horseypants xx

 

[aimze]

good luck for testing!!

im 25 with an apparent low ovaarian reserve meaning i could menopause any month so for me i always wondered what if i tried at 18? but the guy i was with was an idiot at 18 so id much rather adopt with my amazing oh than have to be in contact with an idiotic ex!

x

 

[Melanieanne77]

Pink cupcake - your right it awful!. I've got 2 sons to the same partner, who I'm still with now... And I had them with absolutely no problems at all. I was overdue with them etc.

But I was only 18 and 21 when I had them, I'm now just turned 26.. So I'm starting to think that maybes I'm just too old? I started my periods early at about 12 years old... So maybes my good eggs have been depleted and now I've got rubbish empty ones

I don't know... I was talking to the consultant after my scan on the 11th just gone, it took him 20 minutes to remember he hadn't said his condolences, not that I wanted any, as I knew things weren't good before my scan. But he just kept smirking, took phone calls during my consultation. Asked me if I had children and I said, well yeh I've got 2 boys, so his response was, oh so your trying to have a girl then?... I just looked at him and my response was, "no, I don't really care, but considering I can't get past the first trimester, I will have whatever gender!" he quickly changed his smirk. Said I'm still in the range of normal, because there won't class my chemical pregnancy miscarriage I had in August, as a actual miscarriage, because I wouldn't of know I was pregnant if I hadn't of tested before my period was due. So if I miscarry again, then I'm elegible for testing! LOVELY... I hope there isn't a next time

I made the mistake of telling people when I was pregnant in feb, and so the people who didn't know that I miscarried would come upto me and say "ee lucky you for not showing!" needless to say I didn't feel so lucky after that. This pregnancy I told no-one not untill the other day.

Babee Bugs - I have been following your story and Im so sorry for what you are going through. Just wanted to send you hugs x

 

[aimze]

Today i ordered my bridesmaids dresses :+) yay!

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Well today/night, been sat in the hospital with my 4 year old. He had a temp of 39 Celsius, which just wouldn't go down not with paracetamol, ibuprofen and Luke warm baths.

Then started being sick and complaining of a bad head. So whisked him straight to hospital and he's got the onset of tonsillitis.

 

[cupcake]

My son had it 3 weeks ago then was allergic to the anti biotic! But a new course cleared it up, its miserable hurts so bad to swallow

 

[PinkCupcake]

Well today/night, been sat in the hospital with my 4 year old. He had a temp of 39 Celsius, which just wouldn't go down not with paracetamol, ibuprofen and Luke warm baths.

Then started being sick and complaining of a bad head. So whisked him straight to hospital and he's got the onset of tonsillitis.

oh no bless him! I feel his pain I used to get tonsillitus atleast once a month up until the age of 15! it's horrid xx

 

[FeLynn]

today i read a poem about miscarriage and it really helped me be able to grieve. i shared it to my cousin who lost a baby at birth n it really made her smile. so ima share this mom here:
What Makes a Mother? - Author Unknown

I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked, ’What makes a Mother?’ and I know I heard Him say,
A mother has a baby, this we know is true,
But God, can you be a mother when your baby’s not with you?
Yes you can, He replied, with confidence in His voice
I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime, others for a day
And some I send to feel your womb, but there’s no need to stay.
I just dont understand this Lord, I want my baby here!
He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear,
I wish the I could show you what your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile with the other children and say.
’We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear,
My mummy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mum who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly, my mummy set me free.
I miss my mummy oh so much, but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep, on her pillow’s where I lay,
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear,
Mummy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here’.
So you see, my dear sweet one, your children are ok,
Your babies are here in my home, and this is where they’ll stay.
They’ll wait for you with me, until your lesson’s through,
And on the day I call you home they’ll be at the gates for you.
So now you know what makes a mother.
It’s the feeling in your heart,
Its the love you had so much of, right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realise until their time is done,
Remember all the love you have,
And you ARE a special mum!

this made me cry a little. I miss my princess and my 2 other I was too early with them to know any details. I am also a mother to 3 boys. I wish this was easier on all of us. I would give anything to have my baby growing in me again and then to be able to give birth and hold her and kiss her and look at the little baby girl I have been waiting for since I was a little girl!

 

[FeLynn]

Today, I don't know why, but I just feel like I can't keep doing this anymore as with regards to trying for a baby... For years I've had nothing but disappointment!.. Other woman just fall pregnant when they don't even want they baby! Arghhhhh I feel sooo angry and annoyed... I feel a failure and just a utter sense of what's the point?

My sons are coming upto 8 and 5 years of age.. Do I really want to be starting all over again?... Sleepless nights, teething, safe guarding everything in the house, buying a bigger car, maybes dealing with post natal depression again, having another c-section, being a high risk pregnancy.... Then worrying to hell every week wondering if I have another blighted ovum, or if something is wrong.

My head is wanting to call it quits, but my heart is saying different

Pink cupcake - your right it awful!. I've got 2 sons to the same partner, who I'm still with now... And I had them with absolutely no problems at all. I was overdue with them etc.

But I was only 18 and 21 when I had them, I'm now just turned 26.. So I'm starting to think that maybes I'm just too old? I started my periods early at about 12 years old... So maybes my good eggs have been depleted and now I've got rubbish empty ones

I don't know... I was talking to the consultant after my scan on the 11th just gone, it took him 20 minutes to remember he hadn't said his condolences, not that I wanted any, as I knew things weren't good before my scan. But he just kept smirking, took phone calls during my consultation. Asked me if I had children and I said, well yeh I've got 2 boys, so his response was, oh so your trying to have a girl then?... I just looked at him and my response was, "no, I don't really care, but considering I can't get past the first trimester, I will have whatever gender!" he quickly changed his smirk. Said I'm still in the range of normal, because there won't class my chemical pregnancy miscarriage I had in August, as a actual miscarriage, because I wouldn't of know I was pregnant if I hadn't of tested before my period was due. So if I miscarry again, then I'm elegible for testing! LOVELY... I hope there isn't a next time

I made the mistake of telling people when I was pregnant in feb, and so the people who didn't know that I miscarried would come upto me and say "ee lucky you for not showing!" needless to say I didn't feel so lucky after that. This pregnancy I told no-one not untill the other day.

wow babee bugs I can relate to you so much!!! I too just turned 26, I have had 3 losses and have children prior to the losses with all the same partner. I started my period at about 13 or 14 at the latest cant not remember. My losses were in sept 2011, jan 2012 and june 2012.

 

[FeLynn]

Thank you for your concern ladies We're all doing well, except my DH who is still stiff.

4angels, I am so incredibly sorry you're going through this! Is anyone working with you to figure out what the heck is going on? A million hugs.

Lovewithin, grats on the shave Don't pants feel funny on legs that are shaved after a "mammoth period"?

We are now being referred for tests as they would not refer us prior to this as I had 1 ectopic pregnancy and 2 miscarriages. I was told I had to have 3 miscarriages before I "qualified" for tests. I'm just hoping we might now get some answers. Just feel so deflated tonight. xx

my dr still wont do test on me and I have had 3 losses! this is just crazy! I hope you get answers I would like some answers as well.

 

[Babee_Bugs]

wow babee bugs I can relate to you so much!!! I too just turned 26, I have had 3 losses and have children prior to the losses with all the same partner. I started my period at about 13 or 14 at the latest cant not remember. My losses were in sept 2011, jan 2012 and june 2012.

Awww it's soo sad that we are in very similar circumstances... I really hope it changes for us both.

I had testing done on my last miscarriage only because I was possible query for molar pregnancy. Everything came back "normal".

I had some blood tests last year, FSH, pro Lactin, progrestrone, oestrogen... Probs a few other things but cant remember, had a smear and that was clear.... I had a scan and my eggs and tubes looked good!