Trying for #1, anyone is welcome!

[LeeMcMee]

If you are curious. Took these a little while ago. maybe I did t save my pee long enough

 

[Diedrek]

Lee- I do see squinters for sure and I think it’s very possible your LP isn’t correct this time with the early O and all. Maybe you’re not actually due for another few days- or even up to a week?? You might be catching just the early days of bfps where they are super faint! Keep testing I pray they darken loads over the next few days and the witch stays her bizznaz away!! Lol

Nix- Yay for the TWW! Not too much longer now until you really start to get some more symptoms and the craziness begins lol! Sorry about you and your OH Mine and I got into it after the lack of BDing during my positive opk days. Boy do I feel bad now that I didn’t even O hahah. Oops sorry babe Hope you have a fun time with your girl!

Lady- thank you I’m trying to stay positive because there’s nothing I can do about this right now & if I don’t it’ll drive me crazy!

So yea temps went down again. Need to find out how to link my chart onto here but right now it’s just looking like your pulse would. Up and down up and down!! I guess this has happened before skipping a cycle and then getting O symptoms randomly again with an actual ovulation. It just makes my cycles never the same date and eek obviously a nightmare. Heard such good things about the vitex though soo. Wondering if I should add some other things. Been trying to gain weight like crazy too. Eating so much all day. I did gain a pound over the last two weeks so that’s something I’m hating waiting to wait lol. Thank goodness for you girls!!

 

[LeeMcMee]

Just a quick post as I’m driving and using voice to text thing but I just checked my CP which is still super low and I had a huge amount of thick milky white CM that took up about a third of my middle finger and I have never had that before. Hopefully that’s a good son. I have no signs of a yeast infection nor have I ever had one so I know it’s not that. Will check back

 

[LoneWanderer]

Hi all, I have just arrived here and thought I'd say hello and good luck to you all.

We have been working on #1 for coming up five years now. Finally sought a bit of help end of last year, discovered I don't ovulate (strange as I have very regular 27/28 day cycles, but there you go) so I started Clomid (50mg, 2-6) this month. Right now am cd24 and not entirely sure if I o'd (day 18 final u/s appt showed follicles still growing at over 20mm).

If I did, I'd be about 4dpo now. So I'm sort of in the TWW, but not sure, if that makes sense? All very new to me.

AF due in four days and so far have no pre-AF symptoms, should have sore boobs by now and they're fine lol. I'm also exhausted all the time, and ridiculously hungry (though that could be the cold weather lol), and I'm ridiculously tired all the time. Maybe Clomid has pushed my cycle back and is messing with me - maybe these are positive signs - maybe AF is lurking - I just don't know!! All fun and games, this TWW thing(!)

 

[Lady_Alysanne]

Lee - Its a squinter for me too, may be fmu tomorrow will show a bit darker line. I know girl, buying all these stuff every month, it could be expensive, I just hope all this is worth something, and we get our BFPs soon.. MWCM is a good sign, keep us posted dear.

I will just cook some of hubby's favorite, or at least try to, lol. Not a great cook. We don't have anything special planned out really, we will just try to spend some quality time together, squeeze in some date nights, and DTD lol.

Die - I was googling vitex too, lot of positive feedbacks. So from my understanding, it takes a bit of time to get the result right? GL!! I am going to use preseed this month, last time we ttcd I didn't get a lot of EWCM, so hoping preseed would help this time.

Any of you have any experience with preseed girls?

 

[Lady_Alysanne]

Hi all, I have just arrived here and thought I'd say hello and good luck to you all.

We have been working on #1 for coming up five years now. Finally sought a bit of help end of last year, discovered I don't ovulate (strange as I have very regular 27/28 day cycles, but there you go) so I started Clomid (50mg, 2-6) this month. Right now am cd24 and not entirely sure if I o'd (day 18 final u/s appt showed follicles still growing at over 20mm).

If I did, I'd be about 4dpo now. So I'm sort of in the TWW, but not sure, if that makes sense? All very new to me.

AF due in four days and so far have no pre-AF symptoms, should have sore boobs by now and they're fine lol. I'm also exhausted all the time, and ridiculously hungry (though that could be the cold weather lol), and I'm ridiculously tired all the time. Maybe Clomid has pushed my cycle back and is messing with me - maybe these are positive signs - maybe AF is lurking - I just don't know!! All fun and games, this TWW thing(!)

Hello and welcome LoneWanderer!! You are almost close to halfway of your tww, counting today as your 4 DPO. I know exactly what you mean, all this could be so confusing. I am starting to do my opks this month to figure out if I actually O, and then this would be my 3rd cycle ttc. If sore bbs is your usual PreAF symptom, not having them is certainly good, added to that tiredness and feeling hungry. Fx for your BFP!! Keep us updated if you have any new symptoms, or just how you are feeling.

 

[LoneWanderer]

Hello and welcome LoneWanderer!! You are almost close to halfway of your tww, counting today as your 4 DPO. I know exactly what you mean, all this could be so confusing. I am starting to do my opks this month to figure out if I actually O, and then this would be my 3rd cycle ttc. If sore bbs is your usual PreAF symptom, not having them is certainly good, added to that tiredness and feeling hungry. Fx for your BFP!! Keep us updated if you have any new symptoms, or just how you are feeling.

Hi! Oh, it's so nice to get a response from someone on one of these forums. I started to wonder if I'd gone invisible lol. I'm rubbish at starting conversations and meeting new folk - even online. Just a bit awkward lol!! So thank you thank you

I used to do OPKs but I'd get such random results, positives all over the place - I've read if your progesterone is screwy like mine is, you can get false positives etc, and my OBGYN said not to bother. The tests confused us so much we just gave up in the end anyway Hope yours give you the result you need to know though - lots of folk seem to swear by them.

Last night I was up twice to use the loo - weird for me. The night before was the same, but that night I took a cup of tea up with me so it's no wonder really! Last night I made a point of not having a drink before bed - and was still up at 4am and 6am :S Then with all that disruption, I slept in til 11am - also not like me!!

The bbs are still happy and well, not a hint of my usual soreness or anything. Still starving too - last night I finished an entire Sunday roast - and it was huge, same portion as OH. Never done that before in my life, I'm one of those annoying people who leaves half a meal without fail. AND I had dessert!

Woke up shattered despite sleeping loads, had this weird dream that OH was being really mean to me, turned our house into a party house and invited all his mates over, like it was uni again (we're in our thirties lol) and then he got really ill and fell down some stairs and I had to yell at them all for not looking after him. Even weirder, he was wearing leather trousers. Anyway, after I woke up about 2am, I sort of fell right back into the same dream. Never had that before.

That said, I still feel 'out' - maybe because I don't know for sure if I even O'd so I can't really get my hopes up. Hope you get your OPK+ this month though, and it leads you to your BFP!!

 

[Nixnax]

Hey lone, I hope these are all positive signs for you. We are about the same point in our TWW. I’m on 6DPO today.

I still have nothing new to report this end. I usually have tender boobs by now but not just yet.

How is everyone else doing? Lee, any more BFPs?

 

[LoneWanderer]

Attached pic is my cycle diary for Feb/Mar - someone may find it interesting lol

 

[Diedrek]

Girls it’s .... MONDAY!! I could cry sad tears y’all haha.

I was just thinking that I wish there was a way I could get on the FB groups without blowing my cover to all my great and mosey fb friends haha!

First of all Wanderer welcome!!! So glad you could join us as we are all trying for #1! I too don’t ovulate very well.. but I also skip af (aunt flow aka period aka the witch lol). I just started to temp which has been giving me lots of info on the fact I don’t seem to ovulate! It’s actually crazy cause with all the research I’ve done it turns out you CAN get your period every month and not ovulate. It’s not even a real period lol they call it breakthrough bleeding from estrogen! And it’s usually lighter... well girls doesn’t THAT explain my “light period” with no cramps And yes girl if this is your first cycle with clomid I heard it pushed everything back even late ovulation =/ I see your journal and seriously I’m super jealous of your handwriting !! It’s STUNNING! Ugh would my boss love you haha! Have you thought about joining Fertilty friend? It’s what most of us on BnB use to track our cycles/symptoms It’s amazing! I see you monitor with your doctor have you been temping at all? Congrats on the TWW and I agree you’re almost through it girl! Hang in there and keep us updated on your symptoms/tests and GL!

Lee- how you doing love?? Let the high CP and milky cm be good news!!! Those symptoms don’t get any better around bfp stores!!! I hadn’t checked my cervix in a while hahha I was supposed to do it everyday so I guess I’ll start again! So glad you’re on top of it so I can look back to yours and see if there’s any correlations between cycles days! So thanks girl lol Have a good day and I hope you’re getting some answers, but hang in there girl!

Lady- Right I hear vitex is honestly the best thing you can do without getting prescriptions! Hoping it’ll work before I get to that breaking point! Also I’ve never used pressed but it seems like all the other women on here do =D Must be some GOOOOD stuff Funny because I usually DO gets tons of watery cm followed by lots of ew (not for a long time maybe a day or two) but it’s a lot of it! I should’ve known I wouldn’t O when I had NONE! So please let us know how it goes when you and DH use it I say definitely go for it because I’ve heard such great things as well!

Nix- See I seriously wonder if the no sore BBs will be your tell tale bfp signs from here on out FX!!

Good luck girls —- I for one haven’t gotten anymore opks I figured if I start to get another bout of O pains and only followed with my super fertile cm I’ll start using opks again and try again! Temp jumped this morning but it’s also FREEZING in Florida you guys!! I’m talking low 60’s when it’s usually like 80 degrees upon waking! So I slept with extra blankets and a hoodie lol. Nothing else really going on I got to work early so I had time to jump on here.

 

[Diedrek]

Oh and to mention dreams.. this isn’t TTC related whatsoever haha. I’m not a huge dreamer apparently and when I do have dreams they’re usually nightmares! And only if I sleep out on the couch. I wake up from a nightmare ALWAYS around 3:30-3:50. Super weird right? Anyways Saturday night I had a dream that I found my guy at our downtown area doing some kind of contest. There were three male judges sitting at a booth and I just randomly showed up to see like 3 of his exes (all high school since we met right after) and even a childhood friend of mine. And a few other rando chicks haha. Some were wearing WEDDING dresses like they were showing up to marry him. And I was mad but not pissed (yea right!) and I was telling him like Dude you need to tell these females to go home and this isn’t happening. That you led them on cause you’re with me yada yada yada and he’s like ok I will baby. He walks over to the judges at their booth/table and they start laughing with each other and the male judges are giving him DAPS! Yea.. like fist bumping and laughing as if they’re saying to him “ you’re the man, look at all your girlfriends!” Oh my god. And I ran up to him after seeing my childhood friend and screamed HER!!? ___ ____!!!!? And he goes “oh shit yea that one was just a joke sorry babe ...” And then I woke up! PISSED at my so called fiancé hahaha. He just laughed when I told him and “baby what is wrong with you...your dreams ...?” Instead of just saying “with you.” Smooth babe, smooth. I in no way shape or form think this way about him let me make that clear lol.. we watched my best friends wedding last night!! I can’t believe that led me to having such a nightmare hahah. PSA you guys .. that movie will cause serious dream infidelities lol.

 

[LeeMcMee]

Lone - Welcome!! We are talkers haha and we just about talk every day. I'm sorry to hear that you have been trying for 5 years. I'm sure that is tough. We just started a month ago and I have been on birth control pills for 17 years, so my cycles have been screwed up already in the last month... had a withdrawel bleed, them ovulated late, now my period is 3 days late and I have had SOME light positives on tests, but yesterday nada... haven't tested yet today. And being 32 and my husband 34 I do worry about having trouble trying. Also because we both have some health issues, both a little overweight, and 2 years ago I thought I was pregnant while on the pills because I missed a bunch but it ended up being that I had a large cyst on my ovary and a fibroid in my uterus. My period skipped a month! So now I worry that I have PCOS (I'm a paranoid person lol) but I'm sure the doc would have told me I did. They had to do an ultrasound to find that. Anyways, just a quick background on me lol. Also, I have the same symptoms as you and some more. I'm at 16DPO. Also no sore boobs and usually when I'm off the pill and about to get my period I have sore boobs. I got pregnant 10 years ago by accident (has a miscarriage at 6-8 weeks) and my boobs killed on the sides and the nipples and I THINK this was a week after getting my BFP. My boobs are slightly tender, but that's probably because I keep poking at them haha. You did one of those cool diaries! I love it! And as Die mentioned, I use the app Fertility Friend (but I don't pay for the updagrades) so that I can track all my symptoms. It's great.

Lady - I have no tried preseed, but I have heard about it. What is it and how do you go about getting it? Is it OTC?

Nix - No more BFPs just yet haven't tested yet today, but I brought some tests to work. I think I get too impatient and pee too soon or my pee is diluted. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not pregnant and it's my uterine fibroid messing with me. This happened 2 years ago where I thought I was pregnant and had ALL the same signs and that's when I signed up on this forum. I went back and reread some posts of my symptoms recently from 2 years ago and they were all the same as now EXCEPT I don't have pinching on my ovaries. When my doc discovered my fibroid back then, they did a blood test to check for pregnancy and then an ultrasound. I skipped a whole period, which is odd. Anywho, I had a large cyst on my ovary as well and anytime I sneezed or had sex it hurt on my ovary. I don't have that right now.

Die - Thanks!! I will check my CP today and see what's going on, but for a week now it dropped down super low then keeps going up and down lol it's undecided. And you sound like my mom who lives in Cape Coral, FL. She's always like "it's so cold we had to start a fire in the fireplace... it's in the 50s" I'm like "Mom it's 5 degrees here, so" LOL no but in the last week we had days in the 50s, 60s, and one day in the 70s!! That's sooooo not like Massachusetts at this time. Today we have like an inch of snow on the ground. March is like the last time we get snow then April is when everything is just wet from melting and it's more like spring weather. Our snowboarding days are almost up! I will be done when I find out I'm pregnant. I'm waiting on symptoms from you all damnit! LOL I have the same ones, but less cramping so I'm sad. I keep testing to see if my boobs are sore and they MAY be slightly tender, but I think it's from poking them.

Same symptoms that I've been having, but less cramps over the weekend I'm at 16DPO today and hoping it's not just my uterine fibroid messing with me this cycle. It could be since it's my 2nd cycle since coming off BCP and even so, this cycle and last were squished together because my AF was early after getting off BCP, I Od early, but now AF is 3 days late. I also read online yesterday that on average a BFP is seen 12 days after implantation and that would be this Thursday if I go by the day I got a dot of blood. Hopefully I get some darker lines by Thursday. Getting tired of this lol spent too much money on the 'good' tests for this to be a BFN LOL I should have just stuck with the Wondfos I have. I'm almost out of them!! I think the Walmart tests are so cute. I bought some yesterday to try out. Anywho, so that's it for now for me. Monday... yay...

 

[LoneWanderer]

Girls it’s .... MONDAY!! I could cry sad tears y’all haha.

First of all Wanderer welcome!!! So glad you could join us as we are all trying for #1! I too don’t ovulate very well.. but I also skip af (aunt flow aka period aka the witch lol). I just started to temp which has been giving me lots of info on the fact I don’t seem to ovulate! It’s actually crazy cause with all the research I’ve done it turns out you CAN get your period every month and not ovulate. It’s not even a real period lol they call it breakthrough bleeding from estrogen! And it’s usually lighter... well girls doesn’t THAT explain my “light period” with no cramps And yes girl if this is your first cycle with clomid I heard it pushed everything back even late ovulation =/ I see your journal and seriously I’m super jealous of your handwriting !! It’s STUNNING! Ugh would my boss love you haha! Have you thought about joining Fertilty friend? It’s what most of us on BnB use to track our cycles/symptoms It’s amazing! I see you monitor with your doctor have you been temping at all? Congrats on the TWW and I agree you’re almost through it girl! Hang in there and keep us updated on your symptoms/tests and GL!

Haha, thanks! I am a bullet journal obsessive - everyone else I know has an iPad or fancy mobile which does all this stuff for them, but I am something of a technophobe myself (not really great for a digital marketing specialist, but hey ) Pen and paper works great for me lol, keeps me organised and knowing where I'm at. I have tried tracking apps in the past but I forget to fill them in - the book is always right there on my desk or in my handbag, so wherever I am it gets updated in real time - works for me, anyhow. Does everything, from to-do lists and shopping lists to birthdays and even my favourite quotes and my long term goals. Plus of course all the handwriting practice, and it's a colouring book too. Anyway I'm rambling, it's just a diary lol

Hahahahaha your dream sounds even crazier than mine! I enjoyed reading that! Definitely think your movie influenced it somewhat haha. I actually woke OH up at about 4am this morning to tell him he'd been horrible to me He just told me to go back to sleep, and I did. It was so weird for me because I very, very, very rarely have dreams of any kind. I just fall asleep and that's it til morning. I don't usually wake up in the night either, so having to get up twice has left me exhausted today.

I don't temp as the doctor told me not to bother, she said the ultrasounds and bloodwork would be enough to know if I'd O'd. Clearly she was talking b*ll*cks, as here I am not knowing if I O'd!

Think if this clomid cycle doesn't work, we'll do one more than put the third one back a bit. It's my grandad's 90th in April and he's having a big party, I don't want to be suffering hot flushes and mood swings, or stuck with a ton of scans and appointments, or trying to fit BD around travelling. So while I'm not pinning everything on this cycle, it better be this one or the next

Good luck to you and the other ladies on this thread, hope this ends up being our month!

 

[LoneWanderer]

Lone - Welcome!! We are talkers haha and we just about talk every day. I'm sorry to hear that you have been trying for 5 years. I'm sure that is tough. We just started a month ago and I have been on birth control pills for 17 years, so my cycles have been screwed up already in the last month... had a withdrawel bleed, them ovulated late, now my period is 3 days late and I have had SOME light positives on tests, but yesterday nada... haven't tested yet today. And being 32 and my husband 34 I do worry about having trouble trying. Also because we both have some health issues, both a little overweight, and 2 years ago I thought I was pregnant while on the pills because I missed a bunch but it ended up being that I had a large cyst on my ovary and a fibroid in my uterus. My period skipped a month! So now I worry that I have PCOS (I'm a paranoid person lol) but I'm sure the doc would have told me I did. They had to do an ultrasound to find that. Anyways, just a quick background on me lol. Also, I have the same symptoms as you and some more. I'm at 16DPO. Also no sore boobs and usually when I'm off the pill and about to get my period I have sore boobs. I got pregnant 10 years ago by accident (has a miscarriage at 6-8 weeks) and my boobs killed on the sides and the nipples and I THINK this was a week after getting my BFP. My boobs are slightly tender, but that's probably because I keep poking at them haha. You did one of those cool diaries! I love it! And as Die mentioned, I use the app Fertility Friend (but I don't pay for the updagrades) so that I can track all my symptoms. It's great.

Hiya! Thanks Though to be honest the five years hasn't been that awful for us, not when compared with some people's TTC journeys. I always kind of knew something was up - with my first long-term ex we weren't all that careful at times and it never happened (thank goodness); with the second we tried for about two years on and off (before he ran off with a colleague and left me to cancel our wedding, what a **** eh?); with the decent chap I've finally landed it's been five years of mild disappointment. We still weren't really all that desperate for success though, not til we learned there's no NHS funding for IVF after age 35 - now the panic has set in lol. We couldn't afford all this TTC stuff on our own - especially not if it's going to be a long and drawn-out journey. But now that we know there's an issue for sure, and there's that time limit ticking down on us, the stakes have been raised lol.

Haha even poking at them every few minutes isn't inducing my usual bb soreness, I feel very odd at the lack of discomfort, it's my one consistent monthly symptom that I can always rely on.

Hmm light positives is surely a sign for some optimism, at least? I hope testing today turns out okay for you. Fingers crossed! The doc told me after my HSG that I defs didn't have PCOS - have you had one of those? Mine was one of the worst things I've ever been through - NEVER AGAIN!! Honestly, I think when I broke my arm was less painful than having the exam done. I literally screamed at the doc 'why are you doing this to me?' and then after I lay on the floor of the hospital loos sobbing for half an hour, then finally got home and promptly threw up everywhere and passed out. And believe me, I'm not a wuss lol. BUT at least we got valuable info from it - no blocked tubes, no PCOS, had the right bits etc.

Of everything we've gone through so far, that was the absolute worst. At first I was worried - if that was so awful, can I handle carrying a baby, and labour? But of course, the body is designed to push a baby out and it supplies its own painkilling chemicals and the like -it's natural. We're not designed to have random tubes and fluids shoved into us lol! So I think it'll be okay. Better be, anyway hahaha!

 

[LeeMcMee]

Die - I just read about your dream LOL we wake up mad at them for bad dreams and they're like wtf haha

 

[LeeMcMee]

Lone - OUCH I have not been tested for HSG! That sounds brutal! Yes my faint BFPs have left me happy then disappointed when I don't see the lines again. So hoping for some good lines again soon.

My dream last night was horrible. I dreamt I was partying (at an outdoor bar or something) and I had my own vodka bottle or whatever the drink was. I put it down and closed it, but then when I looked at it had 3 dead brown recluse spiders inside it all with their legs curled (F THAT... I HATE spiders... and these are deadly spiders) and I opened the bottle and 1 started crawling out, so I said NOPE. I was so bummed that I couldn't drink my vodka anymore lol maybe that's a sign that I'm pregnant and can't drink... pregnant with triplets?! OH god LOL my husband always jokes saying that cuz I have been bugging him for 3 years to try and he would always say 'watch when we DO try we will end up with twins or triplets' meaning that would be our luck AND cuz he has identical twin nieces. I always wanted twins lol but now I think it would be hectic and expensive, but I wouldn't be mad if I had twins. He finally came to me in January saying he was reading to try anyways, f those spiders.

 

[LeeMcMee]

My cramps are back!! Yay!! They are the main symptom I'm holding onto hope with. It's since I started typing about the spider dream lolol

 

[LoneWanderer]

Lone - OUCH I have not been tested for HSG! That sounds brutal! Yes my faint BFPs have left me happy then disappointed when I don't see the lines again. So hoping for some good lines again soon.

My dream last night was horrible. I dreamt I was partying (at an outdoor bar or something) and I had my own vodka bottle or whatever the drink was. I put it down and closed it, but then when I looked at it had 3 dead brown recluse spiders inside it all with their legs curled (F THAT... I HATE spiders... and these are deadly spiders) and I opened the bottle and 1 started crawling out, so I said NOPE. I was so bummed that I couldn't drink my vodka anymore lol maybe that's a sign that I'm pregnant and can't drink... pregnant with triplets?! OH god LOL my husband always jokes saying that cuz I have been bugging him for 3 years to try and he would always say 'watch when we DO try we will end up with twins or triplets' meaning that would be our luck AND cuz he has identical twin nieces. I always wanted twins lol but now I think it would be hectic and expensive, but I wouldn't be mad if I had twins. He finally came to me in January saying he was reading to try anyways, f those spiders.

From what I've read my own experience was pretty unusual - lots of people say it wasn't much more uncomfortable than a cervical smear - so don't let my trauma put you off hahaha! It really does give you a pretty good idea of how all the internal stuff is looking, and if there's anything blocked or not working as it should - so it may be worth asking for to put your mind at rest re the PCOS and other issues? I also read online that some docs offer a mild sedative for it, nobody even mentioned this to me - if I'd been knocked out a bit, it would have probably been fine. But I gather many or most folk here are US based while I'm UK, so these tests and things can be expensive for you all I guess - don't know how you all do it, thank goodness for our national healthcare service...

 

[Diedrek]

Oh my god Lee!!! I live right by your mom!! (Fort Myers) GUILTY!!! That’s so crazy oh my god! Yes we will all wear hoodies and sweatpants to work like I did this morning haha. Guilty too!

 

[Nixnax]

Hey ladies,

Die - what And odd dream. I dreamt that my SO cheated on me once and I wouldn’t speak to him for a day. It felt so real. I hate vivid dreams. I rarely remember them but when I do, they are always horrible.

Lee - you should test tomorrow morning with FMU. That will then be 32 hours (ish) from your last test. Got everything crossed for you.

Wanderer - same here, I’m uk. I’m so glad about our health service. I’m 35 this year so I wouldn’t get IVF funded. I just need my SO to pull his finger out. Which part of the uk you from? I’m south west.

I really hope the lack of boob pain is a sign. Who knows. I’m feeling a bit fed up with it all at the moment. I think I have a bad case of the Monday blues