Wanderer- Wow thank you!!!! Did your doctor ever give you an answer on why you don’t ovulate? Exactly what you wrote is how I’ve been feeling. I’ve put it off for TOO long now because the what if’s. The biggest being “what if” we get the news I am inferitle and just simply can never bear my own child. I know that would be such a stretch but I’m honestly terrified it’ll end my ttc days
But I’m starting small! Will start with my ths and hormone panel because I feel it’s one of those culprits and hopefully an easy fix! She also has me booked for another ultrasound around the same time just to check up. My U/S have always looked great though so I’m not too worried about that. I had to do it for a few weeks in hopes I can use this time to calm down and stop freaking out about it. FX for that to work =D
Nope, they didn't seem concerned at all. Which is weird I guess - but it's not their job to learn why, just to fix the issue. Guess that's the NHS for you, no funding for extras, just the thing you turned up for. Just assuming my hormones aren't like most people's.
Even in the worst case scenarios, there's pretty much always a way forward. But until you have the answers, you can't start taking those steps. Could honestly be just some small imbalance that they can correct, and give you the best chance possible. Besides, if you've already had the ultrasound, that's where they spot a lot of stuff, so if you look fine in there there's probably nothing major physically - more likely something with your chemistry, and that's perfectly correctable.
Medical stuff makes me anxious, but I've learned I give myself all manner of symptoms and stresses in worrying about appointments and procedures and results. Which probably didn't help with the TTC thing! It's a vicious cycle. I broke it with two thoughts that I have to work to keep in my head most of the time - 'it will happen if and when it is meant to', and 'this too, will pass'.
AFM, only cd7 here, just finished the clomid round. MUCH better this time, slept properly. Woke up a bit hot most days and the odd hot flush in the day, but nothing like last month. Almost haven't noticed I've taken owt - aside from weird eyes first few days, it's been alright. So now I'm wondering if it's even working this month hahaha!
The weather is dire here, three days of solid rain. There's currently a large, old tabby cat in my kitchen, sheltering from the rain. It's not our cat. It lives up the road, but it assumes every house on the street belongs to it and goes where it pleases. It was howling at our door this morning, it knows we're soft touches. I feel a bit mean putting it in the kitchen instead of in here with me and the fire... But I'm not entirely convinced it doesn't have fleas, and don't want it on the sofa.
We've got a large package from Amazon recently, so the Preseed is here, the many, many HPTs are here, and lovely OH threw in a surprise pack of cute stickers for my diary - he's a sweetie. My mother's bought me a BBT thermometer, need to go collect that from her. Not sure it will help but hell, it's another thing to track with a sweet graph in my book!!
Got my appointment for day21 bloods sent over - but STILL no ultrasound appts. First one should be cd12 - in just five days!! Guarantee they cock it up again. I'll chase them up this afternoon if I can get through on the phone. Might send OH to pester them on his lunch break too haha...
I love it!! I can’t wait to stalk your chart!!
God bless the NHS, seriously, they work miracles on a less than acceptable budget... but my god does it have some serious issues to work on! A lifestyle choice? Ha! See how quick the human race vanishes when we all start making the 'lifestyle choice' not to repopulate. FFS. Insurers will do anything to avoid paying for anything though.
...still testing every day even though I know its positive 
just waiting to tell the parents when I finally get them in the house at the same time! My too fur babies are away with the parents this weekend, we have one fox red Labrador who is a total poser, and a rescue beagle cross, who is so lovely but so so stubborn!!
