Trying To Conceive #1+ Vent Thread

[melly2]

Hi Ladies,
Im been off and on this site for a while. DH and I have been TTC for 5 years. I was diagnosed with PCOS, had all the testing done, was givin Metformin, and tried 3 cycles of clomid. Still no baby. I decieded last fall to stop taking the Metformin as it was just making me naseous all the time. I need to make some lifestyle changes, and get healthy. I joined WW, and to date have lost 37lbs. Im now down to 188lbs. So im getting my OB/GYN to re-run the bloodwork to see if anything has changed with my hormones. Its been an emotional process, some days I want to give up, I can go months and it doesnt bother me, then bam im right back having it consume my every thought. I know others go through this as well, its hard, and I dont know how much longer I can keep going through this whole process. I dont even know why im writing this post, I guess I just needed to let it out.

Good luck with your challenges. It's amazing how finicky the human body can be. You have to lose weight to have baby, and apparently, my cycles are long and staggered because I run too much. I tell ya, if there is a happy medium, I want to know it. Hah! it's enough to drive anyone crazy.

 

[downanovary]

I'm venting today becuase for the last 3 days i have had 5, yes 5 Friends tell me they are pregnant! all of them didn't even have to try! and now i feel like a horrible friend because i'm not even that excited for them and i'm being selfish.

 

[Lilly410]

I want to be excited for her but i just cant be... she wasnt even ttc she just got lucky i guess! to you all

Don't be sad, she's just making cousins for the gorgeous babies that you will have one day really soon! )

 

[jenwantsababy]

now i feel like a horrible friend because i'm not even that excited for them and i'm being selfish.

this = me.

i soooo feel you on this! it is so frustrating to hear the news, and most of the time i can't even feel happy for them anymore, which makes me feel bad, because i want to be, but i am soooo weary of TTC while watching everyone around me get pregnant without even trying.

5 in three days?!

 

[downanovary]

I know! when the last person told me it was like a cannon ball to the gut! my husband was there and he just instatly put his hands on my shoulders, It hurt him too as much as it hurt me.

But this week we are optimistic!

 

[mrs edwards]

Hi there down, I've been there before too! That is a lot though, 5 in three days! holy cow..see if you can get whatever they're drinking ;-)....no but seriously, it is hard and i totally understand feeling that way. It's happened to me a lot through our ttc journey. I think it happens a lot too due to the fact that most of our friends are about our age and we are all at about the same points in our lives, therefore they're getting pg and we're not and it's upsetting.
I also understand the wanting to be excited thing too, been there, tried to be and it just comes across as fake. I've never been very good at sounding excited when i'm not.

 

[mrs edwards]

and def stay optimistic.

 

[ReadyForBump1]

Okay so im new to this site!! Hello all!!
Well i am ttc but it seems like im just getting air pudding. I know it doesn't happen over night but darn it iv been trying for months. Others just open up and the stork drops one on by....lol geeze do you guys have any tips??

Sn: Also i have been feeling awkward lately....fluttering in my tummy, headaches EVERYDAY, my acne is off the hook, CRAZY mood swings, nausea everyday all day, eating everything and not feeling full at all....idk whats going on. Is it in my mind or am i just making this up!??? help someone!!! Thanks loves

 

[ReadyForBump1]

me as well!!!!!

 

[mrs edwards]

Hi Ready...those symptoms sure do sound a lot like pregnancy symptoms...have you tested lately? I would if you're late. Sometimes when you want it so badly tho you interpret every twinge as a symptom ( sorry to say, i only say that because i do the SAME thing!!!) Some women know their bodies like the back of their hand and others (like me) get confused by every little thing. Just like right now, I feel very slight cramps, almost more of a fullness in my lower abdomen, slight headache, and breast tenderness... however, all of these symptoms can also be explained way, aka AF or just sinus issues..who knows...is so hard to tell. Hopefully you get some answers soon!

 

[Quindalyn]

AHHH!!!I am so angry because TTC has even managed to take the innocents of getting sick away from me. I'm 8 dpo and feeling icky (stuffy nose, really tired, achy, head ache and tummy cramps)and I can't even be a normal person because I'm worried that this ickiness could be a symptom and I don't want to hurt a potential pregnancy by taking the drug I need to feel better! I'm so TIRED, emotional and just wish I could take a bunch of Sudafed and fall asleep!

 

[Lilly410]

Hugs!

 

[Mikomi]

Well, I guess that's it. This is the eighth cycle of ttc. According to the chart I ovulated. We did our homework perfectly. And I have scheduled the appointment with a doctor for a week after AF should arrive. It will be either a happy visit or the beginning of finding out what's wrong. I think it's time. I know you are sort of supposed to wait for a year. But I've been charting, we were doing our part pretty much perfectly on time. And one other thing - I'm turning 30 in two weeks time. It will be either a very good and happy birthday or I will be drinking myself stupid - and I never drink. I have this ugly feeling, that it's now or never. And I don't want to hurt the feelings of those trying way longer than we are. But I feel so low Halle Berry is expecting at 46, Kathryn Morris is having twins at 44. And I should be happy for them but instead I'm only jealous. I'm younger than they are. And Halle Berry even said it's a surprise pregnancy... I'm feeling tired of all this. The main suggestion seems to be - don't think about it that much. But how can one just switch one's brain off? OK. So very tired and pessimistic rant is over.

 

[amarti75]

Hi, I am also trying to conceive. I've been married for 4 months now and have two months without the patch(bc). According to my period calendar, I should get it in 2 days. Im so confused because usually i would take 32-35 day for my period to come, and last month it took 29 days. I'm scared I won't be able to have a baby

 

[topkittycat]

Hi ladies, having a vent here,

I have pcos, iv gone back on my vitex im now cd 15 and still no positive opk.... hoping it will happen in the next few days seeing as though im back on my agnus. Fx for me!!

Baby dust to you all!! GL

 

[Ramie80]

Grrrrr! Just found out someone who used to be a friend is 12 weeks preg. This is after leaving her husband (who is a close friend) and two amazing children. She drinks a lot and her new boyfriend can't even look after her current children when she can be bothered to have them with her. Why is life so unfair?

Not long after deserting her wonderful kids we suffered a m/c and she had the audacity to contact me to offer a shoulder.... Why would I want to talk to her when she clearly doesn't even want the kids she has? And now to find shes having another! I feel sorry for the child and really angry at myself for being bothered when she isn't part of my life anymore.

Phew..... That felt good. Feel better now I've had that rant!

 

[weeyin09]

Need a rant !!

We have now been ttc for almost a full year, 1st of may will be the year, we are in cycle 15 & nothing
Over the year people have been pregnant, had babies & I have been fine with it, now my two best friends are pregnant, my best friends dog!!, another friend & my hairdresser plus 3 girls at my work

I am fed up now and just feel like crying, makes me feel like I want to give up & now convinced something is wrong with us

 

[Sparkle_13]

Grrr fertility friend changed my ovulation day by 5 days and if it is right we have completely missed it I thought I had done everything right this month and ovulated on cd13 which is right on my average now it's changed to cd18 which is the latest it's been in my 4 months of charting.... Grr I'm so annoyed! Probably mostly at myself though its not like its the computers fault definitely buying a cbfm for next month because I'm having absolutely no luck with the Internet cheapie opk's.
my friend keeps telling me we just need to bd everyday to make sure we don't miss it I know she's probably right but I just don't think I can do it so sad cos I thought I was already 8dpo and took a pg test...

 

[MrsShannahan]

New to this forum...long story short: 26 yo been ttc with my DH for 1 year. Had a miscarriage at 6 weeks along in October. No luck TTC or even ovulating after the MC. AF was coming about every 50-60 days. Started seeing a RE in February. Got diagnosed with PCOS...started metformin. Also got put on Femara. Did 5 days of that and then had an ultrasound. Grew 2 follicles, did Ovidrel to release them and then the "perfectly time" BD. Today was the end of our TWW and a BFN!!!!!! My DH tires to be very positive and is a wonderful husband, but lately I have felt very very alone. He just doesn't get what emotions I go through day in and day out.
During the TWW I scrutinized every little change in my body and routine. Did I go to the bathroom more than usual, are my breast sore, do they feel larger, am I nauseous or just anxious? I feel obsessed over every detail. I wasn't very hopeful this am while I waited the 3 long minutes for 1 pink line. All my girlfriends have children or are pregnant. One with PCOS is due in May. My sister just had a baby in February. My mother, sister, and close friends know we are struggling with this, and yet I feel like I am battling all these emotions on my own. I am still hopeful, but if one more person says, "don't worry" or "you're young" or "it'll happen" I'm going to go insane. Anyone else feel alone in a sea of people that love you?

 

[Sparkle_13]

Sorry for what you are going through MrsShannahan. Hugs