Trying to conceive # 1 with male fertility issues

[CathiiNoo]

I really hope your fertility specialist can give you some answers.

A little rant- so I was scrolling through Facebook and I see that my cousin got married and had a beautiful wedding BUT I didn't get an invite. I am so hurt because at one point in time we used to be a close family. I think my gran kept us together when she was living with us but then she moved 5 hours away to stay with her daughter and I haven't seen her in years. She didn't even wish me for my 21st birthday last year. All I got was a cheap dress necklace which she posted to me. No card nothing! I decided to message her on facebook ( yes my Nana is quite technology advanced lol) and see how she's doing etc. No response but get a message on my wall that goes as follows " Catherine-you should change your hair back to blonde because brunette makes you look too old! Nana" that's it! It hurts that I don't really have family to turn to. That side of the family feel they are better than me to even be happy for me or even just send me a message. It's disgusting really. OH well, rant over haha.

6 DPO today. Don't know what the dip was about on 4DPO. Heard it could be a second estrogen surge. What do you ladies think?

 

[CathiiNoo]

8 DPO. Tested with FMU. I want to think I see a second line but maybe line eye so classing it has a BFN. I used those thin 1 step test strips. Not sure how sensitive they are. I have 8 Frers but what to save them as they aren't sold here so I have to order them. Hope all you ladies are doing well xx

 

[CathiiNoo]

Couldn't take my temp this morning because I woke up at 3AM to see the blood moon and I normally temp at 5AM.

 

[Lost7]

Post the tests! We'd love to see them.

 

[CathiiNoo]

I tried and it keeps saying the image is too large. Eventually deleted it. Will take another test either tonight or tomorrow morning and will see if I can figure out how to make the image smaller.

 

[swimmyj1]

liking how your chart is looking!! really want to see your tests!!! fingers crossed we need some good news around here. I'm sorry to hear about your nana that isn't very nice. plus i like your hair color in your picture lol.

*also ranting sorry* I'm still arguing with my mom and its just getting uglier, i just want her to say sorry for being so negative and mean about my MC but instead she called my DH and asked him if he felt like I "needed help" and she knows the name of a great therapist that can help me if I'm going to hurt myself ....... which im not! ugh shes just so angering

nervous about the visit to the FS tomorrow. i don't know why sense there won't be any tests done its just a meet and greet. Hopefully we can get in fast after to get testing done.

 

[Lost7]

Love the look of your chart, when will you test?

 

[CathiiNoo]

Argh! That's so frustrating Swimmy! Your own mother should know you best and to make assumptions like that of you is so mean and uncalled for! She should rather be supporting you and helping you get through all these emotions instead of pushing you to see a therapist.

I tested last night with a blue dye and BFN. It dried with a clear second line but I will not get excited about that. They are known for convincing evaps. Also did a CB digital. Got 'not pregnant'. Let me know how your appointment goes xx

 

[CathiiNoo]

Oh and don't worry, I'm always nervous to see my FP. He is so positive all the time and it kind of makes me annoyed cause I know, from knowledge on here, that it doesn't always take a few months to get pregnant just because theres medication involved. It will take 3 or 4 months for the meds to start working then it goes from there. I don't expect it to happen soon but would be nice lol

 

[swimmyj1]

Your chart is so pretty lol I wish you were getting some BFP's though! the meeting with the FS went good. it was kind of weird sense we weren't the only couple it was more like a larger group meeting for them to decided if we met the criteria to be treated by a specialist (like we would be there if we didn't need it lol). He said he wants to run some tests on us next appointment, get a follow up SA and stuff. Then probably do another few cycles of clomid and do a different form of progesterone. If that doesn't work in 3 cycles doing IUI with a sperm wash to get out his bad ones. Goal to be pregnant within the year with a healthy baby.

So I like the plan hopefully it gets us some where. DH is gone for the week (of course during my fertile window ughhhh, i swear he worked that out perfectly lol). How are you doing??

 

[Lost7]

Great chart Cathii, when are you testing!

 

[CathiiNoo]

Hey ladies! I'm doing okay. CD1 today. I was a bit down when I went to the mall wih OH earlier as I saw my friend who's half way through her pregnancy. She's so young and has nothing to offer her child. Not saying she won't love him or her but it obviously wasn't planned and she was on the injection. Fell pregnant with a guy she barely knows. Argh. Anyways life goes on I guess.

I'm thinking of skipping seeingy FS this cycle as he practically talks about things I already know and then charges me for it. I will probably just tell him to get my medication ready and I'll pick it up.

Swimmy I hope your OH SA comes back positive with a higher count etc. Sorry he won't be there during your fertile window xx

How you Lost?

 

[CathiiNoo]

Hi ladies!

How's everyone doing?

 

[swimmyj1]

hey sorry i had been taking a little break from here for a while. I didn't end up temping or really using opks this cycle so it was a nice month off. Probably will do the same next month. But meeting with the specialist on the 22nd should be loads of fun I know they will be running lots of tests.
Goal of having a successful pregnancy within a year but who knows. AF is due in 5 days hoping she shows up on time sense my last mc she was a no show for 2 months.

I know what you mean about seeing women that you know shouldn't be having kids yet having them. My cousin and his gf have a 2 year old the grandmother has custody because they are both drug addicts. It makes me so sad when I watch her knowing these 2 could have a baby on accident and they don't care about her at all.

 

[NoodleHelm]

Hi everyone, just checking in. I haven't been on in awhile. I started bleeding 2 weeks ago, but after testing everything is okay. I am really praying hard for this rainbow.

How is everyone doing?

 

[CathiiNoo]

Hello pretties! CD11 for me. Getting lows on CB digital so I have no clue when I will be ovulating considering I ovulated on CD13 the past two cycles. OPKS aren't far off from being positive so I don't know why I'm getting lows still.

Swimmy, that makes me extremely sad! Every child is a miracle but it's horrible when the parents don't even care about their child and then someone who would really cherish a baby is battling to get their rainbow. I'm hoping that AF doesn't show and you get your rainbow if not then I hope your FS is able to give you some answers xx

Noodle, I'm with you on that one! Praying for you. X

 

[Lost7]

It wouldn't surprise me if (like me) you get a high on the day of your O (peak). It's only because I don't listen to the instructions that I get my peaks. I usually get a high then use an IC in the afternoon and think 'Gosh, that's close' then use another digital and it then peaks. Be careful not to miss the peak.

 

[swimmyj1]

Lost7 - how long did it take for AF to come back again after your MC's??
My 1st mc AF showed up 2 weeks after this time im a week past when I should have started....

So nervous about going this week, not sure why sense its not like im gonna walk out of the office pregnant lol.

CathiiNoo - how are you doing??

 

[CathiiNoo]

Hey Swimmy! I'm doing okay. Should be ovulating today hopefully. Not much else to report. When is your appointment?

 

[Lost7]

Lost7 - how long did it take for AF to come back again after your MC's??
My 1st mc AF showed up 2 weeks after this time im a week past when I should have started....

Hi Swimmy, usually straight away though had a complicated miscarriage in March, I kept having my normal periods whilst pregnant, but finally ended up miscarrying nearly a month later!

Complicated but, 1st Feb, I was 11dpo with BFN. AF came. CD8 I got my BFP (Around 18-19dpo).. i actually miscarried in March! Betas had gone down on my twins birthday, 14th Feb.

Some people will say, oh your AF was implantation.... No... I've always had heavy periods it was not implantation... It was very heavy and usual...

Good luck and sorry you're going through this.